I called you at 4am

Just to know if you were fine

And I thought that maybe we could talk

So I could share what was on my mind

You said that you were tired

And would it be okay

If maybe just maybe

We could wait until the day

And I said I don't care

No, I don't care

Just so long as

You promise

To be there

Don't worry, I don't care

If you don't care

You need sleep

And I should leave

I know that's fair

So I told you goodnight

And you hung up on me

And I bet you found it easy

To fall right back asleep

But I scrolled through my phone

And opened up five apps

And texted all the people

That I knew so I could chat

I had to get the words out

I had to find someone

Who'd listen to my ramblings

So it wouldn't be an audience of one

I know it's kind of stupid

To talk to random friends

But you don't understand

The kind of pain I'd feel instead

But it's fine, I don't care

No, I don't care

Just so long as

Someone promises

To be there

Don't worry, I don't care

If you don't care

I can't sleep

But you need sleep

I know that's fair

My mind feels like it's tearing me apart

And I can't feel the beat of my own heart

I wish that I could tell you I'm just fine

Without feeling like those words are all a 

Lie

But

I don't care

No, I don't care

I'll pull you in

Then push you away

Like I don't care

'Cause I don't care (it's not the truth)

I don't need you there (yes, I do)

I'm crazy

And you're weary (I'm sorry)

I know that's fair

So, I don't care (I'm lying)

I said I don't care (please help me)

I'm irrational

This you know

'Cause you're always there (I'm sorry)

Don't worry, I don't care

It's not that you don't care

You just need sleep

And I should leave

I know that's fair