I quietly walk into the canteen, sitting down at the table farther to the back. Phil went to go grab Jaxon, so I was left to wait for him to return. I can't wait to see Jaxon again, and properly speak to him. Properly speaking to anyone, that is. Lately, it's been about my feelings for Phil, and my health. Nothing went beyond those boundaries, and it was extremely boring and frustrating.

The glimpse of a not-so-usual red hair color catches my eye as I see a literal red head with blue eyes, and fare skin aimlessly walking around. He seems rather confused. No matter how amusing his flustered face is, I know that I should help him.

"Are you lost?" I call out towards the boy with bright box dyed red hair.

He twists his neck around before his eyes land on my slightly slumped over position and smirking face, "Uh...kinda." He says with hesitation, "I'm looking for someone, actually." He explains.

I nod, "Who're you looking for? I may be able to help you."

The boy walks closer to me so we don't have to be so loud, "I'm looking for my girlfriend, Emma. We're here to visit my best friend Patty, but she's obviously too stupid to keep track of me. Oh, I'm Luke by the way." I smile at how he easily picks on his girlfriend in a joking manner.

"Or you're just too stupid to keep up." A girl with a pixie haircut, and blonde hair from behind Luke retorts with her hands on her hips.

I raise my eyebrows and laugh, "Shut up you shit." Luke shoots back with a smile, and who I think is Emma slaps him up side the head.

"So, who's brown hair?" Emma asks, gesturing towards me.

"Well, Emma this is, uh..." He trails off, not knowing my name.

"I'm Dan." I smile, and stand up for them to shake my hand.

Emma smiles and shakes it, "Hey Luke, maybe I can finally dump your ass and hook up with Dan." She jokes and points to my face, making me laugh as well.

Luke flips his non-existent long hair, "Girl, I am fabulous and ahmayzing." He sassily replies.

"Ah-may-zing?" I ask with confusion, one of my eyebrows lifted.

Luke nods, "Ahmayzing."

"It's one of his stupid things don't listen." She quietly tells me, and I have to hunch down quite a bit so I can hear her quiet tone since she's quite short.

"Nice to know." I say, making her laugh.

"I could so get his ass tho." Luke says, and walks next to me, "Lukeisnotsexy and, hm...think of name quick."

"Um, uh, Danisnotonfire?" I say with uncertainty.

"Good enough." He tells me and begins again, "Lukeisnotsexy, and Danisnotonfire. I can see it now." Luke looks into the distance, making me snort.

I love how much Luke and Emma joke around. It's like I fit in, and I don't think I've gotten along with someone so easily and quickly in a long time. Besides Phil, of course.

"Sorry Lukeisnotsexy, but I got a boyfriend." I sassily express and playfully push him away, making Luke clutch his heart as Phil walks over to us.

"You cheated on me?!" Luke exasperatedly exclaims.

Phil's eyes shift around, obviously confused. He looks Luke up and down, and wraps his arm around my waist, tugging me towards him.

"Phil, don't worry." I laugh and peck his cheek, making Emma 'awe', "We're just joking around. This is Luke, and his girlfriend, Emma." I explain. Phil's grip instantly becomes less tight around my waist, and he lets out a long breath.

"But Dan and I are like, so totally a thing though." Luke jokes, and I groan, burying my head in Phil's shoulder.

"Emmaaaa." I complain, "Make the bag of milk stop."

"Ha! You do smell like milk! I told you that gingers smell like milk!" Emma shouts in Luke's face while pointing her finger at him. Luke bites her finger, making her pull it away quickly, and wave it around.

"And you smell like shit." Luke retorts, making Emma laugh.

Luke looks to his left, his eyes instantly brightening, and he begins to flail his arms around, "Patty get your punk ass over here!" He shouts from across the canteen, a few people making disapproving faces. Although Luke seems completely oblivious to them.

A boy with a black lip ring, dirty blonde hair held back with a gray snapback, and a light jacket with a black shirt hears Luke's calls. He smiles, and begins to crutch over with his broken leg.

Patty finally makes it over, and Luke puts his arm around Patty's shoulders, "This is Patty, and he is my bae. Emma's just an actor." Patty laughs a slightly high pitched laugh, but it's a nice one.

"Hello." He smiles.

"Hey, I'm Dan, and this is my boyfriend Phil." I smile, mainly because I can now call Phil my boyfriend.

"Hi." Phil smiles his usual bright smile, and I know that I stare too much at him, but how can you not?

"How'd you even break you leg?" Phil asks.

Luke snorts as Patty begins to laugh, "This bright man-child right here." Luke showcases his face, "Thought that it was a great idea to jump out of a window on the 2nd floor of our house, and onto a mattress. Sadly, the mattress was a bit off, and so was my jumping."

"It's not my fault that you can't aim your jumping." Luke pouts and crosses his arms.

"It is in fact your fault for making me jump first. You should've had Emma do that." Patty tells him.

Luke rolls his eyes but still smiles, "Whatever."

"Do you guys wanna grab something to eat with us?" Patty kindly asks.

"We'd love to, but we sadly have something planned already." Phil interrupts, making me a bit confused. Do we have something planned that I forgot about?

"Ah okay. Anyway, we'll hopefully see you guys around." Patty says.

"Wait! I'll give you my number." Luke cuts in. Pronouncing number as 'noomber'. Luke's one random person, but I couldn't picture him as anyone else. He quickly jots it down on a nappy and hands it to me, "There you go." I take the nappy, and put it into my back pocket.

"Thanks. I'll make sure to text you so you have mine as well. See you guys around." I call out as Phil, and I begin to walk away while waving, "I like them." I smile as we leave the canteen.

"Me too. Although they did come on a bit strong." Phil comments.

I shrug, "I do the same thing. It's just someone's personality. Not everyone can help it." I explain, and Phil nods along.

"Anyway, the whole reason why we didn't eat with Luke, Emma, and Patty is because...you're actually leaving today. Jai told me as she took Jaxon so I could quickly get you."

"Really?!" I shout as excitement and giddiness takes over me.

I'm finally leaving. Finally. I feel like I've been in here for years, but it was only about 3 weeks. That's what hospitals do. All of the white rooms, hallways, and clothes, and the strong disinfectant smell that stings your nose drags time out, making it seem longer than it actually is. I've always wondered why they decided to make everything white.

"Yes really." Phil smiles and grabs my hand, dragging me towards the front of the hospital, "I've already grabbed everything as well."

I smile widely and secretly jump on Phil's back. He tips over a bit but somehow regains all of his balance. Probably due to the somewhat light weight he has to carry. Phil doesn't say anything, and continues to walk with me casually wrapped around his back. I burry my head into the crook of his neck, and close my eyes for a little in pure bliss.

I'm going home, and I have Phil now. Is all I think as we make our way to the front of the hospital.

~

We finally make our way to the front, and I instantly see a little boy with blonde hair, and blue eyes to match his father come hurtling towards us. Multiple people either awe at this enthusiasm, or scold at how rambunctious he is. I of course smile brightly, and carefully get down from Phil's back.

Jaxon keeps zooming through the corridor, and I crouch down and open my arms which he runs into, almost making me fall down from his force, "Danny!" He shouts, and I lovingly laugh at him.

"Hey Jaxon." I smile and plant a kiss on the top of his head.

He cuddles further into to me, letting out a happy sigh. Can this kid get any cuter? I think not, "Ready to go?" Phil asks, and crouches down to Jaxon's eyes level. I feel Jaxon nod against my chest, "Are you ready to go?" He quietly asks me, his voice becoming light and soft, rather than low and firm. I nod with my eyes closed as Jaxon continues to cuddle into me, a small smile playing at my lips.

I stand up, and Jaxon takes my hand as we begin to walk towards the front doors, "Wait!" Someone shouts at us, and I'm soon feeling a brute force slammed against me. The wind is completely knocked out of me, but I somehow find a smile when I see that it's Jasmine tightly hugging me.

"Hey Jai." I laugh.

"Hello." She smiles and lets go of me, "Sorry for flinging myself at you. Reflexes and...stuff." She coughs.

"Nah, it's cool." I tell her and drape my arm around her shoulder, leaning up against Jasmine, "I'm gonna miss you." I quietly tell her so she can only hear.

"Me too." She sadly says and looks down, "Although I'm glad that you're healthy again and happy. I couldn't stand seeing you so sick and mopey." Jasmine adds with a smile, but slightly frowns at her last remark.

"I'll try to stay safe, and I'll make sure to visit." I wrap my arms around her small yet tall frame.

"Don't to anything stupid." She smirks as I pull away, and begin to walk out the doors with Phil and Jaxon.

"Can't promise anything!" I call back before the doors close behind us.

I stop in my tracks after a few feet of walking, and Phil grabs my hand before giving it a light squeeze. I look around, seeming to forget how the warmth of the sun feels on my now pale skin. The sky is bright blue today, with whispy clouds that move high up in the sky, higher than airplanes fly. For once, I don't mind the loud chirp of morning birds. I've missed them, honestly.

"It feels like I haven't been in the sun in years." I sadly whisper, and slightly frown. I deeply breathe in, remembering the smell of outside.

"You okay?" Jaxon asks, and tilts his head the side. It's something he gets from Phil.

"Of course." I sadly smile as I slightly swing Phil's arm, "Let's go." I quickly add with a slight cracked tone to my voice.

Anything could have happened out here as I was cooped up in the hospital. I missed PJ's birthday, seeing sunsets, being in the sun, and it's all because I was stupid enough to throw away one of my biggest achievements. This is my fault, no one else to blame. I may be the victim, but I'm also the only suspect.

"Are you really okay?" Phil whispers into my ear as I try all I can to fight back my tears. I slowly shake my head, and he tightly wraps his arm around my waist as we continue walking to Phil's car, "I love you." He adds.

I look up at him, and smile, "Love you too." The only thing that seems to constantly bother me, is that Phil was probably saying the same 3 words to Jamie a couple of days ago.

~

Phil unlocks the door, a huge smile playing on his lips as he does so. Why is he so smiley? It makes me smile, and it's honestly annoying how Phil can make me smile so easily.

The door slowly swings open, and I'm instantly bombarded by a boy with brown hair and brown eyes to match, falling to the ground with him on top of me, "Dan, hi you little fucker!" Chris exclaims as he gives me the biggest bear hug I've ever received.

PJ tuts but brightly smiles, "Don't crush the poor boy."

"Can't...breathe." I wheeze and Chris instantly gets off of me, "Sorry." He mumbles and lovingly looks up at PJ.

Wait...

"You guys are a thing?! Finally!" I shout and almost choke Chris with a hug after we both fully stand up.

"Wha- How did you know?" PJ asks in astonishment.

"I'm an observant person. Maybe if you were observant yourself, you'd already know that." I sassily reply.

"Oooohhhh, someone get Dan some chips. He's getting a bit salty." Chris calls out, making Phil laugh and casually place his arm around my waist as he holds Jaxon.

"You guys are...?" Chris trails off with wide and hopeful eyes, PJ sharing the same expression.

It makes me smile at how Chris and PJ really care about how I feel. They know that I was miserable while Phil was prancing around with Jamie. Now that they think that Phil's mine, they're instantly hoping for it to be true. All for my happiness.

Phil pecks my lips, making me violently blush and burry my head into the crook of his neck, "Wow, this room is full of gay." Chris comments, making me snort. He never fails to make me laugh.

"Okay, Chris. Turn down your humor radar. This is serious business." PJ firmly tells him, but kisses Chris on the cheek.

"Sorry, my gaydar was low, making my humor radar higher. It's gotta be one or the other, can't have both up or both down." Chris exaggeratedly sighs, making PJ rolls his eyes.

"What's the serious business?" I worriedly ask and tightly hold onto Phil who looks just as concerned as I do.

What did I really miss when I was in the hospital? Phil doesn't seem to know either by how he appears. Is it Jamie? Does she hate me? Does she hate Phil? Does she hate both of us. Oh my god she does. Of course she does, I don't blame her. I can't blame her.

PJ and Chris exchange looks, "...Do you want to play Mario Kart?"

I let out an angered sound and smack both of them upside the head, "Don't do that to me you little shits! I was worried sick that something bad happened!" I exclaim, earning a giggle from Jaxon.

"Yeah, little shits!" A tiny voice exclaims from behind me before I widen my eyes, seeing the big yet astonished smile on Chris' face.

"Jaxon, don't say those words. We've gone over this before." Phil tells them, bopping Jaxon's nose.

"Wait this isn't the first time he's done this?" PJ cautiously asks from behind me.

I turn around to face him again, biting my lip and holding back a loud laugh, thinking about the whole baking scenario. A time where I was much happier. Not that I'm not happy now, it's just...not like it used to be. I'm not the biggest fan of change. Never have been, never will be.

PJ takes my hand, and guides me to the living room, leaving Chris and Phil to talk. We sit on the same faded brown couch, facing each other. I chew on my bottom lip, a habit formed from watching Phil closely all those months, as PJ drills holes into me with a serious stare.

"What's wrong?" PJ asks, his voice coming out much softer and quieter than I expected.

I take in a deep breath, tears instantly filling my eyes. Why am I crying? Why do I even feel the need to cry? This is how I've felt for the past couple of days. Crying, or feeling the urge to cry with no reason behind it. Maybe their is, but I'm still too scared to take the bate in order to realize why I'm like this.

PJ scoots forward and tightly wraps his arms around me in concern. I'm quick to curl up into a ball under his touch, tears beginning to fully fall. They soak PJ's jumper but he doesn't seem to mind, "Is it Phil?" He asks. I let out a chocked sob, and nod, "Is he not nice to you?" I vigorously shake my head. Phil has been the absolute greatest to me, "Are you still hurt by what he has done to you?" I bite my lip, and waver my hand as to sign 'kind of'. PJ sighs.

"I'm scared to be so close with him relationship wise. Not too long ago he was probably saying I love you to Jamie with pride, and just like that his feelings for her vanish and he's with me. I mean...can he really switch off his emotions towards someone and move on so quickly?" I say, beginning to slightly shake, "It's scary. I don't want him to leave me." I add in a broken and quiet tone.

PJ begins to slightly rock forward and backward to soothe me. It's working in all honesty, "And he won't leave you."

"How do you know? He could f-find someone better a-and leave me in the dust." I loudly cry out, my breathing becoming shallow.

"Dan you need to calm down. Take deep breaths. Breath in," I follow his orders but with great difficulty, struggling immensely, "Breathe out." The cold air shakily leaves my lungs, but I can't stop shaking, "Phil!" PJ loudly shouts in fear.

I soon hear two pairs of thundering feet running down the hallway, and into the room. PJ leaves my side, but someone else takes his spot just as fast as PJ left. I open my clamped shut eyes, and look up to see warm yet worried blue eyes. Phil begins to trace his hand up and down the small of my back, "You're doing good, just keep breathing like you are right now." He quietly tells me. I didn't even realize that I had gotten my breath back.

I nod and instinctively cuddle into Phil. It's like a reflex almost. I hear whispers exchanged between PJ and Chris, Chris ends up loudly sighing at the end of the quiet conversation, "I think we'll leave you two-"

"Don't go." I ask, my voicing sounding that of a ghost.

I don't want to be left alone with Phil right now. I need to get my mind off of things.

"Okay, we won't go." Chris says and tugs PJ's sleeve to sit him down on the other sofa.

~

"Just wait, I'll get your ass!"

"In your dreams, Kendall!"

"You wanna bet on that?" He smirks.

I playfully smack his arm while still trying to stay in 1st place on Mario Kart. Chris in 2nd, Phil in 3rd, PJ in 5th, and Jaxon in last as he continues to constantly bang his person into a giant Mario Mushroom as he spins his remote around with his tongue sticking out in concentration. It's honestly a very adorable sight to see.

Suddenly, Yoshi zooms past me as I'm right about to go past the finish line, earning a victory call from Chris, "Told you I would! Ha! In all of your faces! I am the Mario Kart King and no one can stop meeee!"

"Chris, babe, calm down before you hurt yourself." PJ jokingly says, making Chris go beet red.

I feel a familiar, and warm pair of arms wrap around me from behind, pulling me onto their lap, "How are you feeling?" He whispers into my hair, planting a kiss onto my head.

"I'm feeling fine." I respond, and Phil nuzzles into the crook of my neck, making me squirm a bit.

"You're finally home." Phil says.

"I'm finally home." I say back. Phil smiles and kisses me on the lips, and I lovingly kiss him back with much needed affection.

I'm sure that I can fully trust Phil quickly enough. Even though I'll  trust him in the near future, I'll always have that bit of me that's paranoid.

~

I'M SORRY THAT THIS TOOK SO LONG, AND I HAVE NO EXCUSE OTHER THAN ME HAVING WRITERS BLOCK AND NOT BEING IN THE MOOD TO WRITE WHAT SO EVER.

Hopefully you're not too upset with me. *nervous laughter*

I know that this update doesn't really make up for the time I spent writing it since it's nothing special, and it's awful due to it just being repeats of Dan's same thoughts over and over again.

But trust me, in only a few updates (or maybe the next update) we'll have some sparking drama. MWAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAAAA.

I mean, I had Luke, Emma, and Patty in this update. You can't be too mad at me. Although little Patty broke his leg. :(

Now @curl_almighty got lyrics of the week (again) so, like last time, this chapter is dedicated to them.

(I'm changing it to Lyrics of the Update bc I don't update weekly oops)

LYRICS OF THE UPDATE:

Take me back to the basics of my ______ ____. Tell me all of the things that make you feel at ____. Your touch my _______ ___ __ _______.

Yes, I added more lyrics than usual. *smug smile* -J