I woke up and I was in Jesus's bed. He must have put me there last night,
"Courtney? We're going to the hospital, do you want to come?" Stef asked leaning against the doorway, I nodded,
"I'll just head next door. I'll meet you by the car." I said softly as I got up and grabbed my birks on the way to the door,
"Alright hunny, make sure you bring someone with you." Lena said looking at me sternly. I nodded slowly,
"Don't worry I've got her!" Jesus yelled running after me as I opened the door, he grabbed my shoulder and I stopped,
"What?" I asked softly with my eyes on the grass in front of me, I couldn't look at Jesus, hell have the same look he had that night when he saved me.
"Courtney, are you okay?" He asked standing in front of me. I nodded as the tears blurred my vision, I knew I was lying to him but I was just trying to pretend I was okay, "I know that it's tough but don't lie, you can be honest." He said softly, I raised my eyes to meet his,
"I'm falling apart." I whispered as a tear fell down my cheek, Jesus quickly wiped the tear and looked me in the eye,
"I will be here to put you back together again." He said softly before he walked me into my house, he walked upstairs with me and almost into my room,
"Stay out here while I change please..." I said softly, he nodded and let me close the door.

I opened the door looking at Jesus. It took a moment before he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me,
"Everything will be just fine, you'll make it through this. Donald and Jason will be in jail and I'll protect you!" He said softly, I looked up running my hands along the sides of his face,
"Jesus, you can't promise that. You know the people you think will stay end up leaving." I said softly before I walked down stairs toward the door, I reached for the handle when I felt myself being jerked back and turned around,
"I can promise you that because, I don't ever plan on leaving you." Jesus said softly holding my face in his hands. I felt my lip quiver as a tear slid down my cheek,
"I'm scared, every time I turn around someone else is hurt." I whispered looking up at him as I wrapped my arms around his waist. He pulled me close and before I knew it our lips crashed and all the hurt faded. I finally felt safe, Jesus pulled away slowly smiling at me,
"Come in we need to go visit your sister." He said softly as he grabbed my hands and lead me to the car. I got in and sat beside Jesus as he held my hand.

We walked through the hospital and people kept starring at us, all I could feel was the eyes on me and my grip on Jesus tightened. I walked into Chloe's room and smiled slightly seeing her safe and standing up,
"I'm coming home!" She said happily, I looked at her for a long moment before I smiled,
"Thank god." I said softly before I hugged her tightly, I released her and looked at her before I picked up her bag,
"What are you doing?" Chloe asked,
"Getting you home as soon as possible." I said as I walked out and down to my car. I put her bag inside and then looked at my heels from the night before and I froze,
"Courtney?" Chloe asked behind me, I picked up the heels and turned around. I looked at Chloe as everyone walked out behind her.
"Y-your blood is on my shoes, my shoes have my sister's blood on them. These shoes were from the worst and best night of my life but all I want to do is burn them!" I said as tears came to my eyes.
"Then we'll burn them, or we'll give them to the police to have the blood on them tested or something because the blood could be someone else's." Chloe said as she gently took the shoes from my hands. I stood still for a moment before Jesus snapped me out of my daze.
"Babe. Are you okay?" He asked wrapping his arms around my waist. I nodded slowly staying quiet before Jesus ushered me inside my car and started driving to my house.

I got out of the car and walked into the house slowly walking through the halls. The house scared me now that I know a lot of the horrible men that knew my father and uncle know where I am, where Chlo is, where Mom is. I wandered around the house and stopped at the study, totally untouched,
"Courtney what are you doing?" Mom asked as I stepped inside,
"I am getting ride of every trace of him. This room is going to be where I paint, sew, and do work and whatever Chloe needs." I said as I started throwing away all the work papers left on the desk,
"Please don't throw away anything valuable or helpful for your case." Mom said before walking out. I sat in the chair irked as I planned out where everything would be. I threw away work papers until I found a stack of journals,
"Chloe!" I yelled, she came wobbling in and sat in the ground as I moved all the journals so we could sit next to each other.
"Are these his journals from the abuse?" She asked. I let a small smirk slip through,
"He was stupidly genius, we never came in here and neither did mom." I said as I picked up a journal before putting it down quickly.
"What?" Chloe asked as I stood up,
"We're going shopping, staples and we are color coding and making note of everything in these journals. Chloe we are reliving this but we are also saving other young girls from being scared into silence." I said with a bright smile as I helped Chloe up and we walked out to the kitchen to grab my keys,
"Where are you two going?" Mom asked liked we were suspicious,
"Staples, needed some stuff to map out how well change the room." I said. Chloe and I got in the car and drove to Staples, buying all our supplies before we drove home, Chloe took the bags and walked inside while I locked the car. I looked around and saw Jesus in his lawn, I lifted my hand to wave when I saw Emma I dropped my hand and watched as Jesus smiled at her and they started kissing. I felt tears come to my eyes as Emma opened an eye and smirked as she looked at me, I felt as if all the breath in my body was gone and my heart shattered to the pit of my stomach. I took a deep breath as a wave of nausea crashed over me and all I could do was cover my mouth,
"No." I whispered as I closed my eyes willing it to be a nightmare. I looked up and saw that it was happening so I straightened up and walked across the lawns and into the Adams-Foster house, I marched up to Jesus's room,
"Courtney, Jesus isn't here. Are you okay?" Lena asked while she followed me into his room leaning against the doorway as I took the painting I made off the wall and wrote him a note,
"I know. Look out the window to the front lawn." I said as I wiped my tears pointing at the front window I then walked back downstairs trying to keep myself front collapsing.
"Emma!" Mariana yelled and she looked mad, well for the moment I saw her before my vision blurred and tears started flowing some more,
"Tell Jesus that if he gives me a list of things that he gave me, I'll give them back as long as I get my heart back. It needs to be fixed. If you see Emma, tell her she won, she can have him if she's willing to go to great lengths to keep him to herself." I said stone faced before I walked out the back door with the painting in my hands as my heart shattered. I took the painting and put it in Jason's old office before I fell the the ground and sobbed as I curled up into a ball,
"Courtney!" Chloe yelled as she ran in and sat by my side, I squeezed my eyes shut willing the pain to just go away.
"He never loved me." I cried out as I held my knees to my chest, I felt Chloe rub my back before I heard doors opening and closing and chatter from the foyer,
"Where is she?" I heard Mariana yelled she sounded just as furious if not more than she had less than 5 minutes ago.
"Up here!" Chloe yelled, she seemed to have known they would be coming to see me. Soon in the room sat Mariana, Callie, Brandon, and Lena,
"I'm sorry. I just, I wanted it to stay perfect, I d-didn't know it could get any worse. I was shot! I was harassed! Now I'm cheated on." I said softly as my voice shook matching the hurt that my heart felt and I looked down,
"It's okay, Jesus did something dumb. He knew how much you went through, he was next to you while it happened." Mariana said as she sat beside me and comforted me.
"You're going to have to talk to Jesus, he was supposed to take you on a date this weekend." Callie said softly. I looked down as the thought just occurred to me,
"I'll talk to him but not today, or tomorrow." I said as I wiped my tears.
"If you need anything, just tell us." Brandon said softly as he patted my back and then everyone walked out.
"You should fix this sooner rather than later." Chloe said softly. I nodded slowly and put everything away. We hid every journal and put our sticky notes, markers, and poster boards in plain sight before we walked out so that we could sleep before we went to help do the day before prep and clean up of the party for the Romeo and Juliet performed by Brandon, Mat, and Mariana. I changed as quickly as I could for bed.

I went to lay down when I heard thumping on my window. I walked over and I could see Jesus throwing rocks at my window, I opened the window slightly,
"What do you want?" I asked in the most annoyed voice I could muster without tears spilling down my cheeks,
"You didn't see what you saw Chloe!" He yelled softly I held back a laugh as I played along knowing Chloe could break it off better than Courtney could, Courtney is a sappy lovesick puppy with no backbone, Courtney is pathetic,
"I already told Courtney! She's done with you." I whisper yelled back as I leaned on the windowsill with my best impression of Chloe and her scowl that thing used to scared the crap out of me and now it just makes me smile and remember she's just as much my protector as I am hers,
"Emma kissed me, I may have kissed back but she started it!" He said softly staring at my window,
"You should have never kissed back. Cancel your plans for that date lover boy, she is done with it, you didn't tell her when it happened. You kissed another girl and then disappeared because your poor ego hurt." I yelled softly glaring at him with a mocking pout,
"Please Chloe! She doesn't have to know, she already took the painting." He said softly.
"How long have you been kissing other girls Jesus?" I asked trying to keep the act up without crying,
"A month." He said with a sigh,
"Wow." I said as a pang of hurt hit my chest and I swallow back my tears,
"But don't tell Courtney! She'll dump me for sure!" He said in a panicked voice, witch made the following all that much more satisfying.
"She already knows, and make sure you know which twin is which dumbass. I really hope you didn't make any advances on my sister while I was unconscious with bullet wounds. Oh yeah and this hurts more than taking three bullets to my body and bleeding out." I said before I grabbed a sweatshirt from my chair that he gave me and threw it out the window along with a friendship bracelet and closed my window as he started to stammer an apology or an explanation. I started pacing my room, I went to Chloe's room and told her what had happened. After a long discussion and some tears, we eventually fell asleep but it didn't mean that the pain was gone because, it was there like the stupid migraines I get on my period, insistent on being a total pain. The pain that made me reminisce to when I almost died and all I remember was Jesus being there for me, there's a good and a bad side to everyone. I was too blind to see which side Jesus chose to share with me.