Something feels irregular. Like the sun shining while thunder shakes the sky or a cake without the sugar. I feel like there's a tiny bomb in my head, about explode in any given time, a bomb that could wake me up or even worse, wake me up dead. This feeling is so irregular, what is it? I do not know.

But I do know everything in my life changed when Jaehyun appeared that morning. My worries and sadness faded, as if it was just something written and then erased.

"Y/N, do you love me back?"

~

"Hey, why the long face?" Jaehyun sits beside me, setting his tray of food down in front of him. My eyes shift to his dark brown eyes. I lift my chin away from the palm of my hand and sit up straight. "Nothing, just staring into space." I smile, picking up my pair of chopsticks.

Jaehyun nods, taking a bite of his chicken. A group of girls near us squeal, watching Jaehyun as if he's a god, eating his lunch. "Y/N?" he whispers. "Why do so many girls keep looking at me?"

I laugh, careful not to choke on my rice. "Its because you're attractive." I tell him with a smirk. He makes an 'O' shape with his mouth. "Just for my looks? They don't care about the inside?"

"Sadly, that's how society works." I sigh, poking my food with the chopsticks. "I only care about the personality and if their love is the same as mine to them."

Jaehyun softly grins, a grin that could melt someone's heart in a snap. The temperature of my face felt way hotter than usual. I haven't felt like this since-

Baekhyun unintentionally sets his tray with loud thud across from me. He removes his sunglasses, folding them carefully into his shirt pocket. He pulls the chair out and sits down. "Looking beautiful as always Y/N."

The temperature of my face goes back to normal. "Ah thanks, you looking flashy as ever." I say, taking a piece of his chicken. Baekhyun winks, making all the girls squeal as well. Jaehyun rolls his eyes. Baekhyun pretends not to notice.

"Bacon boy." Jaehyun snickers, taking a sip of his water. Baekhyun crosses his legs and smirks. "Rose boy."

~

"Looks like Jaemin is not back yet." I say, unlocking the door. Jaemin is usually home before me, leaving the door unlocked. Today, the door was locked, meaning he's late. "Maybe he's out with Hyeseong." Jaehyun said, following me inside.

"Hyeseong is out of town visiting a friend."

"Maybe he's out in an Internet cafe."

"His room or at least his second room is an Internet cafe."

"He'll be back, he's just running late." Jaehyun assures, waiting for me to open the door. I unlock the door and we both ate in at the same time. I look up at Jaehyun confused. He has the same look at me.

"Oops, ladies first." He steps out and smirks. I roll my eyes, walking in first.
~
This is not right though, Jaemin is always home before me. This is irregular.

"I'll try calling him." I take out my phone and open his contact. I press the call button and put it on speaker so Jaehyun can hear.

The phone begins to ring. First ring, no answer.  Same for the second and so on. Jaehyun looks at me and shrugs.

After the final ring, his answering machine comes on.

"Hey you've reached ya boi Jaemin. Sorry not sorry for not answering you. I'm too busy eating or playing games. Leave me alone and I can't promise I'll call you back, unless of your someone I like. Bye loser."

"Beep!"
"Please leave your message after the beep."
"Beep!"

I take a breath and start to speak into his voicemail. Jaehyun watches me silently.

"Hey Jaemin, it's me Y/N, just wondering where you are. It's strange that I'm home before you. Please call as soon as you can, thanks." I hover my finger over the end call button.

"Wait." Jaehyun holds my wrist. "I wanna say something." He lets go and starts to speak. "Yo, Jaemin wherever you are, don't be an idiot and take candy from a stranger."

I open my mouth in shock and hang up. "You're not lying though." I tell him. "I know."

~

It's been two hours and Jaemin hasn't called or came back home. I pace back and forth around the living room, crossing my arms. Jaehyun sits on the kitchen counter, doodling something on some sketch paper.

"Jaehyun I'm getting worried. No I'm already worried. That butthead, he better not be with the wrong crowd."

Jaehyun closes his sketch book and hopped off the counter. "We could go out and look for him." He walks closer to me and puts a hand on my shoulder. "We'll make sure to find him."

I nod, brushing a strand of hair behind my ear.

.....

"I am so sorry I'm late!!" Jaemin storms in, out of breath. His jacket that I got him for Christmas was no where to be seen. His shirt ripped, revealing some of his stomach. A line of bright red blood appeared on his cheek, dripping down.

Jaehyun and I stare him up and down, speechless. My emotions are nowhere near joy.

Jaemin gives us a small wave, sheepishly smiling.

Breaking the silence, I speak up. "What, did you come back from a war you idiot!?" I go up to him and take a closer look at him. "You look like you've been totally beat!"

"Like a worm out rose." Jaehyun adds, coming up from behind me. "Haha. Guys I'm fine, I just fell on the sidewalk." Jaemin squeezes through us, trying to escape but Jaehyun and I use our strength to stop him.

"Jaemin, tell us what happened." I sternly order, glaring at him. Jaemin keeps the sheepish grin on his face, full of fake calmness.

"I'm fine, really, don't worry. It's nothing."

I shake my head. "You are not fine, I can tell." I release my grip, feeling the same irregular feeling.

Jaemin at his regular state is bubbly and sarcastic. He doesn't give a shit about anything (except me and Hyeseong) and is pretty chill.

But today, right here and right now, I can tell he's scared, doesn't want to even speak. His eyes darken when he's in his irregular state, veins more visible on his hands.

"Show me your hands." I said, taking out my hand. Jaemin shakes his head. "I told you, I'm ok." He covers his right hand with his left.

"Why is your veins more visible?" Jaehyun curiously notices, cocking his head sideways. I widen my eyes and grab Jaemin's wrist, examining his hand.

"Jaemin, you have some explaining to do."