This chapter is about gender identity, i don't know if that is particularly triggering but if it is or you are uncomfortable reading about gender identity do not continue
Ok so I lied. I don't think I'm trans ftm. Well technically i wasn't lying because I thought I was trans back when I said that. But now I don't really know. Like I feel masculine sometimes and sometimes I feel feminine but not in a genderfluid way which is kinda annoying. I have a friend who also goes through this but they just said they don't label themselves and I respect that but for me I don't know if I could just say that personally because I always have a driving force to figure myself out and now I'm just always thinking "What the hell am I?" And it's kinda difficult