God, if you love me. GIVE ME A REASON NOT TO GO FUCKING CRAZY RIGHT NOW.

I CAN'T,  I WILL NOT FEEL LIKE THIS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

LIKE, GIVE ME A SIGN THAT A SMART, UGLY, FAT ASS BITCH LIKE ME CAN BE IN A RELATIONSHIP.

STOP, LETTING PEOPLE PUT ME DOWN AND SAY THAT I'M NOT PRETTY ENOUGH AND I'M TO FAT FOR A BOYFRIEND.

CAUSE THAT'S STRIGHT BULLSHIT. I SEE BIG GIRLS WITH BOYFRIENDS ALL THE TIME. I SEE UGLY GIRLS WITH BOYFRIENDS ALL THE TIME.

WHAT THE FUCK WRONG WITH ME....

FUCK JUST FUCK IT

I'M OUT FOR NOW...

NEED A SHOWER TO CLEAR MY HEAD.

♡ DeAnna