This is really bad but I wanted to get something out. (Also I released the first chapter of a new book called Can Nobody Hear Me? yesterday, feel free to check it out. Thank you.)

Some people wish for the ability
To disappear even just for a moment
In a way that makes me blessed
Because I have the power of invisibility

Sure, it makes me sad
It makes me feel separated and lonely
But that's alight... I suppose
To me, invisibility is more than a fad

It's a super power
So maybe I should learn to appreciate
No distractions or noise
I am alone in this tower

I used to wish and hope
That one day I'd become invisible
But not just at school
I wish I could be invisible at home

If I was, no one would notice
If I faded away in my own time
I'd have a little more control
Over my life, over this

I'm so tired all the time
It doesn't even make sense
I don't want to wake up
But I have to, right?

I want to spread happiness but how can I?
I'm hypocritical and so freaking cynical
I wish I could be somebody else
And actually make someone smile

But it will never be enough
Nothing will ever be enough
It's either nothing or too much
Too much attention, too much

AllTimePhan73
Yep, that's me
And yes, that makes me slightly happy
But this is the only place where I'm me

At home, I'm angry and sad
At school, I don't exist
Online I can open up
And show I'm more than just sad

Maybe... or maybe I am just sad? I don't know anymore haha.

I sat at a table second period at school today. An entire friendship group sat around me which made me feel crowded but it was alright and I was just getting on with my work. Then, at lunch, I got up and left my bag at my seat. When I came back, someone had put their bag in my place as if I had never been there. I just slowly picked up my bag and moved. Didn't even get any acknowledgement. I suppose being invisible is better than being seen in the wrong ways?

And me being invisible is my own fault. I don't talk at school unless I'm spoken too. I'm just too afraid to talk to new people who have established friendship groups and stuff. I don't want to intrude or be annoying. I complain about having no friends but it's my own fault for not talking. I have no right to complain!