I just wish I can move on life.........I always act happy but the truth is I am not always happy I am always stress out and weak and useless.......I made so many people disappointed and I made so many people......hate me........I just wish I can be myself when I do people judge me..........I just wish to stop thinking about killing myself and stop thinking about cutting myself I have never cut but I cut my kitchen counter so I won't cut......but its hard........whatever this feeling I won't show but sometimes I will because I calling for help but no one would help so I got myself all by myself I am sorry I am being like this don't worry I be back faking a smile and my happiness so you can not worry and be happy I would love to know that made people happy that's the only reason I stay alive I wanted make people happy and feel better.....but I failed on everyone sorry sorry.....

Smile and be cheerful and be joyful and carry on life don't be like me I want everyone to find happiness and joy in life ^-^.........no one deserve to suffer this feeling call sadness....