Yes I wrote this.

I wanna scream, wanna shout
can't seem to get anything out.
it's all trapped in me.
pushed so deep down that I can't see,
it anymore.
fighting, smiling, I don't know what for.

an ache to be normal
something fake so no one sees
sadly I can't keep it in.
it needs to be freed
I don't want anyone to know
not letting my true feeling show.

I can get it out.
with lead and ink and words of mine.
not for attention
but so I don't do something I regret.
no not regret, but something that hurts you.

It seems that no one cares
just me shouting into thin air
been told it's not true
just in my mind, something to work through.
faking for attention
something I hate to mention.
feeling alone, feeling nothing.
but still waking up, I guess that's something.

Forced opinions, yelling and triggered.
family that cares, but doesn't really
online I can be okay
until I can't
and then I rant.

taking up time
with useless words of mine
i'm sorry, but I have to
nothing else safe for me to do.
some understand, most won't
I try to deal all alone. 

smile smile
it'll last awhile
write write
one day it'll be alright
pretend pretend
but don't give in

I feel i'm shouting into a void

my mouth moving but making no noise

I will not cry.

I will not sigh

I will be alright.

I can make it through tonight.

make a fake world
hope for morning
pray for tonight
each little bit helps.
so ends this rant.
I hope you made it through alright.

bring on the hate
I know it's something I can take,
Whatever you have to say
say it all, it's okay.
I know it's stereotypical
but it helps me little by little.
this poetry thing of mine.