I just need to say this : 

I know that I have family who supposedly loves me and all that shit, but seriously. don't fucking belittle how I feel or I stfg I will actually rip out your throat. I am sick and tired of people saying that I have a great life and should be grateful. seriously. yall don't know what kind of fucked up shit happens to me on a day-to-day basis. all the stuff that crawls through my head. all the things people say to me. all the fighting that happens every day with so many different people. 

so shut up. 

im not fucking joking around anymore.