I've gone insane before. This isn't what this is. I'm just really stressed.

My hand is hurting wayyyyy more than usual today which makes no sense cuz I didn't write at all yesterday. Why is it still mad at me? Washing the dishes was torture. D:

Yesterday was actually really calming until my sister asked if chapter 4 was done and I said no and then she freaked out and I almost started crying and then mom noticed so then we had a lovely talk about my life and the fact that I've been acting so stressed lately and ugh.

I'm actually not stressed over just writing you know. It's just the one I talk about most on here. Compared to the rest of my crazy life the topic of my writing is actually paradise.

Some other things I am stressed about:

Driving and the fact that just thinking about makes me start to cry.

The happiness of two of my friends who are going through a really hard time and I'm just really really worried about them.

This insane trip my family have planned for this summer. I leave to go to something called youth conference on July 14th. I went to it last year and hated it (being surrounded by 500 teenagers and once again being the only one not talking to someone is a very depressing feeling and reminds me way too much of sitting alone in the middle of an extremely loud cafeteria where everyone had a friend except me) and I'm going to have to go to this dance too which I managed to avoid last year by playing risk in the lobby but my parents were furious and I've never been to a dance before dancing is one of my top 3 fears and I just. can't. anyway youth conference is 3 days long and then I don't even get to go home, my family is going to pick me up from there and we're going to drive for three days to see our family in utah, be there for a while, then drive for four days back and I'll only be home for less than 24 hours because the next week is girl's camp :| basically that's 3 things to pack for and I'm going to have a whole month of zero free time.

My two friends that moved away that I miss a lot.

Why must Legos cost so much.

Why must video games cost so much.

Why must going to Italy cost so much.

Why is Italian such a complicated language.

Why is there only one season of brain games on netflix.

I'm reading the original avengers comic books and I'm on #33 or something but vision doesn't come in till, like, the one hundreds or something and it's just like WWHHYY I WANT VISION NOWWWWW

When is the next season of doctor who going to come on netflix

When is the next season of ninjago going to come one netflix. what happened to Zane. I'm concerned.

Magnus chase and the gods of Asgard.

The next season of studio c doesn't start until October or something.

The health state of my cat. he's getting very old.

All of this ferguson and charleston stuff. why must people be so mean.

Feminism and the fact that it's still a problem.

Nobody competing for president in 2016 so far are good people. I hate all of them. it's going to be bad.

Politics and current events in general.

My mom has a thyroid the size of a tennis ball or something idk she isn't telling me anything because she doesn't want me to get more stressed.

My hand.

Percy isn't looking too good. D:

The Percy Jackson movies *burns them*

How anyone could possibly like divergent.

Many other things but I must go