I think I hate life.
Not gonna stop mine, or make it worse in any way.
But really?
Why keep meeting people if all they do is leave?
Online or in real life.
What's the point?
To get stronger?
Then what?
Die?
Yeah.
I guess that's about it.
The only thing worth living for is the people who stay.
But when so many people stay
How do you hear the ones who leave?
Or even seem like they would stay
Then don't.
And by the way
If you're reading this
And you know who you are
I'm not mad
I just... I'm not sure I completely understand
You always have a plan
I never thought...
I never thought you would just give up
But you didn't
You had a plan
I just can't be a part of it
And I'm sorry
I think this is breaking me
But I guess I don't want to get stronger from this
Because you were one of my best friends
And
I'm gonna miss you
More than you could ever know.
Maybe that's because I forgot to tell you
The most important thing
I ever realized about you.
I'm sorry I can't say it here
Nor will you ever be able to read this
But I'm sorry
And I'm confused
And I'm weaker than I was before
And yet
Somehow I'll have to act alright
Because that's what I do
And maybe it's weird
But you taught me weird is good
And everyone needs a little weird.
Some people are blessed with more
And those people are so amazing
Even if it's more than one person
That's even better
Because you can't be anyone but you.
So even though you're gone
I won't forget
Other may
But I can't
I doubt I ever will
And if you ever do read this...
Just know...
I remember...
And I'll still be wearing the crown
When you return
But things will be different
And I hope
That we can still be
Just friends
And I also
Hope that you
And the finest rose of the garden
Are still grand
Because you both deserve that
But I need to go now
And as a friend once said
Goodbye means forever
So I won't say goodbye
I'll just say
See you later.