The higher you climb, the harder you fall.

Making the right choices, and winner takes it all.

I struggle and slip to understand,

And now I cannot even correctly land.

I was reminded of the reason I loved him before.

And it makes my heart tug even more.

His laugh, his smile,

It's a drug to me, that I need to dose once in a while.

The way he makes me laugh,

It makes my body warm from my shoulder to my calf.

The sensation that I get when I think of us together,

The thought of us being forever.

He use to be the first thing I think of in the morning,

But now I can't remember, an excuse that seems boring.

I miss the days when I could say,

I'm going to see him, so today is gonna be a good day.

But he still is special to me. He still means so much to me.

It's the fact of whether it is or isn't meant to be.

Many times I convinced myself, he was the one,

But now I'm struggling to imagine living by his side for many years to come.

His soft hair that I feel every day.

The color of his eyes, that simply amaze me in so many different ways.

I was deeply in love. He was one who had my heart for the very first time.

I want to go back to the days, where he just always made me randomly smile sometimes.

I will still ask myself to this very day,

Was it always meant to be this way?