hey guys I am so sorry  I haven't been updating much. my grandma went into the hospital with a collapsed lung Tuesday morning, and already has lung, throat, and brain cancer. I know a collapsed lung is bad cause my dad had one 5 years ago and almost didn't make it out the hospital alive. I about had a panic attack for the first time in a year. rn I don't know what to do I am freaked out, and my depression and anxiety is through the roof.  i am so close to just breaking down and my shit starting dope whore aunt is watching 2 of my cousins that my grandma has custody of. my family is probably gonna go get them today. I hope to start updating soon