i am distant

like a fish flooding around in space

gasping for air

i never escape

i am distant

like the moon and the sun

flying to darkness

i ponder but run

i am distant

like a flower at the floor of the sea

fighting for life

mindfulness is key

I am distant

standing there at a school corridor

i am distant

all i want is more

is that too much to ask for?

a little bit of realness

in this world full of dreamers

of poets and dancers

a world full of persons

who all seem the same

they make me feel nervous

i know that im lame

i know that i dont belong here

or anywhere anyway

it may not sound severe

but the thoughts still stay

in the back of my mind

collecting dust in the dark

maybe we are all blind

overlooking the marks

of life on our skin

i have excuses though

my patience is awfully thin

because im distant

like the fishs and the moon and the sun

when they are out of place

because i am the one never having fun

an unsealed smile on my face

how does it look to you?

i cant really tell

because i am distant

this feels like hell

never being there

but never letting go

never truly care

but always feeling low

i just hope you dont mind

when i drift away

"please just be kind"

thats what i always say

to myself in my head

my thoughts are screaming

"please dont feel dead"

yet

they always do.