I walked out of my last class.

The loud chattering around me. People glaring right at me.

Why? Why me?

What's wrong with me?

I picked up some books from my locker, shoving it in my bag harshly. Blood boiling inside me. I grabbed my bag and hurriedly rushed out of the door.

I go to my usual spot.

Most days after school, I would go to this abandoned house, I decided, I'd clean it out, and have the place for myself.

I rushed to my safe place, and take hold of my  blade.

Everyhting that happened today, my father, my mum, schoolmates. It all suddenly hit me, how horrid my life is.

I've got no one to tell all my thoughts to...

No one to be with on days like this...

Tears started rolling down my cheek.

I grabbed my phone and listen to my music.

My music helps me a lot. It's the only thing that helped me through dark times, and happy times as well.

I let loose of my blade. I let the tears freely flow.

My emotions rapidly dropped to my lowest point. The blood from all the cuts seeping through my sleeves.

I close my eyes, tears still evident.

I hold on tightly to my tear-stained pillow. Letting all the tears, pain, anxiety just flow.

My eyes tightly closed. My dark thoughts shut down.

Halfway through my sleep, I heard a knock.

No one ever goes here. I don't think anyone even knows about this place.

Another knock

I creeped slowly.

I opened the door welcomed by a sweet-looking guy.

"Hi." he said, naturally, as if he knows me.

"H-hey. What do you need?"

"Do you own this place by any chance?"

"I-I don't know..." Crap. That was such a stupid answer.

"What do you mean, you don't know?"

"Uhmm... Yeah I own this place." I lied.

"That's cool. It just looks empty.."  A frown took over his face.

"I only go here, once in a while.."

"Oh... Can I go in?"

"Oh yeah.. That was rude of me. Valerie" I kindly open the door for him.

"Conner. Nice to meet you!" He said, a genuine smile on his face.

My heart flutters at the sight infront of me.

"Mhm..", it was all that could come out of me.

"So... What are you doing in such a lonely place?"

"It helps me relax.. Today was really tiring"
I felt a sort of connection to the boy right in front of me. I felt as if I can just tell him about the things I've been going through.

"How about you? No one knows about this place... " my wistful eyes turning bright.

"Uh.. Well it's eye-catching!"

"Is it really?" just when I said this, I can feel the warm liquid all over my left arm.

Will he notice it? Will he go away cause he thinks I'm a freak?

"Uhm.. Excuse me, Conner. I'll just be going to the washroom, you can stay there." I pointed to the couch where I slept earlier.

"O-okay. Thanks."

I put pressure on my left bleeding arm. I wash it off but a whole line of crimson red yet took over again.

Too soon. It's too early for him to see this. I want to know him more.

I hold on to the towel and put pressure on my arm, clutching the towel as if I'm holding on to it for dear life.

"Valerie? Do you need help?" Conner calls out softly knocking on the door.

"Uh.. I'll be out. Give me a minute or two."

I disposed all evidence of my blood, and the towel I used.

I take off my clothing, and put on new, fresh ones and rolled down the sleeves.

Slowly opening the door, I saw Conner there looking at my playlist. I smile at the sight of him looking so concentrated.

"H-hey Conner!"

"Wow... You have really great taste in music."

"Thanks. Do you also listen to some of them?"

"Well, yeah."

I plop down next to him, having one ear bud in my ear, and the other in his.

The comforting scent of the boy beside me. Arms wrapped around his torso, I could hear his heartbeat beating slowly.

For the first time in forever, I felt safe and comforted and infinite.

All my problems slipping away from me and letting all my fears go.

A/N
Hiiiii. Well that took a long time for me to updateee. Anyways, as I always say, I'm always here, and I'm genuine about this. I love each and everyone of you. Your feelings and opinions are valid, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. There's a whole future ahead of you, and there are so much more to life, and I know how controversial this is, but hurting yourself won't help you, it'll only give you temporal happiness, so please don't hurt yourself, I'm begging you. There are so much people who love you, take me as one of them who loves you.

Stay Alive || - / /