Chapter 55

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Jungkook was staring at the ceiling of his room. Eunji had put some of those weird star shaped stickers that were supposed to glow in the dark there. A couple of hours had passed since Taehyung had killed someone in front of his eyes, but his heart was still racing.

He had absolutely no idea which one was worse. The fact that Taehyung had broken his promise and killed someone or... that Jungkook had been the one at fault. He had taken Taehyung to that party. If it hadn't been for him that guy wouldn't have died. If... Jungkook had realized just how bad of an idea taking Taehyung to a place like that, then he would still be alive. Running around, partying.

Now instead he was... who knew where. Wherever Taehyung had taken his body. There was a good chance his corpse was floating in the middle of the ocean... or worse. Maybe Taehyung was feeding on him right at this moment.

His body lurched forward, and he quickly got up to run to the bathroom, just in time to throw up into the toilet. He felt sick. He had seen that guy's face before. He didn't exactly know him, but Jungkook at least knew he went to his university. Knew some people Jungkook knew.

Before it had been somewhat easy to ignore the fact that Taehyung was killing. Jungkook had felt like there was nothing he could do about it anyways so the blood wasn't on his hands. But now it was. Taehyung had killed someone because Jungkook had been careless.

And Jungkook wished it had been him instead. Not some random guy that had absolutely nothing to do with this.

He wiped his mouth, staring straight ahead.

Why did he deserve to live when that boy's life had been wiped out in less than a second? Jungkook was the one dancing with the devil. So why had the consequences of that hit someone else?

A little wobbly on his legs he got up and started washing his face. The cold water against his skin felt calming.

Taehyung hadn't come back for hours and Jungkook had no idea how he was supposed to react if he did. Over the last few weeks Jungkook had felt safer because Taehyung no longer posed a threat to him, but that had just made it easier for him to forget how much of a threat he still was towards other humans.

Part of him wanted to throw up again, but instead he brought his hands up to his mouth and gulped down some water straight from the tap. The cold water burned as he drank it, probably because his throat was still sore from throwing up.

There was a noise in the hallway and then Jungkook could hear the entrance door click open. As quickly as he could he turned off the tap before sprinting across the hallway to his room, as quiet as he managed to be. Once he was in his room he climbed into the bed, the lights turned off, and pulled the blanket up to his chin, facing towards the wall.

He closed his eyes, waiting. It took Taehyung a while to come to the bedroom. At first Jungkook heard the shower running, probably because he had told Taehyung that he didn't like it when he went to bed with salt water still clinging to his skin.

When the door finally opened Jungkook squeezed his eyes shut, his heart racing in his chest, and yet he tried to breathe as calmly as he could. He didn't want to talk to Taehyung. He didn't know what to say... and he was scared. He was genuinely scared because knowing that Taehyung killed people and seeing him end a life with just one move of his hand...those were different.

"Jungkook?" Taehyung's voice was soft. It was at such a stark contrast to what had happened that Jungkook wanted to turn around. Talk to Taehyung because he couldn't just leave him hanging if he called his name like that. But he didn't. Instead, he kept his eyes closed and tried to keep breathing as calmly as he could.

After a couple of seconds of silence he heard Taehyung move closer towards the bed. The soft padding of feet on the wooden floor and then the mattress dipped. Jungkook's heart rate picked up again, but he didn't move. Didn't give Taehyung any signs he was still awake.

He was still thinking about what had happened just hours ago. About Taehyung's expression as he had killed that guy. The way he had looked at Jungkook. Like he was sorry. How could he be sorry when he had just killed him... how... just how much of this was fake? How much was just a performance to make Jungkook believe Taehyung was almost human? That Taehyung did feel things? Because why would Tae have killed this guy otherwise?

How dumb had Jungkook really been for trusting Taehyung?

He heard the rustling of Taehyung's pillow and blanket and felt the soft movement of the bed as Taehyung made himself comfortable. For a few seconds it was completely silent and Jungkook hoped Taehyung had gone to sleep, but then he spoke again.

"You know I know you're awake, right?"

So much for acting like he was asleep. Hesitantly Jungkook turned around to look at Taehyung. The siren was looking right back at him with those beautiful gray eyes. And Jungkook had no idea how to feel because he had reached a point where he felt pretty safe looking at Tae. Just being in Taehyung's presence. But at the same time, after what had happened today, he was no longer sure how rational that feeling was.

"Your heart is racing... I can hear it." Taehyung turned onto his side. His eyes surprisingly soft.

Slowly Jungkook nodded. Of course Taehyung could hear his heartbeat. How could it possibly be any other way? He had probably also heard him when he had moved to the bedroom.

"Sorry for acting like I was asleep." He didn't exactly feel sorry, but being caught certainly didn't feel right either. He had just not felt ready to talk to Taehyung yet. He really had no idea what to say to Taehyung. It wasn't like he intended to kick Taehyung out of his life, but at the same time just acting like nothing had happened was not a possibility. Not when some poor guy had died over Jungkook's carelessness.

"Why did you?" At least Taehyung didn't seem angry. Instead his voice was soft, a little above a whisper. Jungkook felt weirdly safe with his blankets pulled up all the way to his chin. Safe enough to state the reason out loud.

"I was... scared of you. I don't know how to react. You just-" Jungkook's voice caught in his throat. "You just killed a human. You promised you wouldn't kill anyone but you did. You lied to me." Jungkook didn't mean for it to sound accusing. It just confused him. Why? Why had Taehyung lied to him?

"I know... I'm sorry." Taehyung lowered his head a little. "I didn't mean to."

Jungkook had no idea what to say to that. "Didn't mean to? Tae... you killed a human! That doesn't happen on accident."

"It..." Taehyung hesitated. "I don't want to kill humans anymore."

Jungkook swallowed hard. "But..." He stuttered. "But you just did?! Why did you kill someone if you didn't mean to?" Yet Jungkook felt a little bit of hope spark up inside of him. If Taehyung wasn't lying, did he mean that. Did he really mean that he no longer wanted to kill humans?

"I don't know... I-" Jungkook had never really seen Taehyung this confused before. It really felt like he had no idea why he had acted the way he had himself. "Can I show you?"

"Show me?" Jungkook asked and Taehyung nodded.

Jungkook's heart rate was slowly going down even if he still wasn't entirely sure what to make of all of this. Whether he could trust Taehyung or not.

Slowly he nodded. "Okay, show me."

A/N

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