What does it all mean?

the way of the world and all. 

where does everything come from..?

where does every little insignificant thing go...?

Has my heart disappeared?

Has it just gotten up and left the cavity in which is my chest?

I felt empty long before you came along, Love. 

so do not act as though you are special, as you were not the first to chase the soul from my body.

In fact, I was the first, the very earliest cause of self hate, 'twas me. 

What a shame that I fell for you. 

Did I really need the trouble?

But still, I will not regret it, because for a brief moment I actually believed that I could mean something to someone. 

Silly was I, to believe such a hysterical thing, even thinking about it brings up fits of laughter, followed by tears. 

What a funny thought, that someone could feel such a way towards me. 

How ever could it be possible, for a person to be affectionate to me. 

I feel lost and distant.

I don't have a reason to show up to school each day. 

I haven't any reason to try. 

I have given up on myself. 

No Lie. 

I am defeated. 

are you happy now?

You only used me for attention, because you knew I wouldn't let you alone.

You knew of how deeply I cared, you didn't do anything wrong. 

Besides make me think you could ever truly love me. 

Sure, it's not a real crime, but forever you will remain in my mind. 

Your Lips still haunt my dreams.

Chills. 

I wake up and I scream. 

Remember everything I told you?

All of it was true, I promise you, you meant the world to me. 

And it kills me to see you so cheerful, without me, but I told you all I wanted you to be was happy, So I suppose I'll let you be. 

But I cannot ascertain that I will still be here waiting, the day you come back for me. 

                                                                                                  Ariah Christman