I wish I was something more
More than just me
More than I could ever be
Some one who didn't care
Some one who looked out for me
Instead I look out for others
But when that happens
Who cares for me
Who is there when I am sad
Who is there when I am screaming for help
Who looks up to notice I'm alive
Sometimes it feels easier to restart
To give up on most things
Some one more than me
I try to not think
To not let my emotions get in the way
Some one who is noticeable
And someone who is not perceived as begging for attention
Where someone cares for me
And I get it
People have their own things to worry about
I may be annoying
Or loud
That is who I am
I try not to be
I try to be this perfect girl I have in my head this person who is the best I could be
More than I could possibly be
I see the looks in peoples eyes
I can tell when I am not wanted
I try to ignore them
I try to fade them away
Keep them away from my thoughts
Keep myself from crying over it
I just wish I could be
some one more than me.