"run little girl"

the voices whisper now

"run little girl"

the monsters gather and howl

running from confrontation, running from the nightmares they forced inside your mind. keep on running little girl, you know what you have to hide

they don't know the desperation in your veins, the will to survive. they don't know about the scars that you gained as you built up that want to survive.

they don't know that the girl running from them holds another girl inside — the one that's seen the worst of the world but still tried to thrive. they don't know that the other girl is a monster, created of spite and ill will. that it takes all of the little girl running from them to keep it pinned in.

"run little girl"

her feet pick up speed, carrying her farther

"run little girl"

always running, always running

they only see the little girl running away in fear, fear of herself and losing all she holds dear. they see a little girl but she sees a person built out of mistakes, something never taken for granted, never wanted enough to get out of this hole by herself

they don't know the little girl who cried herself to sleep, who shook in the corners and screamed because she didn't understand what was happening. they don't know the little girl that self diagnoses, but she won't tell anyone because she fears what they'll say, how their looks will change. they don't know the little girl who's lost all she holds dear, who watches every person's back turn away as they disappeared.

"run little girl"

she still hears their voices

"run little girl"

her small hands reach out, trying to join them

tears fill her eyes, she screams and howls, why don't they see her — why don't they stick around? she's loved and lost all that her heart seems to touch. she still doesn't understand how a loving gaze can become a stranger never to be seen again.

she thought she learned not to trust. she thought she taught herself how to let go. she thought she was better, about not looking up. but here she is again, in her corner crying, shaking uncontrollably, still screaming not to give up.

"run little girl"

but she's so tired now

"run little girl"

and run does the little girl, who just wants to know when she gets to hold her ground