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I am hideous.

That had become my daily chant. And now I was believing it more and more.

Black ink covered my fingers, and tears were staining my cheeks. As I scrubbed my hands together, soap foamed between my palms but weren't taking away the black.

Frustrated, I turned off the faucet, crying harder, staring at myself in the mirror. I looked at my plain brown eyes and long black hair and naturally tan skin. My nose was too big and my face too square, and my sides weren't curvy enough. I was knock-kneed, and I looked ugly in everything I wore. I was still losing weight and doing all I could to keep it off. But today I was just losing my mind, wishing I looked different.

I was getting ready to go out with Alana, my perfectly beautiful best friend who was naturally skinny and had amazing features, such as her soft blonde hair, big blue eyes, and normal legs. I wanted to look like her, more than ever.

The ink on my hands was from drawing. I had grabbed the closest marker to my hands and began to draw what I wish I looked like. I don't even remember where I drew it. But I remember outlining the small waist, perky features, legs where my ankles actually touched. My face wasn't so square and my nose wasn't so weird.

I was on the floor now, sobbing. I wanted to disappear from where I was, into a new body with features like Kim Kardashian. I wish I was her. I was never a fan of her, but at least she had a body society approved of.
She was considered beautiful.

I was startled by a knock on the door. I lifted my head from my palms, where the tears had been soaking, and blinked hard to see in the bright white bathroom. Everything around me was white and I was staining it black.

"Angel?" called a familiar voice.

It was Alana.

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A / N
Hey guys!
Thanks for joining me for Angel's story. As always, it'll be sad but have a lesson to learn at the end. This lesson is one I'm still learning. I hope you guys enjoy. Please comment feedback and thoughts below, I'd appreciate it so much! And please don't forget to vote!