Aphmau POV

Tonight was the night of the bonfire. Honestly I just want to have a great time and enjoy myself. So much has already happened, and I'm kind of scared on what going to happen in the future. But for now I need to relax and release the stress that's bothering me right now.

I wore a romper with a cardigan to go with the weather. Apparently, the schools never had a bonfire before, so to celebrate its opening we are going to be able to get drunk. Right now, I'm not planning to get anywhere near drunk, otherwise that'll be a threat to exposing my secrets that I don't want anyone knowing just yet.

I busied myself has time flew past, minutes by hours. I get a lot of time to think. And to think about it, I just kind of seem lonely I guess. Grandma? she's gone. Mum? She was murdered in front of my eyes and I wasn't able to do anything, and yet I haven't seen her grave, reminds me of how horrible I am of a daughter. I just feel like I disappointed my parents, my dad died ages ago and my mum passed away a year ago, I just feel like I'm the last one standing with no one by my side.

Today is my parents anniversary, celebrating many years of their marriage. But to me? It feels like today's the day where everything officially fell apart, my dad was the first one to go, then my mum, now I'm the one who's probably next to fall down, in fact I would've been dead already, if it wasn't for the potion then I would've lost myself.

Maybe I do need to loosen up a bit.

Zoey, Kiki, Emmalyn and Lucinda came to pick me up, wearing their casual attire. Everyone was chatting while I stayed quiet at the back, I didn't feel right to join into their conversations. The sky was pitch black, and today was the full moon, I smiled looking up in the sky, even though you couldn't see much stars and the moon is mostly covered, there's more to see then just beauty.

Lots of people from our school arrived, this place wasn't so packed, but it felt cozy and warm because of the huge fire surrounded by logs where you sit on. Laurance and the guys were talking over by the fire while, Katelyn and Kawaii Chan seem to be in a serious argument and Cadenza and Lillian were chatting and laughing, sometimes I really do forget that they're immortal beings, but sometimes I forget that I have some sort of power that I'm not bothered releasing.

Everyone began to sit down so I decided to settle down as well not before noticing Laurance gazing at me. I kept my head down, regretting ever coming here. Can I go back home? I feel, for some reason very unwelcome here. A few people started singing songs, so I couldn't help but relax while listening to their mesmerising voices. The singing stopped making me drag my head up to see half of the people staring at me.

"Aphmau, it's your turn to sing." Emmalyn said smiling slightly.

"But I-"

"No buts, now sing."

I stared at the ground not wanting to see their judgmental stares.

If this night is not forever,

I started off while fiddling with my fingers nervously.

At least we are together,

I stuck an escaping strand of my hair behind my ear.

I know I'm not alone, I know I'm not alone.

I held in a shaky breath.

Anywhere, whenever

I closed my eyes.

Apart but still together,

I know I'm not alone, I know I'm not alone.

Before I could sing any longer I snapped out of my hypnotic state. Why did I sing? I swore not to sing any musical lyrics when my grandma died, I'm just breaking our relationship.

"There! Happy?" I sat up from the log angrily and walked to the beverage stand.

I ordered a shots of vodka, yet that didn't satisfy my needs of getting drunk, as it only burnt my throat only a little. When the bar tender wasn't looking I quickly stole the whole bottle of vodka and ran away from the crime scene. Everybody left to get food over where the bar stand is. I sat on the floor leaning my head against the the wooden log. I digested a whole gulp of the vodka letting the burning settle in my throat, that felt good. I decided to devour the whole bottle.

My mind felt dizzy, I never got drunk before. My body didn't feel like the right state or mind. I had no control of my actions, I just felt all loopy and silly. Is this how being drunk feels likes.

"Hey Aphmau." Katelyn said as the girls and the guys followed behind her sitting on the ground.

"G'day mate!" I cheered in my fake Australian accent, they all looked at me weirdly.

"Like my Australian accent? I've been practicing it for a while, hehe." I grinned cheekily scrunching my nose, I started poking my nose weirdly. Wow, I must be really drunk.

Everyone was confused, but once they saw the bottle of vodka and all the other shot cups on the floor they got the idea.

"Aphmau, are you drunk?" Dante asked me carefully.

"Well duh! Silly!" I jumped around in circles, I eventually got tired so I lied down on the floor.

"Don't you just love dying?" I asked out of the blue while reaching my fingers out to poke the stars.

"What do you mean?" Garroth asked.

"I love the feeling of dying, it's just so wonderful! Ya know, When I died, boi did it hurt so much. Getting my neck snapped hurts like a bitch. But luckily I came back alive." I ignored Garroth and jumped high in the air dancing around the logs like a kid.

"You died?" Kiki asked in disbelief.

"Yup! Aaron said it was for some silly, little ritual. Oh? Look! More vodka!" I sang as I ran towards the beverage stand.

Someone grabbed my hand keeping me from going. I groaned in frustration as I wanted another bottle, I knew I was already drunk out of my mind, but who cares.

Who will care?

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