Who is real in this world? Me!? Oh, definitely not me. I once believed I was. Maybe I really was back then, but not anymore. I'm not real. I'm a very cheap version of an expert actress who manages to portray any emotions on command and never the ones she actually wishes to show. I'm a lover, I'm a fighter, I'm someone between the two. Someone who doesn't want to get in a fight and someone who just can't fall in love. My life is a nightmare portrayed as a dream. No, I don't want to live like this. I don't want a life where I doubt each and every person on whether or not they love me. I don't want to live my life, shattering with every single thing that seems to break my trust and believes. I don't want this life. And if this is what an average typical life is going to look like, then I don't want an average life at all.