When I got to work Phil was there but he looked terrible, to say the least.

He looked depressed and on the verge of tears the whole day.

Frank was there today so I left around lunch.

When I left Frank came in and shot a worried look at Phil before starting his work.

I feel guilty, I don't know if it's my fault or not but I felt really guilty.

When I got home I put my headphones on and I listened to drown.

"What doesn't kill you makes you wish you were dead.
Got a hole in my soul, growing deeper and deeper.
And I can't take one more moment of this silence.
The loneliness is haunting me.
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up." I began, letting all the emotions seep through my voice.

"It comes in waves, I close my eyes.
Hold my breath and let it bury me.
I'm not okay, and it's not alright.
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?" I continue, closing my eyes.

"Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.
Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown." I hear footsteps but I ignore them.

"What doesn't destroy you, leaves you broken instead.
Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper.
And I can't take one more moment of this silence.
The loneliness is haunting me.
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up." They come close to my door, hesitating.

"It comes in waves, I close my eyes.
Hold my breath and let it bury me.
I'm not okay, and it's not alright
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?" They knock.

"Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.
Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown." I hope they go away.

" 'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own.
(Woah oh oh oh)
'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own.
(Woah oh oh oh)
'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own.
(Woah oh oh oh)
('Cause you know that I can't do this on my own.)" They don't, obviously.

"Who will fix me now?
Who will fix me now?
Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown." They start screaming so I stop.

I open my eyes, looking up at Evan.

He doesn't like Phil, he keeps telling me how stupid I was, that I should kill myself, no one likes me anyway.

His words are getting harder to ignore, insults getting worse, everything getting too much to handle.

Until I break.

Evan smirks, seeing that my sanity that I was so desperately clinging to was gone, shattered into a million pieces on the floor.

There, he finally did it, I'm crazy.

My name is Dan, Daniel Howell [need to find shit] and depression. Or at least that's what they tell me.

(A/N)
fun fact: i'm editing this at 2am and it's cringy and depressing.