There are some things in everyone's life that they don't talk about out loud and let it run through their veins and ultimately let it kill them. I'm not one of those people. Because I not only do that but also, I don't reveal anything about myself. I'm conscious and quiet like that to keep my walls firm. But right now, at this very moment. I'll let you have a glimpse of who I am, more specifically the things that make me who I am. Let me just say that I'm not your average normal person. One of the things that I was certain of was that I have a black hole for a heart, which means any of the joy and happiness that come my way gets sucked in and covered by a sturdy layer of numbness. My eyes remained dry as I don't remember shedding any tears because as I said, I was immune to every kind of emotion. I was certain that whatever happens, I will stay like for as long as I live. That was until you came along. I should say this with emphasis and I'll say it like that, that I actually felt something. After a lifetime of feeling nothing, you gave me a feeling. Almost like I felt like a human again. Not only that, you made me feel things that I've only ever read about. The feeling of being visible to a pair of eyes, the feeling of being thoroughly understood and known and the feeling of being loved. It would probably be nothing to someone else but it meant the world to me. You were surely a miracle. But I forgot you were also a dream. And I realized that as I watched you fall in love with someone else. It was like witnessing my whole world disappear in front of my eyes. And what hurt even more was that the person you chose to adore was not just anyone. It was the person I was always there for. It was the person I loved unconditionally and saw as one of my own. It was her; my best friend. Two of the people who were supposed to stay, left without an explanation. I cannot put into words my state at that time or my state at this time even because every time I see you two together, it's like watching the same dream you want to wake up from over and over again and trust me, it never gets old. I still shatter and I still grieve. And I probably would have been all my life, if you two wouldn't have given me something else. Both of you broke me in every way a person can possibly be broken but its because of you that I now realize my worth. I might not have been enough for you but that doesn't mean I'm not. The truth is, I was so enough that you weren't able to carry it with your hands that settle for less. I need you to know all this so that you know that who did I lose? Someone who meant everything to me. And who did you lose? Someone who could have given you everything. So thank you for making me work on myself again. I so desperately want to say more but neither of you is worth wasting any of my tears that were once missing or my words that will forever be all I have. So I will end this note without a goodbye. Because no one ever says goodbye unless they want to see you again.

-E and V