La Push was the first thing that came to mind. The calm waves and gentle wind would bring anyone peace. Maybe it was the first thing on my mind because it's where I had that walk with Jacob. My memories with him have been good. Although there have only been a few.

I parked my car and walked to the shore. I pulled my jacket over myself tighter. The cold wasn't too bad. I sat down on the sand and pulled my legs to my chest. I watched the waves crash onto the sand and gently spread out.

My phone went off in my pocket; interrupting my peace. It was Bella. I had no reason to not answer but I honestly didn't want to. I set my phone down and let it ring.

Bella called again then sent a text. The text was pretty urgent. After that I decided to finally call her.

There were only 2 rings before she answered. "Avery?! Where are you?!" Bella asked in a panicked voice.

"Calm down, calm down. I'm fine and at La Push."

"I was so worried. You don't ever feel sick. Then Alice had a vision after you left." I heard Bella sigh. "You left and I got worried because you looked-you looked sad. You never look sad."

"It was just my mother and stuff. Let's just not talk about it." I felt tears well up in my eyes. I always hated when I got like this. When I start crying about everything. "What did you mean about Alice having a vision?" I said changing the subject. How could Alice have a "vision" anyway?

"It's a long story. It would be better to explain it in person." She paused. "Get home safe okay. I don't want to worry about you too much."

I laughed and then realization hit me. Bella must be feeling my emotions from the connection. It makes sense. She only called me all panic filled because she was worried. She also knew that I was sad and not actually feeling sick. Then again anyone with a good eye could've seen that. I hoped this connection wasn't just one way. A complex and confusing journey like this shouldn't be done alone. Maybe I just didn't want to feel even more alone than I already do.

I decided to lay back and close my eyes. The sand felt like a blanket on my back. I drifted off and thought of better memories. Memories where I wasn't sad or alone or completely lost.

Flashback

T

he Flower Duet was playing. It was one of my mother's favorite opera pieces. My mother was sitting on a chair in the living room. Her blonde hair was messy but still looked perfect. Her eyes were closed but she was moving her hands to the song. When the notes got high her eyebrows rose slightly. She was in complete peace. My father always said my mother was the prettiest when she wasn't trying to be. This was a moment when she looked her prettiest.

I was walking over towards her. I tried to be as slient as possible but the floor creaked. My mother opened her eyes slowly and smiled. She motioned for me to come over. I sat in her lap. My nine year old self would always sit on her lap. My mother would run her fingers through my hair and close her eyes again; losing herself in the music.

It was in those moments where I also lost myself in the music. I was in peace just by being in my mother's arm.

End of flashback

The last time we had a moment like that was four days before she left. Except I was older and couldn't fit on her lap anymore. So I put my head on her shoulder and she would still play with my hair. I missed those moments more than anything.

"Avery?" A familiar voice called out. I opened my eyes to see Jacob standing above. "You scared me for a second. You looked dead from far away."

"Wait, how long have I been here?" I asked out loud.

I sat back up quickly. I pulled my sleeve back a little and looked at my watch. It was 3:35. I should be home by now. I must've fallen asleep. I stood up and was about to rush to my car before Jacob stopped me.

"Wait up, are you alright? People don't just take naps on the beach." He didn't crack a smile even though I expected him to. Was he actually concerned?

"I-I'm fine. I was tired. I didn't even mean to fall asleep-"

"Avery...you look like you've been crying."

"What?" Was it that noticeable? I wiped my face immediately and felt some moisture. I also saw black smudges on my finger from my mascara running. "I wasn't, I was just- I was tired. I'm not sad. I'm- I wasn't crying-" I stuttered out. Lying to Jacob brought more tears out. I was so tired of lying. I didn't want to lie to him. Especially him.

Jacob didn't say a word. He just wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to his chest. I was still crying except it was harder. I couldn't hold it back.

"I'm sorry, Jacob. I'm so sorry." I said through sobs.

"No, no. Don't say that. You don't have to." He said in a gentle voice.

I put my hands on his back and continued to sob uncontrollably. I felt like I belonged in his arms just not while crying. I wanted to be happy. I was so tired. Just so tired. In every way a person could be tired.

After a couple mintues of crying in Jacob's embrace I somehow stopped. Whether it was because I ran dry of tears or my emotions were out I couldn't tell.

"You okay now?" Jacob asked in that gentle voice again.

"I don't know." I rested my forehead on his chest. "For now, I'm better. A lot better."

The waves crashed in the distance. It was almost perfect if you excuse all of the emotions that were released a few minutes ago.

"I know we haven't known each other that long and I don't expect you to trust me much yet but I'm here. Whenever you need me. Okay?"

"You're gonna make me cry again." I joked but there was some truth. Jacob cared about ne a lot and it's more than I could ever ask for.

"You're just full of jokes." He said, I could hear the smile in his voice.

For the next few minutes we stood there in each others arms. I enjoyed every single second of it.

...

I was over at Bella's house because it was a Friday and all. Spending time with Bella was something I valued now. Considering she was hanging around the Cullens who knows how much longer she has left in this world. Wow, way to think positive.

Bella planned to wash her car and I decided to help out. I cleaned out the inside and she took care of the outside. While picking up some trash on the passenger side I heard an extremely loud noise come from the top of the car. Then whatever made the noise went to the truck bed. I noticed his super pale hands immediately. A visit from Edward, how nice.

"Where's Bella?" Edward asked me jumping down from the truck bed.

I got out of the truck. Bella was inside getting some air freshner for her car. Isn't the vampire suppose to have super sonic senses? "Don't you already know that?" I blurted out.

"What? Do you know where she's at?" He asked slightly annoyed.

"I only know because of being, ya know- you know what I am, don't you?"

"I think. A-"

Just before he finished what he was saying Bella came out and I said her name loudly. Had Bella not come out right then I wouldn't have had to do that.

Edward walked over to her. I could see joy fill Bella's eyes. She really did love being around him. I was actually pretty jealous.

They began talking and took their conversation over to the car. While Edward was talking to Bella he popped the dent out of her car. It was pretty cool to see his strength used like that. What am I saying? The Cullens and their vampire powers are a big no.

I overheard Edward inviting Bella over to meet his parents. Bella, of course, got awkward about it. It's understandable though. Being in a house full of your vampire boyfriend's family is pretty scary.

"Avery should come with. She's a good wing woman." Bella said turning the attention on me.

"Well, you do already know about what my family is and you didn't make the best first impression on them so it wouldn't be a bad idea. " Edward told me.

"The blonde started it." I stated.

Edward suddenly looked over at the road. Concern showed on his face. "I have to leave but I'll pick you both up tomorrow." He said in a rush, getting in his car.

As Edward drove away he passed another car and I could the glance they shared. As the other car got closer I saw that it was Jacob and someone else. It looked like it could be his dad. Then they pulled into the driveway.

"It's his dad." Bella said coming to stand next to me.

"So you can read minds now?"

She chuckled. "He's a nice guy."

After about a minute of setup Jacob rolled his father's wheelchair over to Bella and I. Jacob's father explained why they had come over. He said it was for some game, I'm not really a sports person.

Jacob and I gave each other a smile. He seemed to have that effect of making me want to smile when he was around.

"You must be Avery." Jacob's father said to me.

I was extremely surprised. He would only know about me if Jacob or Bella mentioned me.

"Yeah, I'm her." I told him.

"Jacob here was bugging me about coming down here just in case you were over." He joked. Jacob exchanged a few words with him and a slight blush appeared on his face. "Billy Black, by the way." He informed me.

I still had a grin plastered on my face from what Billy said earlier.

Bella offered to take Billy inside. I knew it was her plan to give Jacob and I some alone time. In all honesty, Bella was the true wing woman.

"Are you still doing alright?" Jacob asked referring to what happened at La Push.

"For the most part. It's just family issues and I tend to bottle my emotions. It's only occasionally that something like that happens."

I hadn't noticed until now that Jacob was so close to me. Had it been anyone else I would've noticed right away and have been bothered by it. For some reason, I wasn't ever uncomfortable with Jacob's presence.

"I saw one of the Cullens over here. He wasn't bothering, was he?" Jacob said getting defensive.
"No, he wasn't. He's just a friend of Bella's." I assumed Bella hadn't told Jacob about her relationship with Edward. If she hadn't said anything yet then I wouldn't.

"Oh, they're not the best company to keep. If you know what I mean." He persisted.

"Yeah I know. They haven't done anything yet so there isn't a reason to worry. I hope there won't ever be a reason to be."

Bella had told me that her and Jacob were childhood friends. From that I assumed Jacob was protective of her. That or he just didn't like the threat of vampires.
"Just please, be careful around them." Jacob said sincerely.

While standing there was a moment of complete silence. I just nodded my head. It felt like Jacob got much closer. Then I realized he had and he was leaning closer towards me. Part of me was cheering because he was finally going to kiss me. The other part of me was scared that I would mess something up.

"Jacob!" I heard Charlie say therefore ruining the moment. He had just pulled into the driveway. "Is Billy here?"

"Yeah, he's inside." Jacob turned awkwardly to tell Charlie.

As soon as he went inside I let out a laugh.

"Talk about ruining the moment." Jacob said laughing along with me.

I shook my head and still had a smile on my face. "Let's go inside, Loverboy. There will be another moment. A better, more private moment."

"I hope so."

So did I, so did I. Hopefully that moment would come soon.

A/N

I kinda hate myself for doing that. Like they need to at least kiss ASAP. The clock is ticking, man. Thanks for reading!
(P.S.) Sorry for taking a million years to update