A Beautiful Lie.

                             *Past*

"Allah Ta'allah says, whoever will protect his gaze out of my fear:
      
          عبدلته إيمانا يجد حلا و ته فى قلبه

"I will grant this person such sweetness of Imaan, that this person will be able to perceive this sweetness of Imaan in his heart"

Mulla Ali Qari (رحمة الله عليه ) who was  a very great commentator of Ahadeeth, mentions :

" The sweetness of Imaan is such , that when Allah Ta'allah bestows it to a certain person ,it will never ever be taken away from that person, and the result of the sweetness of Imaan is, such a person is garanteed to pass away on Imaan."

Safwa's chest tightened in guilt, her heart began beating just a tad bit faster, she shifted uncomfortably, she felt as if this lecture was directed to only her, she let out a sigh and closed her eyes, contemplating over the last four months......

Some changes had taken place , after the incident at the park, she decided to pay attention to Khaleel and began becoming more friendly with him. She constantly reminded herself that he was only a friend and nothing else and he said the same. Their friendship grew each day, they chatted often and shared their life experiences and problems. Safwa enjoyed his company, he was a good listener and having him listen to her, sort of filled the hurt that her siblings caused her, surely she didn't take Khaleel as a brother, but he was a close friend and she was afraid that she soon would develop feelings for him, feelings other than friendship.

The scholar had a way of captivating the attention of people , his lectures had a great impact on the listeners, hence Safwa feeling  uncomfortable.

Deep down in her heart she knew what she was doing was wrong, nobody had to tell her speaking to a non Marham is not allowed in Islaam, even if  it just be 'friendship', she knew it was not permissible, but she couldn't bring herself to stop any communication with him, she knew he probably felt nothing for her, but she felt as if she might want him to feel something more. It was crazy of her and very wrong as well, yet she just secretly wished for it.....

Jauhy had found out about Safwa and her cousin communicating , she had been infuriated, for she had warned Khaleel not to mess with her friend and she had advised Safwa not to fall for his charm, due to it being impermissible first of all , and secondly she didn't want her friend to be hurt..... things had turned out to be a bit ugly , Khaleel was livid that Jauhy reprimanded Safwa, he approached Jauhy and uttered many profinities, upseting Jauhy more than she already had been.

Safwa and Jauhy's close bond of friendhsip had slowly begun to fall apart, and her cousin Khaleel who she took as her little brother refused to communicate with her , all because she wished good for them, all because she tried to advise them and save them from wrong, based on her personal experience. She knew how it felt to give your heart to someone , have it toyed with and thrown like an insignificant piece of dirt back in your face, she knew the feeling of remorse after realising that you disobeyed your Merciful Creator, it was a constant pang of guilt that attacked your heart,  even though years had passed.....
She never wished any girl to go through that, that is the reason she was concerned  about her friend.

Unshed tears filled Safwa's eyes , she missed her crazy friend and she knew that Jauhy missed her as well, it was so stupid that they argued and were not on good terms...all because of Khaleel.

She pulled her knees to her chest , tightened her arms around her legs, her mother shot her a questioning look, her daughter had been looking depressed for the past few days, but she chose  not to question her.

Safwa shook her head at her mother, indicating that nothing was wrong , her mother gazed at her for a few seconds, then turned her attention back to the lecture.

Safwa buried her face in her hands, she knew  the correct thing was to cut off all communication with Khaleel, but the sad part was,  she actually didn't want to....

She lazed on her bed, the windows were slightly opened, allowing the gentle breeze to blow over her skin, the lights were turned off , settling the room into a pecaful atmosphere, she stared at the ceiling in  the darkness, enjoying the peaceful night.

The house had settled into silence , not a sound could be heard.....
After a while, she heard the sound of her sister giggling and then  the sound of  heavy footsteps running close to her room.

"Give me back my phone " Shaakir hissed.

"Shhh you are going to wake Mummy and Daddy up !"

Shaakir sighed.
"Give me my phone and I will take you to Krispy Kreme tommorrow "
Shaakir bribed.

"Fine ! deal "

"Fat cow ! "
She heard a slap, probably her sister slapping Shaakir, and then she heard them both laughing.

She tightened her hold on her phone,  she wasn't jealous that her siblings shared a close bond , she was hurt that they showed an attitude of indifference towards her, they acted like she didn't even exist!

Just then a green light flashed on her phone, notifying her that she received  a whatsapp message. She shoved her depressing thoughts to the back of her mind and opened up the message.

Khaleel:
Hey Salaam , wassup ?

A smile graced her lips and her cheeks coloured a shade of pink.
She mentally scolded herself, why the heck was she blushing ?

Safwa:
Hey , nothing much .......just got into bed .....feeling a bit sad 😢

Khaleel:
Why? What happened?

Safwa explained to him the behaviour of her siblings towards her and how they made her feel.
A smile lit up her face, when she read his reply.

Khaleel:
Eish. Don't worry about them , who needs them! You have me now🙌
I will always be there for you☺
 
Safwa:
Awww ...how sweet ! 💓

And they indulged in useless chatter, until their eyes hooded due to tiredness and they said their goodbyes.

That night a soft smile adorned Safwa's lips, as she drifted off to the world of her dreams... 

But how long would Khaleel be the reason behind that pretty smile ??

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