Moving On.

ﺇِﻥَّ ٱﻟَّﺬِﻳﻦَ ﻳَﺨْﺸَﻮْﻥَ ﺭَﺑَّﻬُﻢ ﺑِﭑﻟْﻐَﻴْﺐِ ﻟَﻬُﻢ ﻣَّﻐْﻔِﺮَﺓٌ ﻭَﺃَﺟْﺮٌ
ﻛَﺒِﻴﺮ

"As for those who fear their Lord unseen, for them is Forgiveness and a great Reward."

(Aaya 12 , Surah Mulk)

ﻭَﺃَﺳِﺮُّﻭا۟ ﻗَﻮْﻟَﻜُﻢْ ﺃَﻭِ ٱﺟْﻬَﺮُﻭا۟ ﺑِﻪِۦٓ ۖ ﺇِﻧَّﻪُۥ ﻋَﻠِﻴﻢٌۢ ﺑِﺬَاﺕِ ٱﻟﺼُّﺪُﻭﺭ

" And whether ye hide your word or publish it, He certainly has (full) knowledge, of the secrets of (all) hearts."

(Aaya 13, Surah Mulk)

ﺃَﻻَ ﻳَﻌْﻠَﻢُ ﻣَﻦْ ﺧَﻠَﻖَ ﻭَﻫُﻮَ ٱﻟﻠَّﻄِﻴﻒُ ٱﻟْﺨَﺒِﻴﺮ

"Should He not know,- He that created? and He is the One that understands the finest mysteries (and) is well-acquainted (with them)."

(Aaya 14, Surah Mulk)

💦Solitude💦

I wish it were that easy , feelings to rid,
If only it could be tossed into something and be sealed with a lid.

I wish it were so easy, to move on and forget ,
If only I took heed, I would be saved from remorse and regret .

This feeling.....like I am so lost ,
Oh how I wish in the waves of the ocean these emotions could be tossed.

In solitude , I need to do soul searching,
Ponder over all these emotions within me that are lurking.

My heart desires , Oh Allah !
In Your rememberance , I should be engrossed,
Leaving behind me all those unpleasant paths I have crossed.

Just toss out the shards of my shattered heart, hoping for relief,
To find contentment only in You , to be absolutely free from sadness and grief.

In the darkness of the night , to weep and let out all my emotion ,
Away from the judgemental eyes of people , the day, and it's commotion...

.....Jawhariy.....

On a clear , stary night , when the breeze was slow and gentle , when the night was calm , when the sound of the lapping waves were soothing to the mind and soul, Safwa sat on her Musallah, the cool beach sand beneath her, the serene atmosphere engulfing her from every side.

Once again tears cascaded down her face the only difference was, this time she cried because she wanted to truly find herself, she wished to make her sole purpose of living and breathing only for the pleasure of Allah , she wanted to be so engrossed in the love of Allah , that her future spouse would have to seek her hand in marriage , through the permission of her Creator.

The day after Khaleel had appeared like an unexpected tornado , Safwa's sister along with her husband, her husbands cousin and her little daughter had arrived from Dubai, the very next morning. They had been unaware that Sameeha would be coming to South Africa , Sameeha wanted to surprise her family and only phoned them when she had arrived at the Durban airport, and what a pleasant surprise , as well as a good distraction it had been for Safwa. Her adorable , two year old niece, Amani had kept her entertained , amusing Safwa with her cute little baby rants.

A whole week had passed , and surprisingly they still hadn't visited the beach , having had a heavy lunch and no apetite for a proper supper , her mother decided to make some sandwiches , and enjoy a picnic on the beach front , on this serene night.
After they had finished eating and just sat , talking about random things, chilling on the sand, Safwa excused herself , took her Musallah along with her and settled herself , a good distance away from her family.

She had been silently gazing at the ocean , so engrossed in her thoughts she was , she didn't even notice the reflection of the full moon , that shone beautifully above her.

" Full moon tonight , you never know, you might find your better half on this moon lit night, " she heard her brother's voice approaching her.

Breaking out of her thoughts, she hastily wiped away her tears , assuming that her brother was talking to her, she turned her face to the side, in order to roll her eyes at her brother. He always teased her when she sat alone in thought, but she quickly turned back to face the ocean when she realised, that Shaakir was speaking to another figure alongside him, probably unaware that she sat a few feet away.

"Whatever man " the figure alongside Shaakir laughed, then turned to look at the moon.

" SubhanAllah how beautiful the full moon looks, imagine how much more beautiful was the face of our beloved Nabi صلى الله عليه وسلم "

As their their voices neared her, she realised that the unknown figure was her brother in law , Yameen's cousin speaking. During this one week Yameen's cousin and her brother had become very close , they had been spending most of their time together. Safwa was quite astonished, her brother was not one to befriend so quickly, she suspected there was some other reason they had become so close, but  she decided not to question her brother regarding it , he was not one to share secrets , nor open up very quickly.

" Ugh you make me feel so oblivious of Allah's creation , when you talk in this pious mode of yours ".
She noticed her brothers tone held admiration when he said that.

"No way, I'm not even close to being pious. I'm so sinful. As for your previous statement about finding by better half, when the time is right , I will find my better half, In Sha Allah"

" I may be able to assist you then, I think I have the perfect person for you"

Safwa rose her brows , where was her brother going with this ? Shaakir saying this only confirmed her previous doubts , about her brother being close for a reason, other than just his compananion and friend. She didn't want to eavesdrop on their conversation, but due to them standing so close , she couldn't help hearing their entire conversation.

"And who might that be ?"

" Hasty now aren't we ?" Shaakir laughed.

"Yes ofcourse there is a posibility of me meeting my supposed better half , why shouldn't I be ? Please enlighten me "

"Safwa ....."

"What ! " the unknown figure as well as Safwa said at the same time , shocked at what they heard.

Safwa quickly covered her mouth , regreting saying that aloud , her brother would now know that she heard all that. Her heart hammered in her chest, it was not what she expected , some other idea was brewing in that crazy mind of Shaakir's , he was wrong if he thought she would agree to this.

Shaakir laughed seeing their shocked expressions .

" Chill , I didn't mean to say Safwa is the one , I said her name, because I was surprised, I didn't notice her sitting here and eavesdropping on our conversation " Shaakir narrowed his eyes at Safwa.

Safwa breathed a sigh of relief.
So it was , what she was suspecting.
She made a mental note to speak to Sameeha regarding her suspicions, she couldn't keep this to herself.

Safwa glared at her brother for accusing her of eavesdropping, when she was seated here first and they walked in the  same direction , it wansn't her fault they were blind, and couldn't speak softly , while having this 'top secret ' discussion.

Shaakir made them feel more awkward around each other , when he made them think he was refering to Safwa , as the boys better half. From the corner of her eye , she saw Yameen's cousin scratching the back of his neck , embarrassed by the awkward situation.

This boy.....whatever his name was , she couldn't even remember , despite him staying there for a whole week , had tagged along with her sister and her family , for what reason Safwa didn't know , and stayed at their house along with them. Having an unknown non Marham in the house was a bit awkward for Safwa , even though she had to keep her scarf on anyway, because her brother in law was there as well, but she couldn't be her crazy self, neither talk when this boy was around, not like he was around much, as he and Shaakir would be out of the house most of the time but, still...she just couldn't be herself. She knew that her brother in law was not her mahram as well but, she didn't observe the niqaab as yet , so it was hard not to have a conversation with him and she took him as a big brother.

" Khair , dude what's up with you ! Why are you so red in the face ?"
Shaakir slapped his back playfully, and laughed at Khair's expression.
Khair was a shy guy , around non mahram girls ,and Shaakir found this amusing.

Oh that's his name ...Khair

"Dude , why are you so shy ? It's just my sister , not a big deal!"

Safwa groaned. She huffed in annoyance , picked up her Musallah and walked over to the rest of her family, annoyed with her brother.

Why couldn't he just leave the guy alone , it wasn't a bad thing for a guy to be shy !

And why , just why ? Everytime she wanted a moment of peace , someone would always disturb her ?

Previously Khaleel , now her annoying brother and this Khair guy.

Khaleel ....that name left bitter memories in her mind, and a slight sting in her heart, but she was Safwa, she was a fighter, she would not be like other girls who spent their nights and days bawling their eyes out over a guy, she would bury the past memories and make new, happy memories, this time within the confines of Shariah, in the obedience of Allah.

It was okay to shatter and break down once in a while, as long as you were willing to make an effort to get back up, better and stronger than what you were before. She would move on, and this time with the help of Allah, she wouldn't fall into the same trap of so called 'love' once again.

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Assalamualaykum dear readers !

Woah ! After a very depressing phase of having no idea regarding what to write in this chapter , I managed to update !
Alhamdulillah.

salz_16 I'm sure you will sigh in relief , when you see an update 😉

Just a little reminder:

All the Hajees will be returning soon in sha Allah. May Allah Ta'allah accept from them and give us the opportunity to perform hajj as well.

We are encouraged to go and meet the Hajees when they return. I would like to share , what I heard in a lecture:

1) Greet Haaji with full greeting.

2) Hug and shake hands with a Hajee ( your mahrams and women ofcourse, not non mahrams :p)

3 ) Ask him to make dua of forgiveness for you.

4) Make dua for him.
The sunnah duas taught to us by Nabi صلى الله عليه وسلم are as follows:
قبل الله حجك و غفر الله ذنبك و اخلف الله نفقتك

QabilAllahu Hajjak , Wa GhafarAlalhu Thanbak , Wa AkhlafAllahu Nafaqatak.

" May Allah accept your hajj , forgive your sins, and replace all your expediture (used during Hajj)"

اللهم اغفر الحاج و من استغفر للحاج

Aallahum aghfir Lilhaaj Wa Man Istaghfara Lilhaaj.

"O Allah forgive the Hajee, and the one who seeks forgiveness for the Hajee."

5) Zam Zam water , can be drank sitting or standing , both is permissible.

Dua when drinking Zam Zam :

اللهم انى أسألك علما نافعا و رزقا وا سعا و شفاءمن كل داء

Allahuma Inni Asaluka Ilma Nafi'a Wa Rizqan Waas'ia Wa Shiffaa Min Kuli Daa

"O Allah I ask you for beneficial knowledge , vast sustenance , and cure from every ailment.

Beneficial knowledge : such knowledge that you know how to obey Allah , and stay away from what displeases Allah.

* Sufficient /Vast sustenance.
meaning Baraka in rizq

* Ailments : Make intention of cure from Spiritual , Physical and mental illness , depression etc.

*Ulama mention make these duas with yaqeen (faith), when drinking Zam Zamn , and they will be accepted.

* Ulama mention the effect of Zam Zam on you will be greater , if your earnings are halaal.

Loads of love

Jawhariy 💖