Trinity

"And that's the end of our tour,"I spoke softly. "Do you have any questions?"

He looked down at his map once more. Our school was pretty big, and I'm sure he was still lost as to what was going on. I didn't blame him. Our school was as big as a college campus.

"You said my fourth period class was in Hall 400, but my labs could be in E-Pod, correct?"

I stood on my tippy toes so I could see his map. Once he noticed my change in height, he brought the map down as he chuckled.

I pointed to his fourth period class, and then trailed my finger to his lab. He nodded his head as he watched. Once I was done, he pulled a pen out of his pocket, and traced my route.

"Okay, okay, and my education class. Where is that at again?"He asked. "I should've been taking notes when you were showing me earlier, my bad."

"It's coolio,"I responded. "It's right here,"I pointed. "I have education with you. I can meet you after fourth, and we can walk there together."

"You sure? I don't want you to go out of your way. As long as I got this map right here, I should be a'ight.•

I giggled softly, "No biggie, seriously. I'll meet you there and walk with you."

He nodded as he watched me. I gave him the bright smile I gave everyone. He smiled back slightly.

"Thanks, Trinity."

"You're welcome,"I said. "Would you like me to walk you to second period?"

"Nah, I gotta find my way around somehow,"He responded. "I'll catch you later though, right?"

"After fourth period,"I said brightly. "Good luck Warren."

He gave me a peace sign as he walked off in the other direction. I watched as he waltzed away. His walking was so smooth, but it had a certain suture about it.

After he disappeared, I found myself walking to the nearest bathroom. When I walked in, I made sure no one else was inside.

I stood in front of the mirror and saw the tired eyes I hid from everyone. No matter how much makeup I put on, I couldn't hide my hurt from myself. It was engraved in my image.

I pulled out the powder from my bookbag, and I dusted some onto my face. Once I thought I looked decent enough, I pulled out my lip gloss. I coated my lips ever so slightly.

The weight of the world was apparent on my shoulders in the mirror. I reached under my shirt and pulled the straps to my posture corrector. Mommy gave it to me for my birthday last year, and as much as it hurt, it also helped.

As I looked at myself, I noticed the other imperfections. A piece of hair was protruding from my upper lip. I took the pair of tweezers I kept in my book bag, and I plucked it. It fell to the floor, noiseless. I imagined the soft thud it could've made if it carried weight.

After I fixed the rest of my imperfections, I put all of the items I needed back in my book bag. I pulled it over my shoulder, and gave myself a soft smile in the mirror.

"Perfect,"I whispered to myself. "To them you're perfect."

"To yourself, you're shit,"I thought.

***

Blame by Bryson Tiller flooded my ears as I walked into the commons. It was packed with people, as always.

I waved at the teachers who patrolled the area. They all asked me how I was doing, and how my parents were. I gave the same response every time, We're great! How are you?. Only I knew I was lying.

I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist. A fake smile spread across my face. The grip got together as they rested their head in the crook of my neck.

"There's my sunshine,"He whispered. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you too, baby,"I whispered back.

He let go of the tight embrace, and he placed a kiss on my cheek. He pulled out a chair at the table for me to sit in. I sat down and took out my lunch.

He stared at me the whole time. He did that a lot. He enjoyed watching me do whatever I was doing, and he told me that a few times. At first it used to creep me out, but as time went on, I found it attractive.

"Give me a kiss,"He said in his perfect baby voice.

I leaned over and gave him a kiss. When I pulled away, he was smiling as hard as he could. He enjoyed my kisses more then I enjoyed his.

"Aw shit, here we go with this baby making shit,"Kim said as she arrived at the table.

"Leave them alone, bitch. You just mad cause you lonely,"Nya responded as she sat down beside her.

"Lonely? At least I'm not hopping from dick to dick."

"You know I stay on one nigga dick. I fuck with a lot of niggas, but I don't actually fuck them , sweetie. Get ya facts right before you try to call me out, trick ass bitch."

"Don't that nigga hop from dick to dick though, so technically you're hopping dicks as well. How it feel to be fucked by thirty different niggas, ugly ass bitch?"Kim asked.

"At least I'm getting fucked. Nobody wanna fuck your Donkey from Shrek ass."

I coughed loudly. Eli did the same. We were both signaling for them to break up their argument.

"Y'all know we playing, right?"They said at the same time.

"Royal, only fuck with me,"Nya said. "He don't do that shit anymore."

"And I have a boyfriend,"Kim added.

Eli laughed loudly at their comments. We both knew that wasn't true, but we wouldn't say anything about it. They were the only two to joke about their current situationships.

Eli knew not to say anything, and I just decided not to say anything. I was tired of trying to help them, when they obviously didn't want to be helped.

"Girl, you said Mrs. Young did what today?"Kim asked Nya.

I looked across the commons and saw Warren walking in. He had his map in his hands once again. Girls walked behind him, trying to figure out who he was.

Our school was big, but the population was small. We didn't have many students. The only reason we had this big school, was because of the tax payers. Most of our parents made a lot of money and taxes, with donations and sponsors, our school was built.

He looked around, lost once again. A sudden feeling of guilt filled my body. I knew I had to help him, but what would I do? I couldn't bring him to the table. Eli would get extremely jealous. Kim would begin flirting with him, and Nya would invade his personal life.

Finally making a decision, I turned towards Eli.

"I just realized I have to prepare for a club meeting. I'm going to the libra-"

"I'll go too,"He interrupted.

"No, go hangout with your friends baby. I don't need any distractions,"I joked. "I'll see you after school before practice."

He poked out his lip like he was sad. I push it back up, and he smiled softly. He pulled forward and kissed my lips. I kissed him back, reluctantly.

I grabbed my things and headed towards Warren's direction. Luckily, he was walking out of the commons. If Eli, Nya, or Kim watched me leave, they wouldn't see me approach him.

When I was directly behind him, I reached up and touched his shoulder. He turned around, confused. When he saw it was me, he gave me a soft smile.

"You're real lucky I stopped swinging on people,"He chuckled. "What's up, Trinity?"

"I thought you might need company,"I started. "I'm not a senior, but I have a senior friend who'll let us join her at the senior patio."

He looked me up and down. Nervously, I laced my fingers together in front of me

"I kind of want to be somewhere quiet. I don't like big crowds,"He responded. "Thanks for the offer though."

"We can sit in the library, if you'd like,"I tried again. "It's usually off limits during lunch, but I'm cool with the librarian. He wouldn't mind."

He took a second to answer, once again. I played with my fingers as he put his hand to his chin. He stroked the hairs that lined his jaw.

"A'ight, I guess. Lead the way,"He said as he bowed down in front of me.

"Follow me, young lad,"I joked along with him.

We walked side by side in the hallway. The library was on the other side of school. It wasn't a far walk, but it was a few steps.

My heels clank clank clanked as we walked in silence. I was starting to get annoyed with them. I would change shoes as soon as we would get to the library. I hated heels, but I was much shorter than everyone else. I only wore them to look intimidating.

When we arrived, the librarian let us in with no questions at all. I lead us to the table I normally sat at. He sat on the other side.

I took my phone out of my pocket, and checked to see if I had any more notifications. I had gotten 57 new likes on my post. I had finally reached a thousand likes. I smiled softly at my phone.

"What you smiling at?"He asked.

"Nothing,"I responded.

I turned my phone off, and put it down on the table. He looked at me with suspicion.

"If nothing can make you smile like that, I wonder what something could make you smile like..."

I raised one eyebrow at his comment. He shook his head as soon as he realized what he had said.

"Not like that shawty,"He chuckled. "Really, what made you smile like that?"

"I got a thousand likes on my post,"I said confidently. "Not that it's my highest, but the numbers were slow on that one."

"Let me see it,"He mumbled. "This post better be special."

I unlocked my phone and showed him the post.

Make the Most With You 🪐

"Delete,"He said.

I snatched my phone back, and saw the post was gone. He deleted it.

Tears flooded my eyes as I looked at him with anger. He had no emotion. He just stood there, watching me grow sad.

"Why would you do that?"I questioned. "Ho-how c-c-could yo-you do th-th-at?"

"That shit is toxic. I'm doing you a favor,"He responded.

He stared at me with glaring eyes. Tears ran down my cheeks as I tried to fight them back.

"If it's making you cry like that, then you don't need it. You're smart. You know that."

I knew it, but I didn't want to face the ugly truth. I didn't want to say it was true.