I washed my hands and my face,trying to wash off the sadness that had crept over my face. The ugly sadness.

Sadness is just like a virus that's why I avoid it at all costs.I've been enough sad all my life.Not now .It's nothing more than a creepy ,ceaseless and scary virus.If your sister is sad, you'll get sad.If you get sad your girlfriend will be sad and in turn her friends and so on... but in my case the cycle stops at the GF point because I don't have one.I haven't found my destiny relationship till now.

My thoughts start drifting from my present situation to my tremendous past. The good days.I had a childhood so good,my friends were all jealous of it.Me,Claire,Mom and Dad were a perfect family. I had all sorts of adventures imaginable. One day we were gone on hiking and the next day we were off to a road trip. We had one belief: 

                      LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED.

But nothing lasts forever.Our lives were changed when our parents died in a car wreck.My mother was already suffering. She was at the last stage of brain cancer. Both of them were riding to the hospital for check up when the brakes failed.

    Sometimes I envy their love life. They knew that they were made for each other the second they laid their eyes on each other.They always used to say to one another, "You are my soul.You are my heart.With every breath I take I breathe you.I breathe your love. Till death parts us. "But even death hadn't the power to tore them apart.Fate had a better plan for them.

   They were found in the car.Blood was splattered all around them.On the dashboard,the steering wheel.It was everywhere. At the time of lost I was just 14.But I don't know how I managed to smile when I saw their hands interlocked firmly with one another.

    Their fingers interwined delicately, unable to separate. A smile of satisfaction was spread so beautifully across their faces that a 14 year old boy couldn't help but smile at the sight of his dead parents.

     That very moment I decided that I'll love a person suffering from pain.A person sad to the core.A person who deserves to be loved more than she is being.This is my theory about love.

      My friends are into cute high school chicks all the time.They find my theory depressing. But whenever I think avout it I feel relieved, which is exactly what I want to feel right now.

                                 RELIEVED.