“Oh, when the sky comes falling for you, there’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do.”
~Avicii

The first thing that crosses my mind as Japhia and Emma drive off was the word he said to me and I ask myself if this is worth it. Avril has always made it clear how she hates Noah and how doesn’t love me and probably never will.

Japhia is a lot of things, crazy, loud, annoying and sometimes even senseless, but I admit that he’s got a point. There is no point in me chasing shadows. If there is no, yes; hope it will lead to anything good.

It is too great a risk and yes; I love her and yes; I want to hope, but I can’t just do that in life. I have to assume she’ll feel for me.

My phone, which is kept in place by the car phone holder, rings as I drive to the office and I stare at the caller ID to see it’s Noah.

I hesitate a little but still end up picking up the call.

“What?”

“Is that a way to say how are you to your brother?” He demands with a harsh and unfriendly tone of voice.

“I’m not doing this,” I answer, not up for his shit, and I reach for the end button when he speaks.

“You thought I would never find out, didn’t you?” He sneers into the phone with anger.

The first thing that crosses my mind is what Avril and I did three months ago, which makes my heartbeat increase rapidly, but I decide to act dumb and play it cool. “What are you talking about?”

“I’m talking about you and Avril, you stupid son of a bitch!”

He knows, I tell myself and he’s also furious and I can’t really blame him and so I do what I can do, not for him, but for Avril. “Okay, I’m coming over there right now because I do not know what you’re talking about.”

I end the call and take the next U-turn, and I head for Noah’s office. 11 minutes later I’m I pull up in front of his company’s building.

I see a security man approaching me, probably for the wrong parking, and I toss him my keys before he can utter a word.

I give him a small smile. “Have it parked right, will you?”

“Yes, of course, Mr Castillo.” He replies, and I nod at him.

I enter the elevator and pressed the 10th-floor button and I wait patiently... well, not so patiently because I may not be shaking on the outside, but I’m a nervous wreck and I need a smoke now more than ever.

Whatever the outcome of my seeing Noah will be, I just hope Avril is left out of it.

The elevator opens, and I walk out to the tenth floor and head for Noah’s office. “Mr Castillo? I thought you had no want to come out yet.” A lady, probably the secretary, call to me, making me stop and turned to her. She looks confused at first as she looks at me, but gasp after a few moments of staring at me, “Holy shit he has a twin brother?!”

Great, someone guessed the difference.

“Yes, he does. Now I’m gonna go in and see him.”

“Wait, he’s with someone!” She protests, getting up from her seat.

I raise my hand hoping to stay with her, before telling her, “Don’t worry, honey, he’s expecting me.”

I walk to the door, open it, and enter. I regret the decision immediately because the image that slams my face isn’t one I’d want to have.

Noah is on his seat and Avril is on his lap, naked from the waist up, but for her blonde hair ruffled up and scattered over her back. Her back is turned to me and her face is buried into Noah’s neck and small whimpers, moans and cries escape her as Noah rams deeper into her.

Noah’s eyes open, and he sees me standing at the door. I think I am stuck and unable to move from my position.

“Luke!” He calls out with a smile that died immediately. It appears and I don’t know if it’s because of much pleasure or if it’s Noah being Noah.

Avril turns around and her eyes meet mine and I see there are mixed emotions of pleasure, want and confusion in her eyes, but more than that I see shame and embarrassment, or maybe it is just what I want to see. My heart squeezes in my chest and she quickly turns away and buries her face back into Noah’s shoulder.

“I th -thought you were a-alone.” I stutter uncomfortably, my grip on the door becoming harder with every passing second.

“I was, Avril just got here. I’m not sure you I’ve had the pleasure of formally introducing you to her. Luke, this is Avril, Avril Luke.”

“We have met Noah,” I answer him.

His lips pursed and his blue eyes darkens, “When?”

“During the Leeds campaign period,” I answer, looking everywhere but at him.

“Oh, so you know him, Avril.” He mumbles into Avril’s left ear as he his hands grip her ass tighter, causing a vulnerable gasp from her.

“I don’t know him. I just know he looks just like you.”

He looks at me and smiles as well, “Silly me, I didn’t even tell you I had a twin brother. Well, maybe because I was trying to be selfish because so far we have to share everything. We shared the same womb, shared the same room and as we grew, we shared the same women and the circle has not been broken yet. Luke, would you like to join in?”

I hate him for everything he’s doing to me and her and I hate that this is turning me on. It’s sick and I know it feels horrible, but I can’t help being turned on by the image of her naked, much less see her naked in person.

“No, I think I should go, though.”

His eyes flicker with curiosity, and he nods. “Yeah, we’ll talk later.”

I don’t think I’ve ever made it out of anywhere as quickly as I made it out of Noah’s office today. I walk over to the elevator and open it. I enter and not so patiently wait for the last floor.

I make my way out of the building and the security man earlier approaches me, tossing me the car keys and pointing toward my car. I hastily thank him and walk away and I’m glad my car isn’t so far off and when I get to it, I enter and close the door before exhaling deeply.

“Fuck!!!” I exclaim, hitting my head against the car steering wheel. My pants are tight and tighter than they should be and there is no going back to work like this.

I pick up my phone and dial Briana, my secretary’s number

“Cancel all my schedules for the rest of the day. I will not be coming in for work.”

As soon as I make it back home, I hit the cold shower. I stay still with my head against the wall and my eyes closed. The image I’d seen not over thirty minutes ago rushes back into my head and as sick as it sounds, I vent all my thought on Avril’s naked skin, but this time not pressed against Noah’s skin, but against mine. The thought takes over and I slowly work for my hand around my grown member, keeping the pace slow and delicate. I guess three months without contact with the opposite sex does shit to me, and I feel like I’m going to explode if I don’t take care of it. The rhythm soon picks up, and I hit the warm button on the wall and warm water descends on my body as I bring myself to a painful release.

Noah knew why he called me and I know he knows, or at least might close in on the truth of what happened between Avril and me three months ago. He baited me to see my reaction, and he got a lot of that because I couldn’t honestly stand the thought of them together, I still can’t.

Noah was right. We’ve shared almost everything that has come our way, money, companies, even women and the circle is still on Grace, Allison and now Avril, because I still want Avril, despite everything.

(Avril’s POV)

“I know about you and Luke Avril.”

“What exactly are you talking about, Noah?” I demand, getting furious.

“I know you know what I’m talking about, I know I will be mad that you kept what you did a secret, but I’ll look past it because I know that was before we became exclusive and it’s only fair, but lying will only make things worse.” He warns through gritted teeth.

“I’m not lying Noah,” I say, firmly.

“Then what was he doing at your formal place a day before the campaign?” He asks, placing a picture of Luke standing in front of my door and another of me and him talking.

He’s had these pictures of many weeks ago I remember Luke standing in front of my door in that blue jeans and a white T-shirt that I thought hugged his body in all the right places his, blonde hair that was in a neat bun and I wonder why Noah’s only showing them now? What the hell is he up to?

I close my eyes and exhale deeply, “He came to my house, yes, but-“

“Consider your next response, honey. You don’t want to lie to me and piss me off.”

I snap, “I will not stand here and try to explain myself when you already see me as guilty!” I walk away.

“I’ve already called Luke. He says differently, Avril.”

I pause when I get to the door, and I turn to look at him, not willing to show any form of weakness or guilt. He knows he does not scare me, so he’s looking for what he’ll do to bring me to my knees.

I know I may not know Luke very well, but I know he’ll never do that and he’d rather take the fall and blame than point the finger, so I don’t look fazed or in any way unsure.

“Are you done? Cause I’d like to go now.” I simply tell him.

He gets up and walks towards me. “I trust you, Avril, that’s why I believe you did nothing.” He stops when he gets to me and he tilts my head up.

I roll my eyes, “Yeah, right.”

His grip around my face hardens as I try to walk away, and I wince in pain and stare at him. Noah has never been one to care if I’m hurting by his actions and I’ve long known that it is better to not show weaknesses at all because he’s just going to do worse.

“Let me go, Noah,” I say, my tone as subtle, but as demanding, as possible.

Looking curious, he asks, “Am I hurting you?”

“Do you care about what you do?”

He chuckles and runs his free hand over my shirt while his other hand holds my face in place.

“You’re so fucking sexy you know that, right? You get me hard and desperate to have you every time I see you.”

I stare at him, clueless about how to respond and so I keep quiet.

“You do not know what you do to me.” He takes my hand and guild it over his trousers around his waist and down to his large and extremely hard cock underneath the clothes. “That’s why I get so possessive, because I like you.” I gasp more from his words than from touching him and I pull my hand from him and I try to move away, but he pulls me back and traps me between his desk and his body.

He laughs wickedly. “No, you don’t get to run away now. I’m hard and you need to make it go away, honey.” He takes my hand again and places it on his erection, and this time I don’t pull away.

He kisses my lips and I kiss back and he fumbles with the buttons of my shirt and soon has them all undone. He shoves them off before lifting me, and I wrapped my legs around him.

His palm grazes over my breast, still covered with the bra as the kiss heat and he unhooks my bra and tosses it to the corner of his office.

He drops me on his desk. “Take off your panties.” He orders breathlessly as he unfastens his belt and goes over to his chair to sit down.

I pull down my panties and drop them on the floor before turning to him.

“Get over here then.”

I get on top of him and settle on his length. “Oh, fuck yeah! So tight!” He hisses and slaps my butt cheeks before pushing me down and grinding deeper into me.

His hand leaves my butt and trails its way to my breast, giving it a soft squeeze before taking my nipples into his mouth even as he thrust harder into me.

“Yeah, fuck, you’re so good at this now! Look at you!”

I have to admit a few things are now different, firstly he’s a much lesser with his manhandling or maybe I’m just used to it now and don’t see it as much anymore. Second, he also lets me top, which I still don’t believe he’s doing. Third, I get to see a little human side of him, which is nicer than the monster I’ve been used to for the past three months. Last, that I enjoy sex more than I used to.

His tongue lashes at my nipples and he pulls it between his teeth again and sucks hard on it as though his life depends on it. I moan out, unable to help myself, and he pulls me down and takes my lips captive before proceeding to my neck and shoulder. I bury my face in his shoulder and my hands grip his hair. As whimpers, moans and cries escape me with every passing second.

“Luke!” I hear Noah call out.

I turn around and my eyes meet Luke. I can’t wrap my finger around the emotion on display on my face, but I know now I felt shame and embarrassment. My heart squeezes in my chest and I quickly turn away and bury my face back in Noah’s shoulder.

“I th -thought you were a-alone.” Luke stutters uncomfortably.

“I was, Avril just got here. I’m not sure I’ve had the pleasure of formally introducing you to her, Luke. This is Avril, Avril Luke.” He casually says as if he isn’t thrusting into me.

“We have met Noah,” Luke points out.

Noah stays silent for a while before asking, “When?”

“During the Leeds campaign.” He answers.

“Oh, so you know him, Avril.” He mumbles into my left ear as he his hands grip my ass tighter, causing a vulnerable gasp from my mouth.

“I don’t know him, I just know he looks just like you,” I reply, too deep in many emotions to care what I sound like.

“Silly me, I didn’t even tell you I had a twin brother.” He says, running his fingertip over my back. “We share everything, we shared the same womb, shared the same room and as we grew, we shared the same women and the circle has not been broken yet. Luke, would you like to join in?”

My skin immediately crawls as I hear his offer to Luke, and I desperately want to either punch his face or at least puke in it.

“No, I think I should go through.” He declines before opening the door.

Noah nods. “Yeah, we’ll talk later.”

As soon as the door closes, I yell out, “What the fuck was that?!”

“That was my brother Luke.” He responded, trying to sound cocky.

I scoff in disbelief and pull myself up. “You know that’s not what I mean! We’ve shared everything, including women?! Would you like to join in? Seriously?! I’m not something you can just toss and borrow. I’m a human with feelings and emotions.” Tears sting in my eyes and I blink them back.

He tries to pull me back down, but I am already up. “You’re angry, but look at it this way. At least now we know he wants to fuck you.”

What the hell am I even hearing? I’m so stupid! I should have seen this coming. Noah didn’t change, he hasn’t and will never change.

I pick my panties up. “You know what? Fuck you.”

He grabs my arms and pulls me closer so my back hit his chest and I feel him still hard against me and I try to wiggle out from his hold, “What do you think I’ve been trying to do?” He sneers into my ears and pushes my head down on his desk before forcing himself back into me and taking me the way he pleases.

Three more months, I tell myself, three more months.

Xoxo