Sorry that this story has been down for over a year. To be perfectly honest, I took it down out of pure hatred for this mess I wrote when I was 13, but it seems more people liked it than I loathed it, so I guess you can have it back. Just as a warning of sorts, this was written in 2021-2022 by a 13/14 year old who had just discovered fanfiction for the first time, so bad writing, mischaracterisation, some very sensitive topics and many cancelled YouTubers are all bound to appear at some point in the book.

(Genuinely, I do want to include a serious warning for very heavy topics such as trauma, abuse death, self harm, depression and suicidal ideation. I did not handle or write these topics well when I was younger and many of my depictions of them are very insensitive. Please keep this in mind when reading and seek support if you struggle with any of these problems.)

Also, on a less formal note, I would like to preemptively apologise for the Dream jumpscare in Chapter 32. This fic truly is a relic of its time. Still, it seems a lot of people really love this story, and that means just as much to me as an adult as it did when I was 13. Thanks for the support, and enjoy reading this mess.

- Xan (31/03/2026)