3/24/18

Stress
Stress isn't a good thing
Stress makes me overwhelmed
I don't do good with a lot of stress on me
Well guess what came to bite me in the ass
Stress
School is stressful on its own,but now since people are expecting a lot from me cause I'm "smart" they expect me to pass all my classes,even math
Which may I add,I have failed every grade from 4th to now
I've given up on that subject by now cause all I see is disappointment and failure so I decided to just give up now so I won't get hurt in the end
I mean I'm already getting threatened with a vacation that if I don't pass math I'll have to stay here while the rest of my family go to Florida.
The trick is just to think of all the things that could go wrong to you specifically then it'll be fine.
I'm saying this now,but I already know imma be cryin once they leave and that I'll be in a pissy mood the rest of the summer cause of it.
I just...I just want to have people see my point of view of things,everyone's just saying "oh you're just lazy" or "you know you can do it,you just don't want to"
The truth is,yeah I've given up,cause I don't see the point in trying they don't know my reasoning so they just assume,and I'm not fucking lazy I'm trying my damn hardest but I don't have the energy after I get F's constantly.
When you fail that many times you just give up on things and you become just a bit more empty inside,and let me tell you the feeling isn't good  so unless you understand someone else's perspective don't go throwing all that shit at them,it only makes it worse