This summer. This year, in fact, has been a time of change. Great change.
I've lost two friends; I had to let one go and the other left of his own accord.
I miss them, despite the fact that things weren't going well.
But I've also strengthened a friendship with another friend.
I've also done things I'm not proud of, but I've also done things I am proud of. Such as attending my first pride, now that I'm finally comfortable with my sexuality.
However, I also fear the future. It's a phobia of mine. But I fear all of the dark things that could happen. Losing more friendships. Family members dying. Meteorite strikes wiping us out. Natural disasters. Nuclear war.

To me, the future, and the recent past is dark. But at least the present is safe.
This Monday, I go back to school for my first year of sixth form. Minty will not be there. Dizzy will not be there. Neither will my close friends Josh, Jack, and many others. It's going to be quiet. But I will have friends there, and I am determined not to lose my close friends online.

Thank you Robot_Turtle, wolfkitten45 and Ripples10660 for staying with me all this time, even when I've shoved you away and taken you for granted. Thank you for not leaving me.
Also, thank you to potatosandstuff. We may not have spoken much lately, but thank you for the support commented on my vent art chapters. It was very nice of you.
And thank you to ShadowCrow44 for helping me stay motivated on here. You don't know how much it means to me that you're still reading my works after all this time, since the near beginning.

Thank you to all who still read my stories as well. Your comments and support all mean a lot to me.

Yes I am scared of the future and I deeply regret my past. I am still grieving heavily for several lost long-standing friendships too, but I am still in the now. And right now, I still have friends, my closest ones, and I still have my family.

I haven't proofread this by the way. I'm not sure what's made me write it, I just felt like it needed to be put down somewhere. My own thoughts, from my own mind, in my own words. I hope that you've liked it all the same.