Guys I don't know what to do. You know how I said in one of like my first entries that my ex best friend did something really mean and started saying mean things to me? Well I was still really mad at her and I said some mean things while I was talking to my friends one time at the park. This was like two weeks ago. Then she started being really nice to me again so I thought that we were friends again. I thought that maybe we could start over or something. So now for a little backstory, like two weeks ago I started to like this guy. So for some stupid reason I told her that I liked him. So then she started telling me more about him. Then I asked her if she could come to the park and bring him so maybe I could have asked him out. She said she would ask her mom and her mom said yes. Well she lied to me. She didn't bring him and she told me his mom would probably bring him but guess what didn't happen? Well he didn't come to the park. So then we were all sitting on the swings talking about life like we usually would at the park. Then I don't know why but my friend told her that I said I hated her a few weeks back. So then she screamed I'm not helping you with him anymore! She said his name but I don't want to broadcast it all over the internet. Then at least 10 people found out I liked him and they were all screaming like omg you like him? Why would you like him? Also it was my time of the month and I was literally not having it. So I ran off the swing and I went to sit under the gazebo on a bench and I started crying because she threatened that she would call him and tell him that I liked him. So I literally cried in front of two guys. I don't like crying in front of people ok so it was 10x terrible. Then she was just like you hated me which obviously shouldn't have been a surprise after what she did to me but she was being nice again so I asked her if she could bring him to the park and now everyone thinks I used her. I don't think I did. She's the bad guy anyway I didn't ask her to go out with the guy I liked. She knew that I was upset too. She broke the Damn girl code. But that's a different story back to this one. So I literally didn't talk to anyone. But then I was so sick and tired of them talking about me I ended up calling my bff Haley. (Vocachuuu) she said she would ask her mom if she could come down there and thank god she could. So literally I talked to her and my other friend Ryan the whole time. Also later my other friend time that she was faking being my friend. Honestly I'm nice to everyone I wasn't really faking being her friend. Then Ryan decided to give me a whole talk about how i shouldn't like this kid because he is into drugs and shit and apparently he likes hitting Windows. Tbh I still kind of like him but it's probably because I'm desperate... I feel really guilty though and I don't know if I should. Could someone please tell me if they think I did something wrong because it is honestly too much for me to comprehend.