Usjahriahdhwhz!!!!!

I JUST WANT TO TIE UP MY BOYFRIEND SO HE IS POWERLESS AND THEN KISS HIM A BUNCH!!!

KAHRKWBDISBDH!!!

FUCKING TEENAGER HORMONES!!!! GOD FUCKING DAMN IT! I'M A GIRL! THAT MEANS I'M SUPPOSED TO BE A FUCKING BOTTOM! SO WHY THE HELL DO I WANT TO BE A FUCKING TOP! UHHHHHHG! I just want to kiss a girl so bad, just have smexy time with a girl. Man why do girls, boys, and everyone have to be so fucking hot! I just want to aggressively kiss someone! I want to be top! I wanna hold my boy's hair in my hand tight and I wanna chock him and kiss him hard. I want to bite his neck and hear him groan or something! WHY THE HELL DOES HE MAKE ME THINK LIKE THIS?!!! I've been in relationships before, and non of them has ever made me want to do these things before... I think this guy is for real the one... God I hope he doesn't break my heart. If we break up I'm going to for real end up dying. I would be so fucking sad. We've been dating for like 9 months now. (Actually we started dating on February 25th 2020 (im not one of those crazy gf's I just felt bad that he could remember it and I couldn't so I put it in my phone and had to look it up just to put it in here, I swear I'm not crazy))

I want to fucking marry him! But God damn I also have this weird feeling where I want to... kill him... Idk why, I honestly don't want to hurt him and it makes me sad thinking about killing him. I know I'm not wife material, I know I'll be horrible, but I still want to try being his wife, even though it will most likely end up in flames. I'm so scared that he will get mad at me and hurt me. He has lashed out at me in text before, but honestly I was being a big bitch baby and deserved it. He is pretty darn patient, and he is so nice to me.

He does this little thing, ok when I get nervous I will lose my grip on his hand when holding hands with him, and he acts like he doesn't notice but when we stop somewhere or about to say good bye and I do that thing he will ask if I'm ok, and it just pulls me out of my anxiety and it makes me feel like he actually cares about me. And that just makes me want to kiss him on the forehead and cuddle him.

I remember this one time, he straight up called his mom and dad to drive me home from school because I missed my bus. (I was about to have a freaking panic attack because that was my first time I've ever missed the bus) He was so nice to me, he held my hand all the way till I got home, I was so scared on the way there because his dad was talking about how he thinks me and Gabe fucked, and he was like "yeah teen pregnancy is pretty scary" after I answered the "how was you're day at school" question. (I said it was scary) and it made me feel so sad. I don't even really know why. Then he was talking to Gabe about what his punishment will be for making then do this. It was so scary listening to it. I can't wait till he gets to move out of that house. I want to spoil him. I want to get a driver's license, get some money and me and him go on a vacation to the beach. I want to show him the good things this world has to offer! I want to see that look in his eye. The look you see on little kids when they see something cool like an aquarium for the first time. That look of being amazed! I want to see the world amaze him and I want him to see how beautiful it is. I want him to be happy. I want him to be able to do whatever he wants. I want to have a kid with him and show him how a healthy family is like. Before we have a kid, we would of course just like talk about it and how we want to raise it. And I will not give birth to a fucking demon! We would adopt. We would be a happy family. That's the way I could die happy. I could die happy knowing I had raised 2 children with him. I could die happy know that my kids would be ok too. I can die happy knowing that my family is happy.

I want to grow and learn with Gabe. I want to know Gabe. I want to be able to try new things with him (a big thing I wanna try with him is of course balloon therapy aka helium therapy. Where we tell some sad stories with helium... Unus Annus.) I also want to show him zip lining, the ocean, Mexico, Colorado (I'M A GIRAFFE!), REAL romen, some good animes I like, lots of movies (like Harry Potter), Undertale, paint together, show some creepypastas to him, cosplay, and so much more. I want to do some many things with him. I want to show him the world and I just want to like... I WANT HIM TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE WITH ME!

I'm so scared hell break up with me, but at the sametime, I know he won't cuz he is also in love with me. I want to live with him. Not like live in the same house I mean actually be alive and be living and alive with him. I want to just live with him! I want to do so many things with him! I want to just travel the USA with him. I want to show him things and I want him to show me things and I want to just be with him! I love him so much! I just want to scream! God dam this feeling is so strong! He has to be the one, I've never felt like this before, he has to be the one!

Who is someone you simp over?

(I simp for Gabe, Corpse, Jack, Ethan, and Sykkuno)