"I..... I have always missed you"

Everything goes silent at the moment...
I could hear the rain sound...
our breathes..
my heartbeats...
And his.

He's ... finally in my arms... finally...
how much I have waited for this moment... just how long?
Home.... he feels like home.

"What are you doing?" He says

I hug him gently yet...firmly...

And....

And...
At that time.... Kyungsoo's face flashes in my head....and I quickly let him go

"....s...sorry..." No matter how much I control myself... I keep losing my mind everytime I'm with him. "Just... just leave"

He stares at me for awhile.... with those..puppy eyes.... fuck...

"Don't....."

He tiptoes and.... kisses me...
I might really lose myself now... again.

I push him away... "B..."

"Let's get all wrong tonight. Just for tonight. Let me stay in your arms chanyeol ya.."

Yes... I give up...

I cup his face and draw him close and kiss him

His arms wrap around my neck and deepen our long lost kisses

I lift him up and carry him to my bed while kissing

I drop him gently on bed and... "I miss you.... I always... every time... everywhere I go.... I can't just get you out of my mind.... call me crazy .... B... I really do... miss you"

I can't help but.... tears come out... how bitchy... I hate myself

"Why are you crying.." he asks as he wipes my tears..and kisses me

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"Let's not spend tonight being sad ... okay?" He says

"Imm."

.........................

We cuddle in my bed and... finally this bed feel warmer.

"How was Paris?" I ask

"It was great. I wish to visit again... no... I wish to live there .."

"Then why not? Why do you come back?"

"Sounds like you didn't want me to"

"Noo..."

"Hee hee... Just kidding. I had to."

"Had? Did ...no... is something happening?"

He couldn't answer my question... yes or no... isn't it easy?

"Nothing ...."

His breathing sounds heavier to answer this.

"Does this company treat you well?" He asks

"They surely do. Even tho I had to follow up on some schedules. Everything seems to be working out for me"

"That's really good to hear..... I was worried when I heard you are resigning from our Delight"

"Delight's management team is the best tho. They work really well"

"I'm very proud to hear that"

"I heard you are not working yet. But i got clothes you sponsored for *****Commercial"

"Imm... I sometime do that. I don't want to rest a lot. But...... I don't want to work and get tired too"

"And cigarette?"

"I stopped"

"Alcohol?"

"Occasionally"

"Meals?"

"Park chanyeol ssi... I do eat. It's just I don't gain weight easily."

"Don't lie. At least your cheeks get cute and chubby when you eat well...."

"Hahaha... my cheeks huh..."

"And.... were you sick? Last time we met?"

"Aw... I got a bit of... digestive problem."

"I was really... worried"

"I guessed that."

"And... why Daniel mostly? I see you often with him. More than Sehun"

"Don't worry... he really changed. He's very gentle right now... very kind" he says

Straightly to jealousy..... yes I'm jealous....
he calls someone gentle and kind...
When it's Sehun and me... it was me...
now it's Daniel...

"I see..."

"Haha... someone is jealous"

"Stop reading my face!"

"Hahaha.... you never change.... I have a problem that I still see you as a newbie in my eyes... when you are already a top star already" he says

"I would rather be a newbie for you. Even if it's always."

"Let's not get too serious. Let's have some fun chat" he says

"Okay. If it's what you want"

"Since you are actor.. there are scenes where you got to like.... kiss the actress right? How's it?"

"Eh! Haha... what kind of curiosity is that?"

"Just... answer me"

"It was just acting of course"

"I mean... how do those feel?"

"Nothing ... isn't it obvious?"

"Imm...may be you were like.... originally homo... not just because of me. May be you just didn't realise"

"What? Hahahahah.... may be" I can't help but... laugh out loud ... his thoughts are really... something else

"Be happy. Happiness looks best on you" he says as he caresses my cheek softly

"How about you?"

"I will. And chanyeol ya... promise me one thing"

I'm nervous... what's .... he asking?

"Imm?"

"No matter what.... don't feel guilty."

I knew something is coming.
With that word.... I'm all worried dead now.

"B.."

"Please"

"Imm... you said no serious talk?"

"Just say you promise me"

"I do. I promise you"

It's just... I will just try.... I am not sure

"Thank you chanyeol ya...thank you"

"Come" I say and pull him closer "Good night" I say and kiss his forehead.

If this night lasts forever ....
only if....
When tomorrow comes.... it's all over
Right?
I can't ask more or... no again

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Baekhyun's POV

My battery died last night and feels like I catch cold again.

I'm on my way back home.
Yes.... one night is already a big mistake.
He was still sleeping when I sneaked out of his house.

'I have always missed you'

That sounded really nice.
It was great.... but....
This is the furthest we can go.

I hope Sehun won't find out about this.
Otherwise he would start blabbering and it's annoying.
He should have just start caring for his current boyfriend.

Hopefully he's not at my house right now.

With all the hope, I go inside my house but... He's there.

God..... Close my ears for a few hours.

"Where were you?" He asks

"Seem like you didn't enjoy your hot night with your boyfriend huh"

"Where were you last night?"

"Daniel's of course"

"STOP LYING!!!" He shouts and.... I flinched...

"Oh Sehun?"

"Daniel , me and your grandma.... you know how much we looked for you last night? Huh? In the rain!"

"Why you guys even look for me?"

"Your phone... why did you power off?"

"Battery died"

"You know how much we are worried that you might faint and fall unconscious somewhere? We couldn't contact you and.."

"Bullshits"

"What?"

"You guys are overreacting"

"You are a cancer patient!!" He raises his voice again..... "look hyung..."

"Ah.... I see. You guys telling me not to give up but.... this is all you guys think of me anyway.... a cancer patient..."

"Hyung....."

"Go back. Don't contact me until I do"

"H....." he pulls me by my shirt... "whose clothes are these?" He asks

"Fuck off"

"W...were you... at his place?"

"I said fuck off"

"Hyung.... he's with someone else. Why did you do that? Are you out of your mind? He's starting his new life. Are you that pathetic?"

'I have a boyfriend now. A lover. I am trying to fall in love with him so madly.'

"I'm..... I guess"

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