I don't know a thing about this small guy...

This white shirt he's wearing looks so big on him.

As if he's all bones and skin.
Skin so fair and looking smooth.
Pinkish cheeks from fever and small lips.
Eyes that are so dearly but sad and empty.

A person who I think he's so perfect is lacking in so many ways.

He seems to be broken and ... lonely.
Thus, he is trying to fill those gaps with lust.

What is he needing?
Money? He has a lot.
Fame? No doubts.
Girls? Girls are crazy for him as much as they do for models.
Love? But he doesn't seem to be seeking that. 

"Are we going to stay in this position forever?" He asks

"B ssi... you really make me curious about you. From the day I met you, you were always in my head. It keeps bugging me before sleep, as soon as I wake up, when I see you, when I don't see you... every time."

"Don't. Get famous and stay happy with your girlfriend lowkey. Make love with her. Kiss her. Embrace her. This is what normal is. I ain't"

"So... Sehun can? Sehun can be abnormal with you? Sehun is same with you?"

"Sehun is different"

"How? Because he doesn't have a girlfriend?"

"Stop... you still need to work a lot for your career" he says

I get up and move away from him

"Sorry." I say

"You are quite a type to say whatever it comes to your mind.. are you? You change your confusions, curiosity and doubts into questions even tho you always hesitate at first" he says to me

As always, he is good at judging.

"I will wait outside. Please sleep well B ssi"

"Wait.." he says as he comes down from bed..

Walks towards me.... he tiptoes and.... I know what will happen next....

I'm going to make a mistake.

He kisses me......

Yes.. I had kissed my girlfriend before... but, why am I getting this excited?

Does he like to play? And mess around?

My hands react by themselves.... they embrace his small body....
I want to get closer.... that is how I felt...

Our lips part.... "How's it?" He asks

"....." I can't answer.... I mean... I am so lost..

"Go home.. get some medicine. I'm tired" he says and lies down in bed

"See you B ssi" I say and get out of the room

Am I... a homo?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I got back home with  my soul just flew away...

"Ya, have shooting today?"

"Aw.... you are here" I say to Ji-ah

"Yeah.. have a night shift at 11"

"Imm"

"Heard your boss give you a condo and a car, Aunty told me"

"Yes.. he did"

"So nice huh. Dinner?"

"No..." I say and sit at dining table and she sits in front of me

""Did something happen?"

Should I say.... Ji-ah ya... I cheated on you with a guy.
No... I think I like that guy.
Will you accept this if I say?

"No... nothing. I think i am quiet tired"

"Imm...I should get going soon too"

"Ji-ah ya... do you like... love me?"

"Hahahaha.. boya park chanyeol.. are you also trying acting roles?"

"No... I am just curious.. we are like... too close and... not too close at the same time"

"Because we don't have time for that.. we both agree. Remember? Why? Are you eyeing on some pretty model girls?"

"No.. I'm not"

"You trust me, I trust you. And we need to work hard for our future."

"Imm.... I know"

You trust me, I trust you.... huh...

I just cheated on you, Ji-ah ya....
I'm sorry. I was wrong.

————————————————————

Sehun's POV

First thing I do after landing is rushing to his house

How will he be? Is he doing okay?
Does he getting better?
Was chanyeol a good help to him? 

I can't even think straight.... I need to get there first...

I drive to his home fast speed and I can't even wait to ring the bell and wait
I just pump in the password and enter his house.

I don't see him in garden or living room or.. dining.

Sleeping?

I open his bedroom door and...

'Password is just for emergency case. Don't just come in randomly into my house.' He once said..... and the reason is...

Right in front of my eyes.

He's having sex with another man.

A fragile body.
Dark soul.

As usual... bruises around his neck... I don't understand ... do you need to chock or be chocked in sex?

"What the fuck! Get out" that man shouts when he sees me

And... Baekhyun looks at me... and his usual provoking smirk.

"Stop" he says to that man

"What!?"

"Fuck off" he kicks him

He's just a rude brat just like the first time I met him.
I don't know if he ever changed...

That man picks up his clothes and gets out.

Baekhyun grabs his rob and wears it.

I don't even know.. how to start the conversation.

'Sleep with me tonight' I gather my courage again after years but, my urgent schedule popped up

Now to see him having fun with another man, really does hurt a lot.

"When did you land?" He asks sitting on his bed

Looking cold... as if this relationship goes back to the start

"Just now"

"Why didn't you ring the bell?"

"It's urgent situation"

"Why? Because I'm sick?"

"Imm"

"Isn't it a long time ago? If that was serious, I would be dead by now"

Blaming me... saying that I wasn't there for him.... he needed me.

This is his lack of choosing right words
Or..
He is rude.

"I'm sorry"

"Boring boring... you can wash up here if you want to.. oh.. not yet, I will shower first. I stink of that fucker's smell." He says and enters the shower

I lie down in bed... thinking back about the first day we met...

—————————————————

First time Oh Sehun and Byun Baekhyun meeting....

Baekhyun's grandma and Oh's family are quite a good term in business.

It's on their lunch party.. that the two young boys finally meet.

Byun baekhyun was always a  naturally rude and vulgar brat or may be he's born with that attitude. Moreover, he just came back from Paris after his studies.

His personalities were bad. They got better when he started to work at Delight and run the company by himself. Got better or... good at faking and acting. It's how you see him.

Oh Sehun didn't know a bit about his family business or, Baekhyun's family & company. He was there that day because his parents dragged him along.

Oh Sehun is dreaming to be a model when he graduates together with his best friend.

"Sehun ya... great them." Sehun's father says

"Annyeonghaseyo. I'm Oh Sehun. And starting university soon"

"Haha.. what a tall and handsome son you have." Baekhyun's grandma says "by the way, why isn't baekhyun coming down yet?" She says to one of her maids

"Coming...." a lazy.. small voice comes into Sehun's ear and he finally meets this boy 4 years older than him But a lot shorter... small... thin boy.

"Annyeong" he says and takes a seat.

"This is Byun Baekhyun. My only grandson. He studied fashion designs in Paris. He will run Delight after me" Baekhyun's grandmom says

"Our boy wants to be model."

"Oh... baekhyun ya.. little Sehun has a great body ratio to be model. Why not let him be your model for your outfits?"

"Sure. Come here when you are free. Ah... your name?" Baekhyun says

"Oh Sehun"

"Ah.. Come to my room after school or.. whenever you are free. Because I'm always in my room"

That was the trap Sehun fell for.
Into a deep black pit. Where Sehun can never gets out.

Baekhyun has always been attractive to Sehun. In many ways...

His passion in fashion
His talent in running Delight
His own.... body..
or even his broken mind and attitude

From that day, he couldn't get away from Baekhyun. Always like a lost kid following.

To be continued.......

————————————————————
Hello guys! Sorry for long chapter and here is first update for today! 💛
Hope you enjoy it☺️
Don't forget to "Like" & "Comment" 💛💛
P.S: All photos used in this fic belong to original owners