Sleepless you sat on your desk, your head hanging as sleep threatened to take you.

You had stayed up all night waiting for any news from Seon which never came even though Ari and Dae told you that they had gone by her house and she should have been inside judging by her car in the garage but still Seon had not opened up for them.

Ari had also updated you on Taehyung and Yoongi who had gone to Jungkook and Taehyung had come home in the morning making her curious about what they had discussed and what happened to the pills. Still, Yoongi hadn't bothered to inform you personally of anything even though you now considered yourself involved in the case.

With all this in your head, you ended up not sleeping all night and were now ready to slum your head on the desk and fall asleep, right then and there.

"Y/N... Y/N!" Shin called your name without managing to get your attention until he walked over to your desk and clapped his hands hard near your ears, making you open your eyes which you hadn't even realised that had been closed, to begin with.

"I'm talking to you. Get up and take these files down to the secretariat for me please." He handed you some files before he left and you just sighed not having the strength to complain for you were once again doing work that wasn't your responsibility.

With slow steps, you made your way to the elevator where you entered, luckily finding it empty,  thing that allowed you to lean your head back and close your weary eyes for a few minutes. Minutes that weren't enough to satisfy you as the door quickly opened and you were out soon handing over the files to the secretariat only to be loaded with others that you were asked to deliver to Jungkook's secretary.

Hearing his name had startled you a bit as you still remembered his terrifying visage that had been etched into your memory from yesterday, regardless you still swallowed your fear and did as you were asked.

Once you got to the office, you greeted his secretary who was on the phone and you showed her the files, she motioned silently for you to leave them inside Jungkook's office, which was a room you wanted to avoid but as she seemed to be in an important phone call and you couldn't talk to her and explain that you couldn't do that, you just took a deep breath reminding yourself that this is your workplace and you had to act accordingly.

You knocked lightly on the door before getting inside, feeling a sense of relief when you didn't find him inside. You slowly approached the desk and left the files in a corner, a yawn reaching your lips reminding you of the need to sleep.

Just a minute.

You thought as you sat down in the chair and let your hands become the pillow then leaned back in the seat and closed your eyes. You had only said one minute, but unfortunately, you had not been able to keep your mind awake and one minute in your head had actually become an hour. And by that time Jungkook had returned to his office, finding you asleep on his desk.

He was clearly surprised by your presence but also immediately irritated by your existence, causing him to wake you up abruptly, kicking your chair hard enough to have you jump on your feet as a loud gasp escaped your lips. 

You faced him clearly startled by his presence and the angry look he was giving you which you assumed was due to your transgression and the fact that he had found you sleeping on duty.

"Um. I am so sorry. I came to bring some files and... Sorry." You bowed your head now your fear having awakened your senses for good, the tightness in your throat from yesterday's awkward hold suddenly returning to your mind, making you want to get out of there as fast as you could.

"You've taken too much liberty. I won't hesitate to fire you you know." He threatened you and you simply nodded before trying to leave. An attempt which failed as he blocked your way with his body.

"Where are you going? I will be break time in a minute." He reminded you, making you cast your eyes to the wall where a clock was.

"Sit down and let's talk." Jungkook's gaze relaxed as soon as that minute passed and he sat down at his desk, soon ordering food from his secretary.

"Um. How are you?" You asked hesitantly as soon as he hung up and he just looked down as he answered her.

"I am Trying." He replied simply before silence fell over the room until he spoke again. "About what happened yesterday. I want to apologize, I didn't mean to scare you." He told you as he faced you, as you had made your fear of him pretty obvious with your behaviour and posture as you still hadn't sat down in the chair properly, showing your unconscious desire for distance from him and how ready your body was to escape.

" No. It's Okay... I mean... I wasn't scared. Everything's fine." You tried to reassure him even though your words weren't the truth.

"It doesn't seem like it. You're very cold and distant."

"And you are still very violent and abrupt" You added after his words making him realize that his own behaviour was still extreme as well. And this was something that not only you had understood but everyone in the company today as well for they all were horrified by him and the way he had been yelling this morning about the slightest problem he could come to notice. It was obvious that he was in a bad mood and everyone was anxious about it. Their day had become a nightmare for everyone, simply because Jungkook's day was one.

"I said I was trying not that I was already succeeding." Jungkook tried to joke but it didn't work because he just felt worse for stooping so low as to let his emotions interfere with his work life.

He always had good control of himself in the professional field, but this control seemed to have melted with the absence of Seon as if he could not find a reason to try to keep a facade anymore.

"I know you must be hurt but it will pass with time. Don't lose hope so easily." You left a few words of support slip out of your mouth, which you regretted as soon as his angry gaze fell on you.

"What do you know about the pain of love? You didn't love anyone and no one ever did love you. Don't try to give advice about something you can't understand." His words sure were hurtful yet you smiled, telling him that he was right and just apologizing.

"I will take my leave now."

"You're not going anywhere. I said I want to talk." He insisted as you tried to escape from his presence once more.

"Talk about what?" You asked him and Jungkook took a deep breath before standing up and walking over to you.

"I want you to do your job as my brother's girlfriend," He uttered in all seriousness, his words complicating your thoughts.

"What exactly do you mean by that?"

"I want you to make him fall in love with you and forget about my wife. You are his girlfriend, aren't you? You are a woman. I don't know, play your tricks, whatever it takes as long as you get her out of his mind and heart." Jungkook's words left you speechless even though you understood why he was asking you for such a thing but unfortunately, you couldn't make his wish a reality. 

"I'm sorry, that's not possible. His love for her is bigger than you think and yes I understand how you feel but unfortunately, you can't change that, neither you nor I. They love each other Jungkook." You uttered the truth with a slight sadness in your eyes. 

"Stop! Don't say that! It's not like that!" He denied loudly, the pitch of his voice making you mad enough to continue, wanting to help him accept reality so he could move on with his life more easily.

"Jungkook I know Seon. We talked. She has feelings for him stronger than she herself may realise. And your brother has loved her for years. It's hurt a lot. I know, It's not just you. I know you don't want to hear it but it's the truth. It hurt me too but we can't  get in the middle of what's between them."  You were now panting as you finished your speech for you had brought this truth to the surface with difficulty and pain as that was your conclusion.

No matter what you were to do, no matter how important you were for Seon or Jimin, nothing compared to the place they both have for each other in their hearts. Your love would always fall short in comparison and no matter how painful your failure, may sound, it was the truth.

"You can't fight against that Jungk-"

"SHUT UP!" His sharp voice and the way his hands grabbed your shoulders violently made your tongue halt instantly,  now seeing a maddened look on Jungkook's face similar to the one he had on his face yesterday.

"She'll love me again. You'll see. I won't let her go just like that. You hear me. Seon is mine! Only mine!" His eyes glazed over giving you a sense of panic and immobility, your breath hitching in fear, seeing a side of Jungkook that was almost psychopathic.

" J-Jungkook. Calm down. O-okay. Whatever you say will happen. Just leave me please." You forced those words out of your mouth, your eyes getting filled with tears as your mind drifted back to memories of similar fear. Your hands soon pushed him away from you, feeling his touch burn you and Jungkook just looked at you, realizing he'd lost control of himself again and had made you freak out.

He immediately felt awful for his behaviour and bad for you as the story of your past came back to his mind, making him realise further how much he had hurt you.

He looked at you with a sad expression, seeing you trembling in front of him with eyes filled with tears so much he was sure that you couldn't see in front of you, your arms wrapped protectively around your body as your breaths were heavy.

He found the desire to take you in his arms and reassure you, growing inside him but he didn't have the chance to do so as you quickly left his office leaving him alone full of regrets, pain and emotions.

I must probably close myself off somewhere for quite some time.

He thought, his need for isolation growing inside him as it seemed like he was unable to control his anger and pain properly and he didn't want to expose himself further, spoiling the good image he had built as a professional and hurting further people he didn't really want to hurt.

People like you, whose teary eyes, hunted him and had made his chest feel so heavy that his own breath started fluttering like the light of a candle, making him search at the drawers of his desk, for his inhaler.

Great. Honestly, I'm in pieces without you Seon. A monster who has lost the love that kept him human. How am I supposed to be without you?

---To be continued...