Minho was the first to wake up the next morning.

He hadn't really slept well and was kind of glad that the night was over.

He gently stroked Jisung's cheek with his finger. He loved Jisung more than anything in the world and would do anything to make him happy again.

Careful not to wake Chan, he reached over him for his phone. It was still so early that he could have continue sleeping for a while, but he had to do something to silence the thoughts in his head.

He gently took Chan's arm from his hip, kissed Jisung first and then Chan and then crawled out of bed.

His physiotherapist had told him, before they had left for their weekend trip, that he was allowed to start running again if he took it easy. And that's exactly what he was planning to do now.

As quietly as he could, he looked for his sports clothes from the closet and then went into the bathroom with them.

After getting dressed and brushing his teeth, he inserted his phone and his key and left the apartment.

It was still cold and quite dark outside, but Minho didn't mind. He let himself be enveloped by the darkness and ran slowly along the Han River towards the sunrise.

It was good for him to be able to go jogging again. The thoughts in him slowly calmed down and eventually became silent while the world around him blurred.

He concentrated on his steps and his breath and although he was aware that he was running too fast and his leg would certainly hurt afterwards, he enjoyed the calm that the running caused in him.

But he was well aware that he had to turn back so that he and Jisung would get to therapy in time.

Even if he didn't feel like dealing with his therapist at all, he knew very well that Jisung would really need the session today.

And if he was honest with himself, then he needed it too. Even if he didn't know if he would even be able to talk to his therapist about all this.

So he finally turned around and ran back.

When he arrived back in the apartment, the others were still asleep.

Relieved, he went to the bathroom to take a shower. He was glad that the others hadn't woken up, because he hadn't thought of leaving them a message and he didn't want them to worry about him.

Just as he had taken off his sweaty clothes and put himself in the shower, the door opened and Jisung came into the bathroom.

Without saying a word, he undressed and went into the shower with Minho.

He hesitantly stretched out his hands to Minho, who didn't hesitate for a second and immediately pulled Jisung into his arm.

"I love you baby!" said Minho, gently stroked his back.

Sadly, Jisung looked up to him. "I love you too..." he murmured.

"It's all right, baby! We'll find a way to handle it... And... and Channie already has an idea how..." Minho said quietly.

Jisung looked at him in surprise. "How?"

There were definitely easier things than suggesting to his fiancé to have sex with someone else. Minho took a deep breath and gently brushed the wet hair from Jisung's face.

"He... he thinks... that it may be easier for you to have sex again if you... if you have sex with someone who is less dominant than... than me...," Minho said quietly.

"Binnie..." murmured Jisung, who had immediately understood what Minho was alluding to.

Minho nodded and looked at Jisung waiting.

He leaned against Minho and thought about it. About Minho's words. About his own from yesterday, even if it felt like days are lying between the conversation in the morning yesterday and the one now in the shower.

Somehow the idea felt surreal, although they had already talked about the fact that in principle they had nothing against a partner exchange. But it had felt more like something theoretical. Something that might happen at some point in the future.

And now he was standing in the shower with Minho and he suggested him to have sex with Changbin to defeat his fear and panic attacks.

"I... I think I have to talk to Binnie about it first... I... God I don't want to ruin our relationship... why am I always the problem...?" he whispered and tears ran down his face.

"You are not! And you won't!" said Minho gently, pulled Jisung to himself and kissed him on the temple.

Jisung felt throbbing pain spread in his head and with a painful moan he let himself sink against Minho.

He gently stroked Jisung's back and then started to wash the younger's hair.

He lovingly massaged his head, rinsed the shampoo out of his hair and then washed the rest of Jisung.

Jisung then leaned against the wall with his eyes closed and waited for Minho to finish showering.

"Come on," Minho finally said, grabbed Jisung's hand and pulled him out of the shower with him.

"Do you need something for the headache?" Minho asked quietly and after Jisung nodded, he got the can of painkillers and gave it to Jisung. Then he wrapped him in a towel and carried him to the sofa.

"I'll get some water and then make us coffee," Minho said quietly, ran into the kitchen and returned shortly afterwards with a glass of water.

He gently pressed the glass into Jisung's hand and went back to turn on the coffee machine.

When his eyes fell on the clock on the kitchen wall, he cursed quietly. He urgently needed to wake up Chan and Changbin and then they had to hurry to get to therapy on time.

So he made his way to the bedroom, where Chan just woke up and Changbin was still asleep.

"Good morning Channie," he said quietly, went over to the older one and kissed him. "Could you wake up Binnie and then get ready? We have to leave in half an hour..."

Yawning, Chan nodded and bent over to Changbin to wake him.

Minho had already turned around again and rummaged in the wardrobe to find clothes for him and Jisung to wear.

Sighing, he realized that they urgently needed to do laundry, but found clothes for both of them with which he was at least halfway satisfied.

Sighing, he went back to the living room.

Jisung looked like he was about to fall asleep again. Smiling, Minho let himself sink next to him and gently stroked his arm.

"Baby don't fall asleep again! We have to leave soon..." he said and kissed him gently on the cheek.

Jisung looked up and smiled at Minho tired.

"I would want to stay here...," he murmured.

"I know. Me too. But I think it will be quite good for you to go there today. You also wanted to talk to Marc about going to the studio together... So get up and get dressed," said Minhos and gently pulled him off the sofa.

"All right..."

Minho smiled at him encouragingly and gave him the clothes he had chosen for him.

When Jisung saw which clothes Minho had chosen for him, he had to smile involuntarily.

Minho had brought him one of his own sweaters.

After getting dressed, they went into the kitchen and hurriedly drank their coffee while waiting for Chan and Changbin to get ready.

The way to therapy was no longer really stressful for them as it was at the beginning, but they somehow couldn't say that they were looking forward to it.

Actually, Minho was allowed to drive again, but since Chan and Changbin had an appointment with their manager, they drove together.

꧁ ⸺ ♥ ⸺ ꧂