Samuela's Point of View.

It's been three weeks since I killed Chen and sir Andresio went to prison. My dad didn't change a little bit, as usual he told me to forget about what happened and planned to transfer to another town when I successfully stopped him. It will be a pity if I won't witness how people will panic knowing there is a killer in town, and worst is it is a grown man teaching in a public school. My father excused me from my class adviser because I need time to heal my wounds. 

Hindi ko pa nga nakita ang reaksyon ng mga kaklase ko, ano kaya ang unang sasabihin ko sa kanila? Should I pretend naïve or brag about how I witnessed sir Andresio killing Chen and I miraculously survived?

"Samuela, susunduin kita mamaya maghintay ka lang sa exit gate, okay?" Hindi ko nilingon si daddy bagkus ay nakamasid lamang ako sa tanawin sa bintana. Mahina akong tumango as if may magagawa pa ako eh nais niya pa ngang lumipat kami ng buhay. Nakakapagod na kaya at isa pa nais ko rin grumadweyt sa paaralang may unforgettable memories. 

Naisip ko rin kung paano kaya sasabihin ko kay daddy na pinatay ko si Chen, ikukulong niya kaya ako? Palalayasin niya kaya ako o baka naman ikukulong lamang sa kwarto o mental hospital? Kung tatay ko man siya he will do the right thing. 

"As much as possible you can hangout in the library and avoid strangers. Please don't talk to anyone." 

This time I answered him. "I am not a kid anymore, and besides I hate crowded people," was only my excuse. Am I a nerd to hangout at a library? I want to talk to my classmates too he's just overreacting my situation there is nothing he need to be afraid of after all I am the villain.

I fucking don't know how sir Andresio confessed to it because I remember he was confused. He even visited our house which sent me heart attack for awhile and he headed towards the abandoned factory and ended up to the prison for killing Chen. If he did not mess with my plan then he could plead for his innocence and just admit that he did not kidnap nor kill my classmates when the evidence points at him. But that's not the case right now which was so funny.

I am sure that person is proud to me right now. He must be snickering while drinking his hot cocoa.

I arrived at school and headed right to my classroom and silenced welcomed me. It was scary at first but I head straight to my armchair and took a nap for awhile. I am pretty early for our first subject. I am not somewhat used to silenced because whenever I arrived Picolo will welcome me with his jokes and we can laugh for awhile but this time's different. I somewhat miss them. 

What is this feeling? Do I feel pity for them? I should not because I am different from them. They don't have a spot for this world. 

The classes went smoothly but there are still curious whispers I could hear and my teachers can't stop to ask about my health. They even ask if it was okay with me when my friends are not here anymore. They don't even know where they are right now or if they are truly dead or just hiding somewhere. I wanna rip that mouth of them. They don't have the right to conclude things. They should wait for us to reveal what really happened to them.

I didn't keep dad's promise, I headed to the cafeteria, ordered my favorite meal and sat in the middle where I can grab everyone's attention. Oh, not to mention I can hear camera's clicking indicating someone's taking a picture of me. I wanna laugh in excitement. What if I will kill again and brand myself as a serial killer?

Is that a waste of time? Magagalit kaya siya sa akin? Mukha namang hindi kasi sa pagkakaalala ko he was rooting for me to do the right thing. He said we need more people like us and not those plastic display beings.

I was happily munching my favorite pasta when an unfamiliar student sat right across me. She gave me a small smile and I did the same. Uminom muna ako ng apple juice bago siya binati.

"Samuela, I know you are a great person and cares a lot for your friends but I can't help to suspect you..." At that moment I have an idea what she was trying to say but I prefer to act the victim. I can feel her concern for my friends, for us so I need her to trust me first. Afterall, I was the only survivor of what happened.

"It's fine. You can tell me. I won't mind." I smiled at her.

Her lips was shivering so I reached out her arm resting on the table and she forced a smile. "I don't know but this is just a rumor circulating on facebook, they said you know where are your friends right now. If you really do can't you just tell the police so that they can save them at least?" 

I tried to hide my smirk and asked her instead how did they came up to its idea. "I can't help to mention that they are really rude, I know that it was my fault for what happened to them but how about Chen? He was there too." I tried to sound unfairly wronged and it works for she nodded multiple times.

"I'm sorry it was selfish of me. I will try to explain it to them. I am very sorry, Samuela I hope they will be safe." Our gazes met and a tear fell down on my right cheek.

I quickly let go of her hands and wiped it right away. "I am sorry," was all I could utter. I hope she will leave me alone.

"Oh my god. Sorry talaga." I could feel her concern which was very funny. "You can call me if anything will happen and oh, wala kang facebook 'di ba? Mabuti na lang huwag mo ng alamin kung anong pinag-uusapan nila sa iyo. Imbes na maawa sila ay pinagbibintangan ka pa." 

I HEADED to the library to cool off my head after that dramatic encounter. My classmate was right when students began to bombard me with their suspicions, they even forced me to feel guilty towards my friends. They know them more than I knew of them, of course they were concerned but ang kakapal lang ng pagmumukha nilang tratuhin ako nang ganoon. Kung alam lang nila kung sino ako lalapitan pa kaya nila ako.

Nagpakawala ako ng isang malalim na buntong-hininga habang pinagmamasdan ang librong nakabukas sa mesa. Tapos ko na itong basahin kaya balik na naman ako sa chapter 1, kapag may oras lamang ako bibilhin ko lahat ng libro ng author na ito. I mean gusto ko rin e-explore ang iba't-ibang storyang nagawa niya kahit ang librong ito ang pinaka-the best sa akin. 

The ending was sided with the main character too. I mean who likes tragedy?

After hours of reading, I decided to head to my classroom to get my bag. I did not plan to sit in for class today and I hope my teachers would understand that. I know it has been three weeks, almost a month of their disappearance, it is hard to move on. In that case, they are considered dead.

On my way to the classroom, my presence did not fail to make the students gossip probably about me again. I am fine with it. It is not my first either but let us just think that they are envious of my beauty.

"Samuela Hoylar?" My gaze darted on the familiar person in uniform and I find it awkward for him to say my full name. The last time he was very rude of me calling me suspect of the crime scene, suspecting me for someone not acceptable. What's worst was pointing me his Glock pistol at me. Thank god I am not some sort of a nerd.

"Officer?" I tried to sound amazed. I mean he already respected me by calling my full name I should do the same. "What brings you here?" Lumapit ako sa inuupuan niya sa waiting area kaharap lamang ng clinic. 

Napakamot siya sa kaniyang batok saka napatawa. "Hindi ko alam na makikita kita rito. Akala ko kakausapin ko pa ang teacher mo para e-excuse ka." 

Nakakapagtaka bakit naman kaya? Tapos na ang kasong iyon at napakahaba naman ng three weeks bago niya pa ako kamustahin. Kung nais niya man akong kausapin ginawa niya na sana sa ospital pa lang. 

Is he some sort of an idiot?

"Does that mean..." I pointed myself. "You wanted to talk to me?" Of course that's obvious, Samuela but I wanna know why.

Tumango siya. "Hindi ka ba busy? May klase ka ata, eh anong oras na ba." Sinipat niya ang wrist watch kaya pinigilan ko na siya. 

Umupo ako sa harapan niya at ngumiti ng tipid. "Ayos lang naman po anong gusto niyong malaman?" Napayuko ako dahil naalala ko ang sugat ko sa bandang tiyan. "Ayos na naman po ang sugat ko medyo kumikirot pa rin pero nag-iingat naman ako baka bumukas eh first time ko pa naman." Tumawa ako sa joke na iyon at ganoon din siya.

Umayos siya ng upo saka binuksan ang small notepad niya. Nais ko tuloy tignan iyon kung anong nakasulat pero magiging "rude" na naman ako sa paningin niya. Kailangan kong pigilan ang sarili ko. Dapat kaawa-awa muna ang image ko ngayon. Hindi pa kaya ako ligtas kahit three weeks na ang nakalipas. 

Mga bobo nga naman bakit hindi na lang sila sumabay sa plano namin.

"Nais ko lang malaman kung may nasabi ba o na-i-kwento si Chen sa iyo. Ikaw yung huli niyang nakausap at nakita, 'di ba?" Dahan-dahan lamang ang pananalita ng Officer na ito na para bang ang bait-bait niya. Kung may baril siya sa mga oras na iyon ibig sabihin kabilang siya sa isang Unit? Kung alam niya ang tungkol kay Chen at sa akin ay may koneksyon siya sa kasong ito?

Tumango-tango ako. "Opo ngayon ko lang naalala. Pumasok si Chen kinabukasan noong pumunta sila sa bahay ni sir Andresio malapit nang matapos ang isang subject namin. Hindi naman nakakapagtaka kung bakit siya late dahil ganoon naman talaga siya pero noong oras na nang uwian parang..." Tinapunan ko nang tingin ang police na ito at gaya ng inaasahan ay nagaabang siya sa bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig ko. 

"Para siyang hindi mapakali. Tinanong ko naman siya noong una hindi niya masabi agad pero noong napilit ko na siya... sinabi niyang nakita niya raw kung paano pinatay ni sir Andresio ang mga kaibigan ko sa harapan niya. Nagtatago raw siya sa mga oras na iyon kaya hindi siya nahuli at umuwi kaagad siya sa bahay. Akala niya pa raw panaginip lamang ang lahat ng iyon dahil sobra raw siyang natakot. Hindi niya rin magawang i-report sa polisya dahil nga bawal din yung pag-stalk nila sa teacher namin at pagpasok sa bahay nitong walang paalam at hindi rin naman daw siya sigurado." Nagkibit-balikat ako. "Iyon lang po, sir nagpapasalamat nga ako dahil nahuli na yung salarin. Pasalamat kay Chen... nakakalungkot man wala na siya ngayon."

Tumango-tango siya habang sinusulat ata iyong narinig niya mula sa akin sa notepad niya. Wala ng makakapag-testify kung ano nga bang nangyari sa bahay na iyon maliban sa akin. Bobong Chen nangialam pa talaga sa buhay ng iba.

"At pinatay din ni sir Andresio si Chen sa abandonadong factory na iyon?" tanong niya dulot ng pagtango ko. 

Nagsulat na naman siya ulit at maya-maya lamang nagtanong na naman siya at hindi ko iyon inaasahan.

"Sigurado ka?"