I knew I was going to fall in love with you
The moment I did see you
A combination of dark brown and blue denim clad limbs
A flawless smile with a teeth gap
And "a hello, you must be ..."

It was a disaster from the start
But I was armoured for it
I was ready to fight

At first I was running
Away from burning fires on my skin and sharp blades that came in the form of beautiful boys

Yet despite how fast I ran
I couldn't get away from hot peppery pain that sliced through the little laboured breaths

I thought I'd never get away
But then I bumped into another flame
But this one didn't burn
It kept me safe, covered, warm and hidden from the bitter cold of broken promises and insults hurled my way

Oh but I knew better
Wasn't this how it starts?
Didn't these fires keep you warm, and get uncomfortably warm until they all but burn you to ashes?

I was not about to fall for dazzling smiles and velvety voices
Not for the small glint of recognition in the brown eyes of the stranger that you were
Or the kind facial expression that told me you'd seen the wilting flowers and torn rugs and dead autumn leaves that had become me

Don't they say that you choose your poison or cure?
Oh you were going to be my cure

I was going to take all you had to give, and give only how much I wanted to

I was going to take the smiles and caring words and featherlight kisses
They weren't supposed to turn into something wild, an intense, delicious forbidden desire that made my earlier pain seem like a small thorn prick at my elbow

I was to take the long walks and movie nights
I wasn't supposed to watch you instead of the movies
And I wasn't to run my fingers through your hair when you fell asleep halfway through
Or sigh contentedly like the world began and ended with you

I was going to take the little hugs and the sharing of past stories and trash talking the exes
I wasn't supposed to hold you like you'd vanish if I let go
I wasn't to want to stay right there in your arms until infinity

I was going to use you
Because baby, you were going to use me too
If for different reasons

It was a tangled little mess of a game, where neither players knew that they had competition

Oh you did cure me alright
Need I tell you though, that I lost at our little game?

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Dedicated to my Ads! Because for some reason unknown to yours truly, that girl likes to read all the crap I have to say.
I love you!

AdsIsHere ❤❤❤