After I spent two nights at Prince's, his mother, Mattie, was nice enough to drive me home so that I'll have clothes to wear to school tomorrow.

It's sad leaving Prince's house.

We had a lot of fun... not that kind of fun thankfully but we had fun.

We pretended to go to school when we actually were going to the movies yesterday. We watched a scary movie in the theater and after that we went to the park that we went to as little kids and shared childhood memories.

We went back home and pretended we had homework to do and went in his room so that he can teach me how to play guitar.

I just wish that I can spend the night tonight but I really don't want to end up wearing Prince's clothes to school. His clothes don't stay on me.

I wonder how my mom is going to react when I come back home after not being there for three days and two nights.

The car stopped in front of the big house where I live.

"Alright Ariel. You be good and safe." Mattie smiled at me.

"Thank you Mattie." I smiled back at her.

I stepped out the car and walked to the front door as she drove off.

My heart begins to race as I held my fist up to knock.

I knocked softly and waited patiently at the door and prepare for a great slap in my face again.

The knob wobbled as it swung open revealing Mama wearing an apron and a mitten covering one hand.

She gasped surprisingly and yanked my arm pulling me inside harshly.

"Ariel! We've been looking for you everywhere! I called the cops and they've been looking for you too!" She raged as she slammed the door.

"Ariel's back?" I heard a voice far in the house.

"Where the hell did you go girl?!" She yelled angrily.

"I went to Prince's." I said quietly.

"All the way over there?! You could've got kidnapped based on how the world is today! Don't ever do that again!" She scolded pointing a finger in my face.

I stared at her with no emotion.

"Now I have to call the cops and tell them I found you! You could've gotten yourself in trouble!" She yelled as she stomped her way upstairs. "Trey get the chicken out of the oven for me please!" She added.

"You hear that? Don't do it again. I was worried about you Ariel." Trey furrowed his eyebrows.

"You shut the fuck up. You're not my dad." I spat.

"Well since we don't have a father and I'm the only man in the house, I have to fill in as your dad."

"You're not the only man in the house... Dylan-"

He cut me off, "Dylan is never here, he's not a man, he's a little sixteen year old boy who doesn't have respect for his sisters and mother. So I'm the man in the house." He pointed at his chest and walked away to the kitchen.

I'm bout tired of having arguments everyday with them. I just got in the house and they're already arguing and still mad at me after two days...

I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms as I watch Sabrina walk to me with a smirk on her face.

"Girl, where have you been?" She asked.

"At Prince's."  I mumbled as I walked over to the couch and sat down.

"Did you tell him that you're pregnant?" She asked quietly.

Dammit.

What am I gonna say?

I sighed in frustration, "Yes. Sabrina." I lied.

"Good. Did he get mad at you?" She asked.

"Yes.. that's why his mom drove me back home." I lied.

"Wait you told his mom?" She questioned.

"All these questions Sabrina." I rolled my eyes and slouched on the couch. "Of course I didn't Christmas is coming up."

"His family doesn't celebrate Christmas so it should be okay to tell his mom." She rolled her eyes.

"Well duh. I know that they don't celebrate Christmas. If I told his mom, then his mom would get upset and tell my mom and then we would have a horrible Christmas. Don't you think?"

"Okay fine, but make sure to you tell his mom and Mama that you're pregnant after Christmas." She suggested.

"Why is it so important to tell his mom though?" I asked.

"Because that's her son and she's gonna be having a grandchild the same with Mama, you're her daughter. You need to learn your lesson and Prince needs to learn his lesson since he's a Jehovah's Witness. He shouldn't be making babies at the age of fifteen."

Not his kid inside of me though...

I'm scared.

"Why should you be all up in our business though? Don't tell us what we should and should not learn you're not the parent here and please stop bugging me about telling them. You're just here to take me to my prenatal appointments while I try to get this baby out of here."

"I'm telling you what you should do.... is to not get abortion. It's bad and the doctors won't let you get an operation anyway cause I think you're a little underage to do that."

"No I'm not! Why you y'all always picture me as a damn five year old in this house! I can't have a boyfriend, I can't leave the house at six at night unless an adult is around, I can't go to driving class because y'all think I'll fail.... I'm tired of it! You had more freedom when you were my age Sabrina!" I yelled.

"Well, you're the youngest in the hou-"

"I don't give a flipping fuck! I'm not a five year old! I'm fifteen and I demand a abortion like other fifteen and fourteen year olds in the damn world." I yelled silently so that nobody else would hear.

"Whatever Ariel." She smacked her teeth and got up from the couch. "If they do give you an abortion, I hope they get everything wrong and put you in bad conditions... Not wishing death on you but Mama and everyone else would know because you will be in the hospital suffering from the pain and the doctors will tell why you tried to get abortion."

What the hell is she, a witch?!

"What the hell is wrong with you? You're crazy-"

"Mama is against abortion and if she finds out that you're pregnant and on top of that getting abortion. She'll flip. I think it's just the right thing to keep the baby and tell that you're pregnant... It doesn't mean that she won't get mad at you but it's better than her finding out that you want to abort a baby"

"So you think your little fantasy will come true huh?" I crossed my arms.

"If it happens, then I told you so." She rolled her eyes and walked away.

I'm tired of them going against me.

☆

It's dinner time and we're all talking and arguing about the same things over and over.

"I'm sorry what I did. I promise to never lie to you again Mama and not run away like that." I apologized after she had a lifelong story about her past and how she doesn't want me to be the same.

"I'm sorry too but not sorry. You're still grounded. I yelled at you because I love you Ariel. I want you to stop hiding secrets and and tell before it gets worse."

"And Mama... can I still date? I will never have sex until marriage. I promise." I smiled.

She sighed, "Okay. I trust you, but if you decide to do something overboard, I'm gonna loose my trust for you and things won't turn out right. Understand?" She said chewing her food.

I nodded.

Mama's phone start to ring and she got up and left the dining room.

Sabrina hit me on my leg under the table.

"Ow. What was that for?" I hit her back.

"Why would you lie to her like that?" She mouthed.

I rolled my eyes.

"Aye. Don't start all that fighting." Trey furrowed his eyebrows.

"Psh. Whatever." I rolled my eyes and put a tiny piece of corn into my mouth.

"Are you still mad at me?" Trey raised his eyebrow.

I nodded my head.

"Yeah, you should've told Mama days after she got home from the hospital. Shoot you could've told her now." I rolled my eyes again.

"I know but it was best to tell her that day. You can't just wait. She wants to know what happened to us. I would like to know what happened to my child if I haven't been around him or her for a long time."

"Oh yeah, that's right. You're having a baby soon. Is it a boy or a girl?" Sabrina asked Trey.

"It's a girl... We're still trying to figure out names." He chewed.

Sabrina smiled, "I can't wait. We're gonna have a niece." She nudged my arm.

I can't wait to see my niece either... but I also can't wait for an abortion.

If I let this baby live, then it will probably destroy my niece's life too.

Nobody wants a lil devil as their cousin.

Sabrina smiled. "I can't wait to have a baby in the future... I want a girl first.." Sabrina looked at me. "Ariel? What do you want to have in the future?" She smirked.

Hell no. She's wrong for that...

I furrowed my eyebrows at her and kicked her ankle.

Trey looked at me puzzled and I grew uncomfortable.

I cleared my throat, "I-I- Uh.... I don't know what I want." I stuttered.

"C'mon. You should have a girl! I would want another niece and I'm sure Trey wants to be an uncle of my daughter and yours.... in the future." She grew an devilish smile at me.

"I don't want children.... I changed my mind on that." I said uneasily and played with the vegetables on my plate.

"Why not? I remember when you said you wanted children a long time ago." Trey said.

"Yeah... I want to adopt children not have my own children..." I mumbled.

"Oh yeah... That's right. I forgot. It's a good choice to adopt kids who's suffering and needs help... I might do that after the baby is born... probably adopt from Africa."

I rolled my eyes, "I'm going to bed... I lost my appetite. See you in the morning." I mumbled as I got up from the table.

"What's wrong with her?" I heard Trey ask.

"I don't know... she's probably shocked that you're having a daughter soon. Maybe she doesn't want to be an aunt." I heard Sabrina say.

Bitch.

☆

While I was in my room watching tv in bed, Sabrina barged in.

I sighed loudly and covered my head with my blanket.

"Get out!" I yelled.

"Ariel. Please. I want to talk to you." She said nicely.

"About what?" I asked.

I heard the door close and the light switch flip on.

"About babies." Sabrina said.

I sighed and snatched my blanket off my head.

"Then get out. I don't want to talk about babies. I had enough." I pointed at the door.

"Well... it's important to know this.. She sat on the edge of my bed. "Babies are gifts not trash."

"You told me this before... I don't want to hear anymore of this. The baby I have is trash for sure. Now go away I have school tomorrow and I need my rest." I laid back down.

"No. Your baby isn't trash. You'll feel so much regret and feel so guilty if you get abortion and see your baby torn up in pieces and realize that what you did is very wrong."

I chuckled, "How do you know? You don't know nothing about tha-"

"Yes I do because I've been in that position before and I wish I could've went back around that time and never aborted my baby."

I sat back up and raised an eyebrow.

The hell is she talking about....

Okay she's gotten a lot crazy the past two days that I've been gone.

She took a deep breath, "Yep. I've been pregnant before... I never told anybody but Mama and I begged her to sign me up for a abortion appointment. I was about fourteen at the time... she let me get abortion and I was happy but once I saw my baby in pieces I was torn apart and regretted what I did. I fell in love with it." She explained.

I kept my eyebrow raised... hoping that this isn't true at all. But in her eyes I know it's true because her eyes are getting glassy.

"Mama never talked to me for a good while... you remember when you were confused about why she was always mad at me and never bothered to talk to me?" She recalled.

I nodded my head slowly.

"Yeah she was heartbroken too. She was mad at me until I told her I was raped.." She looked down.

My eyes start to get glassy too.

"Who raped you?" My voice cracked.

"William...."

My heart skipped a beat.

"William?!" I yelled. "What?! He- he-"

"I was thinking maybe it wasn't Prince...since you've finally told us that you're being abused by William... maybe he does something else like rape you?" A tear fell down her face.

I nodded my head slowly as a rainfall of tears immediately ran down my face.

"Yes he does! This is his baby! This is why I want to get it out of me! I don't want a baby from.....him! That baby will be right in front of me and all I will think of is all the bad memories I had with William! So it's best to kill it!" I shouted.

She grabbed my hand and start crying with me.

"You have to tell Prince that this is not his baby.  I thought that Prince did that to you."

"He didn't and I never told him that I'm pregnant... I lied." I sighed and wiped my tears.

"But still, don't get rid of that baby no matter what. I still feel guilty for killing mine. At least put it up for adoption!" Her voice wobbled as tears ran down her face.

"I can't let Mama know!" I cried.

"You have to... I doubt that she'll get mad if you tell her that you've been raped by the same guy that I did and got pregnant. Please I'm trying to help you. I want him behind bars!" She cried.

I gasped for air from how hard I'm crying.

I can't believe this happened to her too!

I feel her pain.

She finally understands. God is making things easier now. Now I won't have any trouble trying to explain why I'm pregnant. I can just tell her and she'll understand.