Coby. The athletic charming heartthrob of the engineering departments that stole plenty of hearts since middle school and probably still. The complete epitome of beauty and brains. Always surrounded by friends and girls, fame and opportunities. Name it. You know what's crazy about him? Me. His best friend. Always his best friend. But I don't see him as my bestfriend  anymore.

I'm a grown woman with an eye for good-looking, charming sweet kind of a guy. Unfortunate he has all the qualities I've been looking for and there's more to him. I know because we've been friends since middle school. I know almost everything about him. We grow up together.

I was fine being his friend but it changed one day. It was February and valentines is fast approaching. Everyone is excited just as we, Senior students were excited for the coming senior's ball. Coby, the campus crush got left and right invitation. I've also got invitations because I'm also a popular girl in the campus, they say. I'm in the cheerleading team and a brainy type of a girl. I didn't become his friend just because I am witty, he has that. It's because I'm his matchmaker. I make friends with pretty girls and introduce them to Coby. Funny how he would come to me and brag about how their date goes saying I choose the best girls in the school. You see, he's not just a campus crush but a notorious cassanova too. So, senior's ball came and my partner didn't show up and failed to inform me earlier that he couldn't make it. What an asshole. That left me to be one of those damsels in the wall. I was so pissed at that time that I wanted to go home and bury myself beneath my covers. Thats when Coby showed up and become the gentleman he already is. He gave me a single rose and danced with me before he goes back being the cassanova of the night. It was a very memorable night for me that I kept the rose inside a white envelope and put it on a secured vault my father created inside my room. That was also the time when I fell inlove with my bestfriend.

"Earth to Luna!" that was Katy my roommate practically dragging me back to reality where there is no Coby-falling-in-love-with-Luna happening.

"What?" I lazily buried my face in the book I am reading just before I traveled back to time.

"Fantasizing our bestfriend, aren't we? she peered from her book.

"What? Of course not." I fiend innocence.

"Whatever. Deny it all you want. Its all over your face anyway." She rolled her eyes and continued reading and I did the same.

"You know, you should tell him about your feelings before its too late, honey. Before your heart and mouth betrays you" she chimed.

"And what? Risk ruining our friendship just because of this stupid feelings? No. Thats not gonna happen, darling." I snapped at her. "Katy, I'm his friend. I betrayed him a long time ago when I fell inlove with him. Keeping it secret is the least I can do to make it up to him. Friends don't fall in love with each other, supposedly but I crossed that line."

"Ugh! Forget it. Okay." Katy held up her hands in defeat. I sighed knowing I lied to her. I really wanted to tell him I love him. Fuck friendship. But it is what holds me back, friendship. He trusted me. If he had feelings for me, he can tell me or show me. But what? He keeps coming to me begging for a match and there I was, the matchmaker-bestfriend to the rescue. All these years, I've never seen an ounce of attraction from him. So that leaves me zero chance to be his girlfriend.

"Excuse me!" A beautiful blonde came to us and had both mine and Katy's eyes glued to her. Coleen. In flesh. The replica of Manilyn Monroe except of course for the hair and body. While Manilyn has short, curly blonde hair and a curvy body. Coleen has long shiny blonde hair and a sophisticated body. Not to mention she is also a Monroe.

"Y-yeah?" I stuttered still captivated by her beauty.

She gave us flyers for the show coming this Valentines day. She asked us if we could help her raise funds by giving the flyers to our friends since we belong in the same department. Funds will be used to feed homeless children. So much for the Charity. We agreed and she handed pads of flyers for both of us.

Before we could evacuate our seats, Mr.Bestfriend came. Still panting from a long ran from the field to the bleachers. I could see Katy rolling her eyes from her seat.

"Hi Peanut!" he waved. Before sitting down next to me. His skin glistened from sweat and he is wiping them with a towel. Blessed towel.

"Hello Potato!" I said with much sarcasm.

"A hot, gorgeous potato, you say." he smirked.

"What do you want?"

"Nothing. Wanted to see how is my peanut doing?" he grinned. I know this look. The look only Coby could do when he needs something from me. And oh, there's only one thing I do for him and you already know what its. I stared at him for one, two, three minutes before he broke into a guffaw.

"Okay, okay Peanut. You got me." he said between his laughs.

"Spill it, Coby Phillips."

Actually there is nothing to spill anyway. I know what he wants. Coby is so predictable when it comes to this. He wouldn't just pop out somewhere just because he wants to see what I'm doing, especially when he is in the middle of training. He wants to be matched.

"Who was that lovely blonde a while ago?" speaking of the match.

"Oh, no one. Just Coleen Monroe from our department and she wants us to help her distribute this flyers. Since you are here, and I know what you are going to say next..." I thrust the pad of flyers into his lap, reach for Katy's flyer and give it all to him. "... I am saving your precious saliva by saying distribute all that flyers and I'll do the favor. Call it a date night by Tuesday evening. Thank you. You're welcome." I said breathlessly and urged Katy to stand up and make our graceful exit.

"You're the best Peanut!" I heard him shout from behind.

And so, I become his cupid, again. Though every time I did this, my heart breaks a little and honestly, I don't know how many 'little heartbreaks' I had since the senior's ball. Except this time, Coby was smitten. I can see the dreamy look in his eyes when we talk about Coleen. He is serious this time. And me? Jealous. So jealous that I had a very hard time concealing it. Tears that stung my eyes are so damn hard to blink back without him noticing it. But, I had to endure it because he trusts me and I am his friend.

This is the saddest thing about friendship. Once you fall inlove with the other, everything that follows will hurt you. You cannot confess because doing so would ruin everything you build together. Whats the hardest thing to break is trust. Once you break the trust, you cannot bring it back the way it was. Like a glass, once you shatter it to pieces you can never bring it back to its original form. It will be awkward. You cannot restore what you lost. This sucks. I'm starting to hate myself for stupidly falling for my bestfriend. Of all the
people, why does it have to be him?

Days passed and Coby is slowly drifting away. Maybe he finally found his true love which means he doesn't need me anymore. Poor Luna. He still talks to me about his Coleen. I'm not surprised when he told me he introduced Coleen to his grandparents. Lucky girl.

Realization dawned at me. I guess this is an obvious sign that I should move on and let Coby go. That I should forget that once I fell inlove with my bestfriend. Not everyone deserves a happy ending, right? I've become bad by loving my bestfriend and that I once prayed that Coleen and Coby's relationship won't work out. I was pathetic. I know its hard but I should before what Katy said would come true.

As Coby drifted away, I also drifted away. I kept my distance from him, them. I buried myself in books and quit cheerleading where there's a greater chance in bumping into him. I focused more on academics rather than moping on broken heart. Books and of course Katy helped me moved on and somewhere on between I became happy. I was happy for Coby and Coleen and I for myself for overcoming a heartbreak.

I was fine and happy when one day, Coby showed up in front of my doorsteps looking so sad. Gone were the sparkling eyes and the mischievous smile he always had. I know Coby too well that merely looking at me I already know his problem. It didn't work between him and Coleen. How many months has it been? Seven? Roughly. I feel sorry for him. I know he came here talk about it so I let him sit on one of the benches outside our house and offer him some cookies.

"So, it didn't work out?" I carefully treaded.

He nodded weakly.

"You want to talk about it?"

There was silence. It must be very hard for him. He loved Coleen and I'm not blind to it. I thought I'd be happy to hear it from him but surprisingly I'm not. I felt sorry for him loke any other bestfriend would. I know it's not a good time to feel happy for myself but trust me, I am. I felt relieved because finally, I moved on and thats an achievement. But looking at Coby, everything vanished, I instantly felt the overwhelming sadness as I look into my bestfriend, suffering from a heartbreak. I scooted a little towards him and was about to talk about heartbreak when he looked at me intently. I've never seen this look in his eyes before. It was like loss, betrayal or something deeper than that. I couldn't quite place what emotions those brown eyes holds and it troubles me.

"Where were you?" he whispered.

I blinked twice, not understanding what he meant by that. Where was I?

"W-What?"

He looked away and he start cupping his face while rubbing his eyes with his fingers.

"It was you, after all." he muttered, finally dropping his head downwards.

"Coby, tell me what happened. Im sure we can talk about it, okay?" I worried about him. He's acting strange and I'm not feeling comfortable with it. Maybe their breakup troubled him so much.

"Didn't you hear me? It was you, Luna. You." he said with a downcast eyes.

"M-me? why me? I'm sure I don't understand anything Coby."

"It was you. The reason I failed every relationship I had before. I was so dumb. So dumb and stupid."

"Coby.. I.." Im lost for words. The fact that I don't understand anything, I'm also having a hard time processing what does the reason for his failed relationship means.

"Luna, I love you."

I was dumbfounded. Did I hear it right? Coby? Inlove? With me? Still, I am loss for words. The silence stretched awkwardly.

"Say something." he said, looking at me straight into my eyes.

"W-wait. Is this s-some kind of joke, Potato? I swear its not funny. Alright?" this has to be a joke.

"No, Luna. I realized it when I was with Coleen and you being busy with academics. I was used being always with you when I am dating girls that you choose for me. We, talking about everything about our lives. But when suddenly you're gone, I felt hollow. It seems like a part of me was missing. I tried working it out with her but it's not. I tried to keep distance hoping what I felt for you will disappear but no. It's not that easy. I can't get you out of mind. I miss you so much."

Tears starts to pool on the corners of my eyes when I saw his eyes glisten. Why? Why now? Gods truly are cruel. I moved on. And thats it. I cannot summon my feelings for him, except for the friendship. I can't do this to him. He's already hurting and I don't want to hurt him anymore. This so hard. Gods.

"Luna?"

We both turn our heads towards our wooden gate only to see someone peering inside. My little sister opened the gate for him and gestured towards us. He smiled upon seeing me and made his way over.

"Hi, Luna!" He flashed his most charming smile and I lost it. I completely forgot Coby was with me until he cleared his throat and look at me with a questioning eyes. This really going to hurt.

"Oh! Am- I...uh ..Prancer this is Coby, my bestfriend. And Coby meet Prancer, my boyfriend."

-Rio