" My children. I have to tell you something." I said as I gathered all of my children in my chambers. Haci, Kalika and Aybige were with me there.

" Your father Sultan Ahmed Khan has serious illness, and he probably won't survive it. We could lose him every day." I said to them and I felt so hurt while I am telling this. I wanted to cry, but I had to be strong for them. I have to be strong for my children.

"Mother, what are you talking about? Isn't there any cure for his illness?" Mehmed asked me worriedly.

" Unfornatley there is not. No one can find cure for this." I said to them and stopped for a second. It was so hard to me to tell this to them. They were so young to hear this.

" Hard time will be in front of us my dears. We have to be together in this. Whatever happens, I want you to promise me that you will protect each other even if I won't be here." I said to them.

" Mother, where could you go?" Gevherhan asked me and I could see her face is covered in tears.

" When another Sultan comes on the Throne, I will be banished to Old Palace for sure. I won't be able to be here with you. But you need to be all together. You will protect each other at any cost." I said to them as they all gathered around me.

" Halime Sultan, we need to talk." I said as I entered Halime's chambers. She was confused to see me now even though we have been in good relationship for many years.

" Mahnaz, what happened? Is it something bad?" Halime asked me as she signalised me to sit down next to her. Her daughter Dilruba was also inside her chambers together with her.

" It is something bad for me, but it will be good to you." I said to her trying not to show as much reaction on this.

" What could it be bad for you Sultana but good for us? We have been friends and allies for years." Dilruba asked me as she sat next to us.

I was in very good relationship with them as I always helped them to secretly meet with Mustafa, but I was scared if this would change when Mustafa ascends the throne and my sons will be threat to him.

" Sultan Ahmed is seriously ill. He won't survive for a long time. I want you to get prepared because when he dies, Şehzade Mustafa will ascend the throne." I said and Halime and Dilrua just looked each other surpisedly. They couldn't believe something like this is true.

" But, Sultana, how? Shouldn't Osman ascend the throne?" Dilruba asked me as she seemed afraid of this plan.

" Mahnaz, I am hoping you are telling me the truth." Halime said as she had her eyebrows raised. She was happy inside her, but at another side she was really worried.

" Sultan made the rule that eldest Prince will ascend the throne, and this is Mustafa. If he wouldn't even get this rule, I would do whatever is needed for this rule. I don't want to see Osman at the throne in any possible scenario." I said to them.

" But Sultana, why do you want Mustafa to ascend the throne if you have your own sons?" Dilruba asked me with her eyebrows raised. I saw she is confused by this.

" To stop the fracticide that was happening in our Empire. We need to stop it. It should ascend by the age. Only thing I want from you is to keep my sons on freedom. I want them to be safe and that you wouldn't even want to do anything bad to them." I said. I trusted Halime because she helped me for many years and I helped her, but power always change people.

" You shouldn't worry, I will protect your sons, Mahnaz. If there wasn't for you, I would never see my Mustafa. I will save your sons and take care of them, but I can't promise you to do the same thing with Osman. He could rebel against my Mustafa." Halime said to me as she took my hands into hers.

" I don't care what will you do with Osman, do whatever you want. But save lives of my sons." I said to her and left her chambers.

I went to Ahmed's chambers because I wanted to be with him in his last days. I couldn’t believe my husband would die when he is in his late 30s. He didn't deserve to fell ill so young.

I saw him laying down on his bed and he was in bad condition. I went there and layed next to him. I took his hand into mine and smiled to him.

His smile was so weak but it was from heart. My heart couldn't stand the pain of looking my husband being in so terrible condition. Knowing he is so weak and he can't do anything alone without servants.

" I have one last wish from you Mahnaz, please make me happy before I die." Ahmed barely could say to me. He was speaking so slow.

" Whatever you wish my Ahmed, I would do whatever you want." I said and kissed his hand.

" Read me the poetry I wrote all those years about you." Ahmed said and my heart melt. I went for a book which was standing on his table and took it in my hands.

The book was really fat, I opened it and started reading the first one I saw.

Beautiful black eyes and long curly black hair occupied my heart. Heart shaped face which made me think about it for the whole time. Woman with charisma that lights up my world. I never believed I could fall in love for the first moment I saw her.

" I wrote this on the day I bought you. I fell in love with you immediatley and wanted you to be mine." Ahmed said as he took my hand tighther.

I layed next to him so his head could be on my chest relaxing and with one hand I was playing with his hair.

Love of my life became mother of my children. My two beautiful children, Mehmed and Gevherhan. Without this woman I would be lost. No one could understand me or make me smile. No one can make me feel so happy like she does only by being in her presence.

" I wrote this when you made me happiest man in the whole world by gifting me with our beautiful children." Ahmed said to me and tear went down my eyes, both from happiness about this and sadness with knowledge I will lose him very soon.

If you would want only the sunshine, I would go and shine for you like a sun. If you would like it always to be spring, I would order everyone to make it to be spring for you. You take me to the places I have never been to, you take me to the edge of light where darkness begin. I ruled the whole world but you ruled with my heart. I had no idea what love is until I met you. I had no idea what are those emotions you can feel only once in your lifetime to one special person. You are reason of my existance. I will always live in heart of our children.

" I love you like I loved no one else in this world. You learned me how to love. This is the last thing I wrote. I hope you will remember me forever. I hope you will tell to our children how I was. I hope they will remember their father who loved them and their mother endlessly." Ahmed said as his hand dropped from mine. He could barely speak anymore.

" Ahmed, I love you so much. Don't leave me please. Nothing will have sense without you anymore. I wanted us to grow up old and watch our grandchildren together." I said to him as I kissed his lips gently, but he was to weak to do anything than to look at my eyes.

" I leave children and the state for you. You will know how to do it the best. Please never forget about me, never forget about Ahmed who loved you more than everything in this world." Ahmed said and closed his eyes once forever.

"Ahmed!" I yelled as my heart stayed without it's biggest part. I stayed without my Ahmed. My love.