⚠️TRIGGER WARNING CHAPTER!
This chapter deals with depression that min yoongi actually deals with. It's a daily battle and I asked my man for help and advise from this chapter since he two suffers with depression and anxiety. This is something we deal with constantly. But people with depression deserve to be loved too. Fun fact my man and yoongi are born on the same day and they could be twins. They act alike. Now to the chapter. Enjoy it!
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It's been 6 months since me and yoongi have been together. Today is actually our 6th month anniversary. But something is off.
Yoongi has been acting really weird. He's been distant, and our sex life has become almost non existent. I worry if he's becoming like chan, uninterested in me.

I'm sitting at my desk thumbing through the divorce papers I just filed. Making sure everything is right before I submit them but I sigh thinking my relationship with yoongi is doomed to repeat my last relationship.

I stand up and walk over to yoongi's office and knock.

I hear a song playing low in his office. It's a song he did.

"When did you make this song?"

"Last week. It's called the last"

Theres a long akward pause.

"Yoongi, can we talk please"

"Sure" he says but doesn't bother looking up at me. Instead his head is slumped at his desk.

I walk over and sit on his couch. I look at the brown leather touching it remembering the times me and him had sex on this very couch, But it all seems like a distant memory. The last time I had sex with him was the last time he came over to my house which was a month ago.

"Yoongi, our 6 month Anniversary is today do you want to do something today or did you want to be alone?"

He keeps knocking over a small Naruto figurine he has on his desk. He picks it back up and does it again.

"Has it been 6 months already" he says never breaking from his actions.

"Yes yoongi It has. What's wrong with you? You have changed."

"Have i or did you just never know me?"

"What is that supposed to mean?" I deadpan at him

"Just like I said." He murmured back

I scoff how can he be like this to me? how can he be so cold. I start to sniffle holding back tears

"You know what I'll come by today and get my things at your place. I never forced you to be with me yoongi."

"Just leave they all do eventually anyway"

What does he mean by that? Just then I hear the lyrics in the song that was playing. And remember that yoongi speaks through his music. His feelings are in that song. It talks of him trying to commit suicide at one time in his life. His anxiety and depression......that's it! he's depressed! But I can't help him all I can do is be there and let him know I'm not leaving his side.

I walk over to him throwing the figurine and kneeling in front of him. I cup his face in my hands.

"Yoongi look at me. I'm right here I'm not going anywhere. I love you, and you will get through this, we will get through this."

"I don't deserve you. You deserve someone better. Someone who's not sick."

"Yoongi, I may not know what you're going through, but I'm here for you. I'm not going anywhere."

"Why, why are you doing this. You could have anyone else in the world, why me?" He says as a tear escapes his eyes

"Because I love you yoongi! I want you!"

"You don't think this is all in my head?"

"No i know it's not. I've read up enough to know depression is a disease. A mental illness that doesn't just go away, You learn to cope with it. But it will never leave."

He looks up at me with tears in his eyes. And for the first time in a month I see him. He's there in his eyes. He may feel like he's drowning or he's lost himself, but I'm there to help and remind him he's still there. And he's loved

"Thank you Y/N for seeing me. For understanding me and not wanting to leave.

I wipe a tear from his face.

"Of course yoongi I love you. I'm sorry I thought it was something else. I thought you didn't love me anymore."

He chuckles "are you kidding I love you so much, and now I love you even more."

I give him a kiss on the lips and look up at him.

"We will get through this together just promise me to never hurt yourself and to always talk to me if you need someone."

"I promise"

I stand up and grab his hand.

"Come on baby we will spend our anniversary at home. We will order food and watch a movie."

"He smiles his gummy smile that sounds nice."

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YOONGI'S POV

We're both on the couch. I'm sitting up and Y/N is laying on my lap cuddled up. We both finished eating dinner and are watching my favorite movie dark knight rises. I'm stroking her hair thinking to myself how I got so lucky to have a woman like her.

She's a fighter. And I never knew I needed that till now.

She cares about me so much that she stayed in with me on our 6th month anniversary a huge milestone to sit and watch movies and eat. Knowing that's what I needed to heal.

She removed my anxiety from the situation to focus on my mental health. She pushed me out of that pit of despair. Sure she could have left or ran, I wouldn't have blamed her. But she stayed and she fought for me, For us.

I smile down at her and it clicks. She's the one. The one I have waited for all my life. The one who loves me even at my most vulnerable state.

I pick her up in my arms and she squeals at me.

"What are you doing yoongi"

"Something I should have done a month ago."

I carry her bridal style to the bed and lay her down.
I pull off her sweatpants and her shirt. Then get right to work Sucking on her nipples.

"Yoongi" she moans my name and a rush of heat fills my body. I love whe she moans my name. I quickly pull of my hoodie and sweatpants leaving us both naked now. I waist no time diving in between her legs sucking on her sensitive bud. She spreads her legs wider and grabs my hair pushing me further into her. She moans in delight. I love making her feel good, even if I feel like shit, I can't deny her. She's the light in my shadows.

She starts to cum and I lick up her sweet juices, She tastes so good. I raise up to kiss her passionately letting her taste herself.

"Yoongi please fuck me" she whispers as she bites her lip and that's all I needed. I thrust into her opening hard not giving her time to adjust. She screams out.

I grab her breast as I start thrusting hard into her. I know she likes it rough and her moans are telling me she loves it. I smack her breast then grab it again, she arches her back in pleasure.

"That's it kitten purr for me"

"Fuck" she moans out.

I pull out and roll her over shoving back into her, and she squeals in delight at the feeling of me inside her again.

"Harder daddy"

That word just fueled the raging hard on I have for her. It makes my dick twitch everytime.

I pull her hair as I keep thrusting into her the other hand smacks her round perfect ass hard and swift.

"Agh daddy yes harder, don't fucking stop"

I place my right hand on her hip squeezing it as my left hand reaches for her mouth. I pull her back by her mouth so her back is against my chest. I whisper in her ear as my hand is shoved in her mouth. Tears streaming down her face.

"You have such a dirty mouth kitten. Watch your words"

I keep thrusting harder snapping my hips against her ass.

"You like when I fuck you hard don't you?"

She nods moaning unable to talk cause of my fingers in her mouth. I release my hand from inside her mouth. I can feel her start to clentch.

"I couldn't hear you kitten. Do you like the way daddy fucks your pretty pussy?"

"Fuuuck yes" she screams out about to cum

"Watch your fucking mouth kitten"

I lightly smack her in the mouth and as soon as I do that she cums but not only that she squirts hard and allot. As soon as she squirts I cum feeling her all over my dick dripping down my legs sending me over the edge. She's perfect. She's the most sweetest, beautiful person I know but can be the perfect bad girl in bed.

"That's my girl give daddy what he wants"

I keep thrusting letting her milk me of everything I have to give. Then I collapse on her back.

She collapses on the bed.

I kiss her shoulder and she moans.

"Thank you for loving me when I'm broken" I tell her

I roll off of her and she turns looking at me.

"You loved me when I was broken, why would I not do the same?"

I half smile at her.
"No one has ever stuck around to understand me. To love me even when I'm a mess. Only you" I say

And in that moment I knew. I was hers forever. Anything she wanted, Anything she needed I would move heaven and earth to give it to her. She's the one.

The one I want to marry