"so."

"so?"

the memories were almost playing through the sky.

my throat burned a bit as i took another drink.

"yoongi what's fifteen times forty two?"

"shut the fuck up, jimin."

he wasn't drunk, but he wasn't fully sober either.

i let out a breath i didn't know i was holding.

"i hate myself." i froze at the words.

just as i was about to confess, he spoke first.

"i never really realized it again until after you became my roommate."

i didn't really know what to say.

how was i supposed to respond to something like that?

"you know, i heard you crying last night."

i brought the cold bottle back up to my lips.

another burning sensation taking over my throat for a couple of seconds.

"i'm not sure if you remember or not, but i laid with you for awhile. you were so tired and weak; it reminded me of how we were before. it made me feel like a piece of shit." that bitter laugh pained me.

"i'm sorry."

"don't be, i was happy to be holding you again, especially after what you said."

"what did i say?" i didn't even remember crying last night, much less saying anything.

his long, slim, pale fingers loosely held the top of the bottle.

his lips turned up a bit as he slightly spun the glass in his hand.

"probably the same words you made me come out here to say."

i looked up at the stars, reaching my hand up in the air.

they looked so close from here, yet they was so far away.

it seemed like i could just grab some as if they were right in front of me.

unfortunately, when i tried to do so my fingers failed to get ahold of them.

"you've always reached towards the stars in the sky not knowing that you shined brighter than them all, park jimin." i gave him a confused glance.

"but i'm not a star, yoongi."

he admired my face for a minute before replying.

i felt so shy under his gaze.

"i guess you're right- yet for some reason, my dark sky is still filled with your light."

a smile took over my lips.

"yoongi?"

i meant to grab my phone to check the time, but i ended up grabbing his hand.

maybe because it felt right, or just because i was cold, i kept it there for some reason.

"i love you."