Chapter 30 : Go kill yourself
Kimberly's Pov (only because it would make more sense. More Sebastian's (and maybe Rafa's) pov chapters coming, don't worry, I got you covered). I just did brackets in brackets. HAHAHAHAHA.
The next month went by. Rafa was now not even looking at Carter or Sebby and gang. You could see the hurt every time you looked at Carter. His eyes were always blank and he hardly socialised anymore. I heard he was drowning his sorrow in alcohol and his grades were slipping. And there was nothing I could do. I felt useless, watching 2 people being rid of their other souls just for another. It was stupid really. But it wasn't to Rafa.
The bullying got worse and I would get a little more than just a sprained ankle, especially because Cafa was the strongest ship in the school and I had broken them up. Also, rumours had been made and twisted but what did I expect? The words were hurting more than the actual physical pain and it was getting harder to see Sebastian so in love with Hannah, but from the bottom of my heart, I supported them. Waking up in the morning was becoming difficult. I would have to drag myself out of bed each morning and wear dark clothes so I blend in. Rafa can't be with me all the time and I guess that's good for her but bad for me. I'll tell myself in the morning that today is going to be fine and okay until I'm walking to school biting my nails. School is supposed to be a safe place but instead, it's the house of demons. I understand why people call it 'hell' now. My only friend was the nurse. I wanted to walk through the hallways with a smile on my face and my head held up high but I know I can't because then everything will be worse. I want to be treated like I'm worth something and have friends and a loving boyfriend waiting for me at lunch once again. I want to wake up one morning, happy and with no worry about what will happen. I want to be able to go to school and walk through the gates, truly excited for the day to come. But those days are gone, merely memories now. I don't understand why I'm not allowed that anymore but then I realise it's because I'm not a princess in a fairytale, I'm a victim in a reality.
"Bye Kim, see you at lunch."
"Bye Rafa," I wave back at her as we go our separate ways. I counted to 3 before my body was plunged into the lockers. It's sad that I've been through so much pain that I could now say, 'I'm used to it.' I don't flinch or respond in any way but just await her hurtful words and actions.
"So you little slut, how'd you end up being Rafa's sister. Bet you're adopted because your real parents don't love you." And she laughed. It wasn't even funny. I rolled my eyes at her stupidity and lack of a sense of humour.
"Did you just roll your eyes at me? Eh, you little *female dog*. How dare you!" She then pushes me against the locker making me drop my things and fall to the ground. With her heeled shoe, she kicks me, it hurt.
"You need to go kill yourself, maybe then everyone will be happy."
I slowly lifted my head up to her to see her mouth in an annoying smirk and said in a monotone voice.
"Maybe I will."
I smiled at her shocked and confused face before grabbing my things and walking to the nurse's office.
"Kimberly! Sweetheart, you need to report this." The nurse says as she saw me.
"Honestly I'm fine. Plus it'll be over soon."
She started cleaning me up.
"Who is doing this to you?"
"Someone who'll go to hell."
The nurse shook her head at me but refrained from asking me again.
The day went by slowly, eventually it was time to go home. Rafa and I walked home in silence, words not needing to be expressed. As soon as I reached home, I took out papers, pencils and things to decorate them with. I spent the rest of the day and all night writing and pouring my feeling into them. Tomorrow is the day, tomorrow is when everyone around me will finally find happiness and tomorrow, tomorrow is finally when I'm going to see my best friend again, not only just in pictures and videos.
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