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4/26/16

Guys this is Jen's past so yeh :p
Onto da story~!

My name is Jen Shinozaki,I am now currently 17 years old,I love to sing and be with my best friend in the whole world Eren.My life has been normal till now,so I'll explain everything

~Flashback to 6 year ago~

When I was 11 years old I recieved a notice that my parents left me when they divorced,so Dr.Erwin took care of me since then.I would usually call him dad since we trusted each other like father and daughter.Out of the hospital I was a different person..I would be depressed and shut everyone out.They would bully me at school saying I'm worthless,or that my parents never loved me.

They aren't wrong though,I'm all of that and I can't deny the truth

But we just have to leave that aside don't we?

~12~

When I turned 12 I had the dream to sing,so I did,I would sing on school when I was alone.The bullies never left though,so I would arrive at the hospital,with either broken arms or legs while being bruised everywere, Erwin would ask me

"Who is it?And why?"

But I always smiled saying it dosen't matter or don't worry.

Smiles can hide everything can they?

~13~

When I was 13 I would start writting songs that I liked,it was always broken or messed up due to the bullies. But I didn't care..I have felt more pain than the one they give me.So it's like it doesn't affects me at all.

There would be a boy in my class that always told me

"If you need help you can call me"

Believe me..I have tried..but I never knew who the boy was since I never faced him and when I would do he wasn't there anymore..

Who are you that is trying to save me?

~14~

When I turned 14 Erwin found something wrong in my throat..he asked me if I was screaming too much, my answer was

'I take my pain away by singing'

He nodded understanding while he told me I'm not suppose to sing anymore

Then how will I take my pain away?

~15~

I turned 15 and I would still sing,he told me I may die if I did,that shocked me as I ran to my school going to the roof,I didn't care about anything,my vain will just go away if I take a step forward

I climbed up the fence that is suppose to keep us away from the edge at the roof,I stood at the edge as I looked at the sky seeings it's colors

Yellow and orange

Colors that mean loneliness to me.I felt water on my face as I noticed it was my tears

How long was the last time I cried?

I took a deep breath ready to face freedom,but someone stopped me as it enveloped me in a warm embrace I haven't remembered my whole life.

Which was the last time I was actually warmed?

The person held me tight as I stood in place with the breeze flowing between us.The person turned me around as it layed his head on the crook of my neck tighting it's grip on my school uniform.His warmth enveloped on my cold self as I was starting to feel numb

"I know how you feel.."

That's not true..

"I also lost my parents.."

Mine left me..

"I turned out to be like you.."

You know nothing about me..

"But you gave me light.."

'Light..?'

I managed to say that as he nodded and I felt my arms wrap themselves around him while my body was clenching itself inside.What are you doing to me..?

"The message by you're songs.. they reached me and I could feel the pain you have.."

'Who are you..?'

I asked as I could finally see how he looks like..

Chocolate messy brown locks..teal-green shinning orbs..and tan skin..

"Eren Yaeger"

That name repeated itself in my head as the liquid known as tears started to pour themselves out of my eyes while I clutched his shirt.Eren used his thumb to wipe my tears while I started sobbing uncontrollably.

"You can let it all out..it helps actually..and if you needed someone you could just call me.."

So you were the boy trying to save me weren't you Eren?

~16~

I started to live with Eren in his house ever since we sang a song at the beach together where I met a girl with (h/c) and (e/c).I also smiled more now.. Eren did changed me indeed and I promised to stay with him together forever but..the news I got today ruined that..

I recieved a letter from Erwin that said I had throat cancer,and that I needed surgery fast cause I'm by stage 3 and that's deadly already..

But I can't have it now..I still have to sing..I need to stay with Eren..Dilly Curseton needs me so I can babysit Dai and Ciel..the people at the studio want to hear me sing..

I felt my eyes water when I heard the front door open revealing Eren.I hid the note as I wipped my tears smiling

'Welcome back!'

"Hey Jen I recieved a note saying that we have a concert tomorrow!Isn't that great!"

No..it's not..

'Really!That's great I can't wait!'

Eren smiled at me guininely as I did the same.

Eren..I can't bring myself to tell you the truth..

At night I was sleeping with Eren, apperantly I fell for the German boy.. in which makes it worst..so I took the chance and slipped out of the bed to pack my clothes.When I finished I looked at Eren one last time seeing him sleep like a child..

I smiled sadly while I wrote a note

'I'm sorry Eren..I really am..tell the others that I ran away..but I promise I will come back to the studios..even if I'm not here never stop smiling okay?

Love,
Jen Shinozaki'

I felt the tears escape my eyes as I placed the letter on his desk and I kissed his forhead

'I'm sorry..'

~17~

It was time I return to the studios..I just can't face Eren now..so when I entered everyone looked at me happily saying where have I been,or what happened.

I guess Eren did tell them..I went to Dai's office as she looked at me shocked and smiled with tears in her eyes.She hugged me saying she missed me..Ciel came in as well shocked but I hugged him even if he was cold hearted,I know he missed me.

I saw (Y/n) again,she growed into a beautiful young lady,and she sings now which makes me even happier.. but what made me better was when I saw Eren again by entering in another door.

His messy chocolate brown locks necer changed,his teal-green orbs still have the same glint..he only looked more matured..

It made my stomach flip,but I became sad when I forgot he would ask me what happened to me..I'll have to tell him someday..

Next week,it was my concert at night.. even in the stage my throat cancer it won't stop me by singing today..so I did.I sang the song with all my power as everyone enjoyed it..but when the song stopped the air was cutted in my throat making me clutch it and fall..

I told Levi and (Y/n) my wish for them since I won't speak anymore..what was left is Eren..when I looked at him he was crying looking at me with the same feeling in his eyes..

Loneliness..

I smiled guinine as tears were escaping my eyes..I wanted to tell him everything I felt for him,but time was cutting it short so..I gave him my necklace that had a message written for him inside..and the only thing I could say before they took me away was..

"I-Im..s-sor..ry.."

Author's note

Welp this is a chapter that made me a bit sad actually ;-:
Anyways hope you liked it and see you in the next chapter~!
Sayonara~!

~PewKittyParty☆