junhui, 

i really hate eating alone. everyone stares at you; and when they laugh, you think they're laughing at you. i hate this feeling - but i feel as though i deserve it, for being such a dick to you. i should've treated you better - but i thought i was treating you the best i could.

obviously not, as shown by these later actions.

also, 1 more to go! i'm sort of excited, because my hand hurts from writing to you all these times, but it's boring - because i'm not getting anything back. 

please, though, write back once. 

just once.

your boyfriend,

                      minghao.